inky, epher, lear - she/they - sapphic aroace - filo - minor - writer - fagatha christie - literature and history nerd - sea creature lover - obsessive researcher of trivial things - most fervent detective fanatic - d&d dungeon master + call of cthulhu keeper - hercule poirot's biggest fan - very very prone to rambling - the ultimate found family enjoyer 💯 - oc making addict - shakespeare's biggest opp(i own the full collection of his works and named my dog after him) - "i von to suck your enzymes" - "oh okay"
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^ i've been on tumblr for years and used to be extremely active but i'm veryyy inconsistent nowadays sorry
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Things I love
classic literature - marine biology - history - absurdism - anything mystery fiction - musical theatre - myths&folktales - forensics - writing - podcasts - philosophy - defying fate on a thursday - ttrpgs - shakespeare - philosophy - arthurian legends - old foreign comics - social deduction games - random fun facts
Fandoms
persona 5 - unwitness protection program - selene - the riordanverse - garden street ghost agency - a series of unfortunate events - the magnus archives - ducktales 2017 - voltron legendary defenders - peanuts - apothecary diaries - bungou stray dogs - marvel&dc - a good girl's guide to murder - genshin impact - the hunger games - gravity falls - octonauts - genshin impact - south park - dead boy detectives - lockwood and co - stranger things - nevermore - the osemanverse - alien stage - school bus graveyard - mcyt - stranger things - over the garden wall - kimetsu no yaiba - the maze runner - hellaverse - brooklyn 99 - hilda - haunted hotel - hooky - marionetta - the dragon prince - the umbrella academy - jurassic world camp cretaceous/chaos theory - murder most unladylike - yellowjackets - twin peaks - murder, she wrote - dexter - bones - my little pony - the amazing digital circus - ever after high - toilet bound hanako kun - spy x family - carmen sandiego - the owl house - avatar the last airbender - inside job - dr stone - malevolent - red valley - old gods of appalachia - the good place - the poppy war - ouran highschool host club - pokemon - little witch academia - witch hat atelier - other stuff I cannot recall for the life of me right now(i like a lot of things)
Music(except i'm a huge theatre kid)
madds buckley - will wood - cavetown - dirt poor robins - the good kid - yaelokre - the crane wives - starkid - the lightning thief musical - the imaginary life and death of edgar allan poe - frankenstein the musical - jekyll & hyde - something rotten -hamilton - epic - beetlejuice - ride the cyclone - school of rock - mean girls - heathers - be more chill - wicked - newsies - falsettos - come from away - dear evan hansen - in the heights - waitress - six the musical - legally blonde - rents - cats - little gift shop of horrors - hairspray - bring it on - les miserables - the great gatsby - chicago - anything stephen sondheim wrote - shrek the musical - next to normal - a lot of other stuff i forgot to list down
Other odd bits of information
i used to fence - i go to a school for gifted kids and it takes up most of my time - i find connecting with other people rlly difficult - i love ocs deeply - beware : not open to dms but i love interacting!!! - i HATE AI with a burning passion - im incredibly lonely but also deeply mistrustful and also desperate to please
original posts will be tagged #inkspills
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this post is inspired in part by this one by @cheshirepirouette and sponsored in part by convos w @asteriis and @indouscurse here’s to y’all!! this post also goes out to my brothers, who are pale as hell for reasons unbeknownst to all of us (this is a joke).
like any good headcanon, this started as a joke because i thought to myself: Ryland sounds like the type of name that somebody’s Black child would have and only use on church sundays. nobody actually has ever called him that in his whole entire life, except maybe his mama SOMETIMES and that’s why he doesn’t remember it right away. i feel like every Black person knows somebody who is called literally anything except their god given name. people call him lil r, lil grace, gracie, ry, ryry, riri, RG, lando, mr. grace, dr. grace, but nobody calls him Ryland, which is part of why he Can’t Remember for so long.
