okay i know i said i would not do this but for the sake of my sanity & using oliver more i’m moving him over to @roundourwcy. i love him to death and don’t use him as much now because he’s on his own personal blog & i hate that bc he’s my favorite so you can find him, and our threads if you’d like, there from now on
okay i know i said i would not do this but for the sake of my sanity & using oliver more i’m moving him over to @roundourwcy. i love him to death and don’t use him as much now because he’s on his own personal blog & i hate that bc he’s my favorite so you can find him, and our threads if you’d like, there from now on
here’s something fun: reblog this and put in the tags a random piece of information you’ve learnt while researching for your muse. anything works: crucial to the character or something only relating to tangentially; something actually useful or a pointless factoid.
𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐒𝐖𝐀𝐘, despite the music having faded from the room. when, she’s not entirely sure. sometimes, when she was with oliver, everything else seemed to fall around her, to melt into some haze-like dream. she knows now it’s not — it’s real, it’s happening. perhaps if her father was here, he’d speak of how FOOLISH and NAÏVE she was in love. even still, there’s a part of her that still feels as if she’s just begging for her heart to be broken. she’s learning how to stop listening to that part of her, how to have faith that she could be happy and found. loved. but, with that comes a comfort in knowing that oliver is learning too.
even after he speaks, there’s a long silence from anna. body presses a bit further into his, as if she’s desperate for the warmth he gives off. she knows her eyes have closed at some point and her feet have lost their rhythm, relying heavily on oliver’s own movements. her mind is elsewhere, thoughts wandering to the idea of oliver and his mother. from what he’s spoke of her, she seemed WONDERFUL. she imagines what it was like — growing up with georgia and hal for parents, spending days at the museum, listening to old records until they played their last rotation. she imagines what it must have felt like, the whirlwind of losing his mother and finding out his father was gay, his new life, only lived for a short few years before passing.
a part of her still feels as if she’s taken her parents for granted. she could call, visit. but she made a choice not to. misfortune would have it so anna’s parents, specifically her father, were not on the best of terms with their daughter. wandering mind draws her emotions to shift, allowing a stray tear to fall from her eye and roll down her cheek. ❛ do you think we’ll ever stop missing people ? or will it feel like this forever ? ❜
oliver wished he knew what was going on in anna’s mind sometimes , just to ease her from the worries that plagued her. he wanted to protect her , tell her that everything was going to be fine & that he would always be there to hold her. if she needed to cry about how many hotels she’d stayed in & how lonely they felt or talk about her father , he wanted to be there to wrap her in his embrace. he wanted to kiss & talk away the pain that she had to fight by herself for so long the way she had kissed & talked away the pain that had at once overtaken him. oliver wanted anna to lean on him , & to ask him for help , because he knew what it was to be alone & to be scared & he loved her so much he didn’t want her to have to ever feel that way.
when he heard her speak after a moment of complete silence , these worries of his did not ease. oliver didn’t let her out of his embrace , instead preferring to welcome her further into it , letting her know that he too wanted her close -- to let her know that he was there. when he saw a tear roll down her cheek , oliver couldn’t help let his twin-flesh form into a frown. momentarily unwrapping his arms from around her waist , oliver took her face into his hands gently , letting the pad of his thumb wipe away the tear. he pressed a gentle kiss on her lips , not avoiding the question but wanting desperately to relieve her from the pain of it.
❛ i don’t know , ❜ he answers with honesty , placing a kiss on her cheek this time , then one at the edge of her mouth , the place where the smiles usually began. ❛ i don’t think so , but i think the missing becomes less painful after a while. we start to miss people in a nostalgic sort of way & it stops eating you up. you just think about them sometimes & you don’t feel sad , you just feel. ❜
* so i start a REVOLUTION from my bed ‘cause you said the brains i had went to my head . step outside , summertime's in bloom. stand up beside the fireplace , take that look from off your face . ‘cause you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
( independent ewan mcgregor multimuse loved by miranda . )
this assignment had been the first of its kind for oliver , who had grown accustomed to working inside the walls of an office nearly every day since he had began. it wasn’t out of the ordinary to do work for a small business every now & then , to make a logo or a poster , but to work for a company like this ? it wasn’t entirely the sort of art oliver desired to do , but it was what he considered a bout of luck anyways , because it had more than paid for the bills. for the first time since he had started this career , oliver was receiving a paycheck that of someone who had truly hit a certain level of desired success. so he wouldn’t be able to draw the thins he wanted for a little ? he always had home time.
with the new paycheck came the new surroundings as well , something oliver had felt both anxious & excited about. he could not bring his dog along , something he had worried about & had let himself use as an excuse to refuse the job initially , before realizing what a mistake that would be. oliver needed a new environment as much as arthur did , so he found the dog a suitable sitter & started a job at a new location. he was provided with a small temporary office & someone to show him around , to teach him about what they were doing.
