beleza esperta

becky, 25; nb (she/they); brazilian artist

[saintsebastiensbf]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

George Sand, in a letter to Gustave Flaubert

Nikki Giovanni, Mirrors

Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait in Letters

Mary Oliver, Dogfish

on choosing kindness. again and again.

[a-state-of-bliss]

Pink Pantheress (2021)

[sioltach]

Best thing about learning new subjects or hobbies is that a whole world of intricate procedures, vocabulary, lore, controversy, niche pockets of interest, tricks, deepening personal experience of your own and others etc etc all opens up to you and you just get to walk around in there

[ashstfu]

“what if i’m always the one who loves more?”“congratulate yourself.”

[holespoles]

Theodor Severin Kittelsen

Winter Evening - Squirrel in Flight

[dancing4heaven]

Making > Consuming

The solution for the eternal child’s desperation is simply to do. Make art, write, clean without thinking, get off the phone [in a word create things and learn to sit with the mistakes, by doing this you accept death by dwelling in the world instead of dwelling in the postponement of fantasy (“i’ll do that when i grow up”)]. Consumption harkens back to life in the womb when everything was provided. We must assert to the subconscious that we are capable of existing in the world by doing things. It’s incredibly difficult, painful, and circuitous but I’m realizing that it’s the only way, because there is no parent who’s going to take care of me anymore.

[sentimentalbeing2001]

The Toad, Mary Oliver

[treecitysessions]

How I’m trying to be in 2026…

[likemonalisa]

PinkPantheress, Evening Standard Magazine, 2021

[1966loveminuszeronolimit]

how to keep going for beginners

[pastperfectcontinuous]

bell hooks mentioned going through a time in her life where she was severely depressed and suicidal and how the only way she got through it was through changing her environment: She surrounded her home with buddhas of all colors, Audre Lorde’s A Litany for Survival facing her as she wakes up, and filling the space she saw everyday with reinforcing objects and meaningful books. She asks herself each day, “What are you going to do today to resist domination?” I also really liked it when she said that in order to move from pain to power, it is crucial to engage in “an active rewriting of our lives.”

[ritavonbees]

I have come to think of the suicidal impulse as the brain waving a flag to say three things:

something needs to change here

this is urgent

I don’t know how to do it

death is the ultimate metaphor for drastic change. it’s a general specific. whatever your problems are, it is very likely that dead people don’t have to deal with them. a real solution to your problems may demand a very narrow range of action that’s likely to be out of reach at this moment, but death is sold on every street corner, so it feels like a more realistic fantasy than happiness.

you don’t really want to die per se but it’s also not completely random chemicals swamping your brain for no reason. you want the pain to stop, you want to be somewhere else, you want to be someone else. it’s urgent. you don’t know how to do it. the end is not the end but a means that feels within your reach right now.

this is the wisdom of bell hooks: daily rituals of meaning and resistance and solidarity are part of slowly building a future where you can make the change you really need. and only alive people can do that. every step you take towards change and power is another step away from death.

[fsmilanocortina]

Alysa Liu (USA)

2026 Olympic Winter Games Exhibition Gala (Stateside)

[blans]

Alysa Liu, the 2026 Olympic Champion in Women's Singles Skating

[serratedpens]

Tourist, Sonia Feldman

[achillesinhighheels]

[belezaesperta]

hey so whats with the monkey hugging a monkey plushie thing ig i wasnt on the internet that day

[achillesinhighheels]

I actually have to build the life I want to live.

[iamhavingsomuchfun]

sense of agency is a skill truly........ it takes work convincing yourself that you have to make moves if you dont want life to spontaneously happen to you instead of having some saying in what happens in it and if you have self destructive tendencies on top of that, it takes trust in yourself to almost blindly believe that it actually matters that you have power over your own life