so of course i went back to the source material to see if he ever actually mentioned being white anywhere and unfortunately it is very much at the beginning of the book. so THEN i started to think about how i could get around that while remaining at least largely canon compliant (as a little treat for myself). what i came up with is what i have affectionately dubbed my “litebrite baby” headcanon.
grace was not particularly dark skinned to begin with, and then spent years in a coma with literally no sunlight. he is downright vampiric by the time that he wakes up, and upon seeing his white ass skin, assumes that he is in his own words, a Caucasian male.
unfortunately for him, this fits in really well with his theme of lack of identity and lack of connection. i think for most Black people it would be extremely hard to forget that we’re Black regardless of how light or dark our skin tone is. but throughout the book, even when Grace is thinking about his old, slowly resurfacing memories, he never thinks about family, he never thinks about friends. except for his students and Project Hail Mary, he is completely unmoored.
i’ve seen a few different headcanons for why this might be: he was an only child whose single parent died young, he was cut off by his parents for some reason or another, he just isn’t ever triggered to remember. but no matter the reason, grace is disconnected from crucial aspects of himself. i think that by making him Black, and his Blackness something he can’t remember, it add an extra heartbreaking layer to his characterization. Blackness is such a communal experience, and when it’s not, it leaves behind an ache. growing up Black in White Suburbia i know well both the experience of clinging to one’s own in a hostile world AND the hurt that comes with being severed from one’s community. grace loses so much of himself with the amnesia, unable to recall who he is at the deepest of levels, and i think if he could remember to grieve it, it would devastate him.
i do think he would remember eventually, either when his hair starts growing out (because in the book Armando shaves him iirc), or when he can finally catch a glimpse of his reflection clearly, or when he has a memory of someone in his family. my personal belief is he has a memory beamed directly into his brain of asking “Mama, am I white?” and his poor, long-suffering mom saying, “Now who the hell told you that?”
and then it still never becomes relevant because he has negative desire to explain the nuances of human racial categories to an alien who quite literally cannot see color.
[ID copied from alt: Ryland Grace drawn as a light-skinned Black man with a short afro, glasses, an orangey sweater, and an aroace flag colored shirt. There is a cloudy white halo behind his head and a squiggly red line in the cloud. End ID]
Getting emotional thinking about (good) children's shows. Specifically educational shows/shows that have a lesson, Wild Kratts, Odd Squad, Word Girl, Bluey, Sesame Street, Mr Rodgers, ect.
Shows that are made just to gently hold your hand as you grow up. Shows that are made to introduce you to the world, give you a little pat on the head and some knowledge, some animal facts, some basic math to share on the playground.
Something about the thought of rooms of writers sitting down and thinking about what lesson to teach kids in the next episode, how do we word this in a way the kids would understand, how should we present this information, makes me warm.
There's just a feeling about them. Like extra care has been put into them, like they are handling the viewer gently. Not patronizingly. But gently. These shows aren't made to scare you or keep you hooked till the next episode, make sure you binge the entire season.
They feel like they would gently wipe your tears away after you scraped your knee, give you a dinosaur bandaid while telling you a cool fact about dinosaurs to cheer you up, then help you back to your friends. They just feel kind. Feel safe.
The best way I can describe it is like... Kinda parental. Like they are just shows, they can't replace a parent obviously, but they took part in raising you. In shaping you into how you are today. And no matter what, I think they would be proud.
the amount of ocs (cough cough self inserts) i made as a kid is honestly kinda insane. I had an oc for everythinggg i watched and lowkey their backstories weren't bad. like I had an octonauts oc guys. i had an odd squad oc
i was mainly taking a jab at the duffers but like in general it always aggravates me that people are like "not everything has to be gay" when barely anything is gay?? ik there were more canon ships i could've put in here (i genuinely just forgot and felt like it was already too long) but my point is god forbid i find meaningful representation in media i love. why should queer people have to dig for underrated scraps (tho those should absolutely be supported) when non-queer people get to just watch any movie and see themselves there? it's ridiculous.