❛ hi , i’m oliver , ❜ he greeted , sitting his stuff down on the desk. ❛ you must be liz ? ❜ he thought he’d remembered reading that in the email.
𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐎𝐅𝐅 𝐓𝐎. especially as she travels. seeing how different parts of the nation or globe pay homage to what seems like a lost art — purchasing physical copies of writing. she’s someone who spent the four years of hell in high school with her nose in books in the library or journalism class. she appreciates what words on paper can do for lost souls. but there’s a certain enjoyment she finds in visiting bookstores. no shushing like a library , but instead pleasant conversation can be had with those of intellect & shared interest. she adores that in her sobriety as much as reaching the bottom of the bottle when she wasn’t.
today she’s in los angeles. a friend asked that she come stay a while & catch up. never one to pass up the opportunity to travel , jackie obliged. the particular shop she finds herself at is quite quaint in such a bright , bustling city. she likes that. stepping inside , a bell jingles overhead & the scent of inked pages fills her with as much joy as she can muster. she saunters down a couple of aisles before hearing her name , prompting a turn around to focus on a man asking if that’s who she is. the corners of plump , dark chocolate painted lips upturn into a humble smile at the recognition.
❛ mhm. that’s me , ❜ she speaks softly , noting that the male doesn’t come across as anywhere near sleazy as most men do when they recognize her — that only causes her to approach , offering a hand. ❛ it’s nice to meet you. & you are … ? ❜
her interest in him surprises oliver ; he’d imagined she’d confirm her identity in his mind before he opened his mouth , but he hadn’t thought she’d want to strike up any sort of conversation. it was uncharacteristic of him to open his mouth without any clear intention of what he is going to say next , but he’s done so now & so every word past the confirmation is something outside of what he could have possibly imagined. he’s not starstruck , but he’s in some state past normality , one that leaves him stumbling for words he knows , that’s he’s repeated a million times. blue orbs offer an apologetic glance , before he sets the book he was browsing back the shelf & returns to wherever he let his mind roam there for a second.
his hand extends to meet her own , shaking it gently & grinning weakly. ❛ i’m oliver fields. it’s nice to meet you too, ❜ he speaks , a bit nervously. his inability to conduct himself as a coherent human being these days is one that has began to baffle him. at what time did he lose his sense of being a person & when was he going to get it back ? or had he become so disconnected with others of his kind that he would be stuck inside speaking with his dog for the rest of his life ?
❛ i’m sorry to have bothered you , but i just wanted to say i really enjoyed your book , ❜ he offers. it is an explanation , a sign that he has developed all the necessary social skills & can conduct himself in a way that is approachable. there is hope. ❛ it was a chilling account of something horrific & i think you’re a very talented journalist. congratulations on all your success with it. ❜
@shotbled asked « I seriously adore your blog and what we are building ever so slowly up. I think you are a fantastic writer with an equally amazing muse. I just wanted to let you know that I adore you. »
this is literally the kindest thing anyone has said to me thank you so much for the spot of positivity in the inbox ! i really adore your blog too & i am thrilled to see where things will go with our muses !
“ the talking heads? fuck, dude - i used to listen to psycho killer on repeat. “ you went through an alternative stage in your teens, so you can relate to him completely. “ i was way too into ramones, too. and blondie - i wanted to be debbie harry far too badly. “ hence the blonde hair. perhaps you didn’t completely grow out of it. “ maybe you could show me some of your art sometime? “ you’re always interested to see inside the mind of a fellow artist. it inspires you, how differently you all think - how differently creativity can be expressed. “ and maybe, i don’t know - maybe one night we can get together and draw together? i’ve always wanted to turn up at somebody’s place with a sketchbook and a bottle of wine. weird dream, i know - but it’s that sort of movie clichè that i’ve just always wanted to experience. “
❛ i still have it on repeat sometimes. though as i grow older & less angry , i do find myself enjoying songs like and i was & don’t worry about the government more , too. ❜ he confines , grinning in a muted manner. it was odd , to be talking about things he hadn’t in so long ; it made him feel nostalgic almost. ❛ i mean, she was pretty cool wasn’t she ? blondie was the sort of band my mom didn’t mind me playing. she could understand them & she thought it was pretty & i had a massive crush on debbie harry as most boys did , so blondie went over well in my house. ❜ he nods his head. the idea of having her over sounded nice to him ; it’d been so long since anyone had truly visited him. ❛ i’d love to show some of my work. i have about fifty percent of it at work & the other fifty at home , but i always thought my home stuff is better than my work stuff. and i think that’d be wonderful. i could make dinner or something too, if you’d like. it’s usually just me & my dog so i don’t mind going all for the one guest we get a year. ❜
hi ! i’m sorry i haven’t been here a lot the past few days but i promise my activity will pick up when i finish with @roundourwcy & the essay i’ve been trying to write for days ! i have not forgotten oliver !
