i’m not okay. i’m not.

Who is the girl in the mirror that I see I can't even tell if she has traces of me

[deviika]

Nikos Kazantzakis // Fyodor Dostoevsky

[petaltexturedskies]

Taylor Swift, Fortnight (feat. Post Malone)

[andichoseyou]

I LOVE YOU, IT'S RUINING MY LIFE.

"This is a list of songs about getting so caught up in the idea of something that you have a hard time seeing the red flags possibly resulting in moments of denial, and maybe a little bit of delusion. Results may vary."

[skylerlovesyou]

i got diagnosed with thyroid cancer yesterday, and i have mixed feelings about it.

usually i use my other blog to vent but i’m feeling the need for validation i guess

on one hand, it’s papillary thyroid cancer, it’s incredibly treatable and the prognosis is so close to 100% that i’m feeling like it’s silly to be scared about it.

on the other hand, it’s fucking cancer and it’s by the grace of whatever power fuels the universe that i found it when i did. i don’t know what my life’s gonna look like, but i know i’m gonna be really tired for a long time, and i already am chronically ill. i’m just already so exhausted and i’m gonna be having to recover from another surgery (i already had most of my thyroid taken out) and also adjusting to synthetic hormones that i’ll be on forever. i’ve already done a lot of grieving for my abled body, so that part isn’t unfamiliar. i just forget a lot of the time that i’m allowed to be upset about this.

i’m gonna have to do the surgery, and the treatment, and it’s gonna suck and i’m gonna have next to no money from the time i’m going to have to take off work. it’s a lot. i’m 21. i’m overwhelmed.

thank god i have the best friends in the fucking universe because i don’t know what it would be like right now if i didn’t.

anyways, at least i’m gonna get a sick ass butterfly tattoo on my chest after this is all over. (the thyroid is a beautiful gland in ur neck that looks like a butterfly) that’s gonna be sick as hell.

[hel7l7]

I feel like I keep doing everything wrong

[remanence-of-love]

[bl0w-m3]

[valentina-poem]

[borderlinekidd]

hey what’s up i never fucking learned how to regulate my emotions

[abigailkart]

December 29, 2021

society6.com/abiwhales

etsy.com/shop/abigailkart

[foxlungz]

I will always be so fucking angry for what they turned me into

[behind-her-masquerade]

I’ll

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[leafsea]

but they won't // 12.16.2023

[ramdom333-deactivated20240825]

I PROMISE YOU ARE NOT ASKING FOR TOO MUCH. YOU WILL MEET SOMEONE WHO IS SO OBSESSED WITH YOU THAT THEY WILL GIVE SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU WOULD EVER ASK FOR. AND THEY WILL DO IT ALL JUST BECAUSE THEY LOVE YOU

[iwnaseeu-deactivated20231228]

[highassi]

you stabbed me a thousand times and acted like you were the one bleeding

[missinyouiskillingme]

You knew how hard it was for me to open up to you.. but you promised me that I can trust you. And in the end you broke my heart.

— r.r.