a collection of scenarios that involve our muses ‘ kissing ’ . feel free to specify , or send ‘ KISSES ’ for me to randomly generate a number . do not copy & redistribute as your own .
he had been forewarned about the events that were to take place as of today when he’d been around to cook his father dinner yesterday. it had filled him with anticipation , leaving oliver with little sleep & much grief. all his father had told him was that he had something he needed to tell him & that he hoped he’d be able to take it. it’d been a less than a year since his mother had passed away , & oliver frequently made trips to his father’s to make sure he was going to survive without her ; he cooked him dinner , helped him water the plants , drove him to staples when need be -- all the sort of things he did before , except a little more to make up for his mom’s part. oliver didn’t mind it , really. he had never been particularly close with his father growing up , & he’d always been upset & confused about that. he thought maybe this might be good for them , that they could bond & share things that they needed to. they could talk about life & people & he could ask the sort of questions he had wandered as a child , that he could not ask in the presence of his mother like “ did you cheat on her ? “ or “ did you really love her ? “ things he had wandered for decades , but never had the opportunity or gall to say. it was sort of now or never ; he’d already buried a parent & this one wasn’t getting any younger , yet nothing really had been established yet & they were six months out. but oliver still hoped.
“ i’m gay. “
that’s what his father said. he said it as he sat on the couch across from oliver & he looked down at the ground & oliver was relieved , because he wasn’t certain what sort of ball this man was going to throw at him. all the anxiety oliver held was released , a burden of some kind lifted , & oliver knew he should feel something other than revealed at this news , but that’s what he was. his father hadn’t just thrown him a ball , he’d sent an ocean wave in his direction , but oliver felt better now that he knew it wasn’t something like he wanted to move in or that he was sick too.
“ i loved your mother but uh , now i want to explore this side , ” he continued. oliver had never seen his father so anxious , but he’d also never heard him sound so relieved either. “ i don’t want to be just theoretically gay -- i want to do something about it. ”
oliver furrowed his eyebrow , uncertain how to respond. it wasn’t every day one found themselves in the thick of a situation like this one , but then again , he had never really understood the man that sat in front of him at all to begin with. he loved his father , but their relationship had been shaky at best for the longest time. there was a disconnect between them , a sort of misunderstanding on both of their parts. oliver had been taught not to ask questions , so he didn’t & he didn’t tell either. it was a sort of mutual agreement , & they’d both signed the contract long ago but everything seemed to be going out the window now. it was as if his father had said “ here oliver , this is what we’re going to be now. this is who i am ” & instead of asking any questions oliver could only say , “ jesus i thought --- you know, just that’s alright , pop. i love you. ”
oliver had never seen his father so alive than he had in that moment & it did make him wonder about a lot -- mostly his mother. did she know ? why did he want to be gay now ? what was the appeal ? but he didn’t ask anything because he wasn’t used to doing so. he was a child that observed , & became an adult that did so as well. he would figure it out in due time , he was certain , but for now he would let it be this & he would take his relief & he would run with it before hal did suggest him moving in oliver.
“ i love you too, ” his father answered.
oliver nodded , looking over at arthur. the dog stared back blankly. “ do you want me to make lunch , pop ? ”
“ i think we should go out. i want to celebrate. i want to go shopping too. ” hal rose from his place on the couch. “ i want you to show some nice shops. i’m going to get dressed & we’ll make a day of it. ”
oliver smiled. “ okay. “
he watched as his father disappeared into the darkness of the hallway leading to their bedroom -- his father & his mother’s. he thought about the picture on the wall of the daisies. his mother was giving him the daisies. he was giving his mother the daises. today she gave hal the daisies. life was odd , & oliver wasn’t sure he was ever going to come to terms with it , but he felt better even if it would make sense that he felt worse. this was the thing he had held out hope for. this was the thing he had wanted. despite the endless questions in his head , oliver decided to take this in stride , the way his father was doing now. this was the beginning.