Summary: You and Bucky became fast friends when you first started with the Avengers. What happens when Bucky gets a girlfriend who is not okay with your relationship?
You stay in your room for the rest of the day. You can’t understand how the hell this happened. Two days ago, you were taking a nap together in each others arms, and now he doesn’t want to be friends with you. Your heart is beyond broken, and the love you feel towards him makes you sad. Because you didn’t just love him as a friend, you were in love with him, and now you feel stupid.
You hear a knock on your door, and a part of you hopes it’s Bucky, but when you open the door you see Steve. The smile he was wearing falls when he sees your tear stained face, “Hey, you okay?” He asks. You nod, not wanting to talk about it, especially with Bucky’s now only best friend. Steve just looks at you, not believing you.
“Okay… well we have a mission, you free to leave tonight?” He asks. “Yeah, absolutely. What time?” You can’t help the relieved feeling that you will get away. “Need you ready to go with Nat in 1 hour” Steve says in his ‘Cap’ voice. You salute him and close the door, to start prepping your departure. This mission could not come at a better time.
You have been gone for two weeks and are dead exhausted when you and Nat exit the quinjet. It was a brutal mission, and you probably have a few bruised ribs and a ton of bruises and scratches around your body. But despite it being brutal, it was a success.
You and Nat go your separate ways to your rooms. As you enter the hallway where your room is, you hear moans and groans coming from Bucky’s room. You curse yourself knowing what he is doing and who he is with. You hear Dot’s voice “Harder Bucky, oh god… harder”, which makes you cringe and your eyes tear.
You go to your room and jump in the shower to drown out the noise coming from the room next to you. When you come out, you continue to hear the moaning and know you will never sleep with that. You change into sweats and a t-shirt and head out to the common room. You plop on the couch and cover yourself with a blanket, turning on the TV to have some background noise.
You are not there more than 2 minutes when Bucky comes out, heading toward the kitchen. You try to shrink yourself so he doesn’t see you, but with the TV on, it was only a matter of time before he turns in your direction. His eyes lock with yours and he slowly walks toward you.
“Hi” he says quietly. You sit up, “Hi” you say back. He looks relieved almost, but you think it’s just your exhaustion, you know he doesn’t care that you’re back. The awkward silence is driving you crazy, but he finally breaks it. “What are you doing out here?” he asks.
You can’t help but let out a breathless laugh. “Hard to sleep when there is so much noise in the room next to me.” You spat, but you heard the waviness in your voice. Bucky looks guilty, and uncomfortable. “I.. sorry.” he says, taking a step toward you.
You are surprised he even cares. You try to act like you don’t when you know it’s the obviously a lie, so you shrug. “Whatever, I don’t want to make her uncomfortable again.” you say. His eyebrows shoot up at that comment. Again he just stares at you, which makes you annoyed so you roll your eyes. “Look, I’m tired and achy, so I’m going to sleep.” You say and you gently lay down and turn away from him. You miss the concern in his eyes, but he just sighs and walks back to his room.
The next morning you are in the kitchen, sitting between Steve and Sam, when Bucky walks in with Dot. Dot sees you and her smug smirk goes right on her face. “Baby, can you make me pancakes?” she says in her squeaky baby voice. You scoff, and look at Sam, who gives you a look that tells you he doesn’t like her either.
Bucky heard your scoff and looks at you, but your eyes were on Sam. He looked back at Dot and smiles. “Of course, babygirl.” he says, looking back at you. Your eyes shot to his when you heard the pet name he called her. That was your pet name, and you know he did that on purpose. You can’t help the tears that spring to your eyes. You quickly get up, ignoring the pain in your ribs, and leave the room.
Steve looks at Bucky in disappointment, and Sam looks like he wants to punch him. Dot, however, looks happy as anything and ignores the fact that you left. Tony walks in and informs everyone in the kitchen that there will be a party tomorrow night, before leaving and telling the rest of the team. Dot is so excited that she will get to be on display for all the rich and famous at one of Tony Stark’s parties.
You didn’t want to go, but Nat and Wanda made you. Even Steve and Sam told you they would protect you from both of them. Nat and Wanda helped you get dressed, as your ribs were still sore, and did your hair and make up. The three of you walk into the party on the top floor, and head straight to Steve and Sam at the bar.
“Y/N, you look beautiful.” Steve said, causing you to blush. “Thanks Stevie, you look great too.” He smiles and hands you your favorite drink. “I know you and Bucky are having a hard time, but I thought I could be a good stand in and be your date for tonight.” He said a blush coming over his cheeks. You smile and kiss him on the cheek, “I would love that Cap.”
You and Steve mostly stay with the group, chatting about this, that, and nothing. All laughing and having a great time. Meanwhile, on the other side of the room, being dragged from person to person was Bucky. Dot was making sure everyone in the room saw her with him. It annoyed the crap out of him. He hated parties, only liked to be with… you. He couldn’t help looking over and noticing how beautiful you looked.
He saw you and your friends laughing and having a great time, and hated himself for what he did to you. The truth is, he missed you beyond words. He knew he made a mistake, ending your friendship, but he needed to make it work with Dot. No one else seemed to want to be with him, especially you. You were who he really wanted, and everyone knew it, except you.
Dot noticed where Bucky was staring, and took his hand leading him over to the group. She cleared her throat as she got closer, causing the laughter going on the stop. Everyone looked at her, with her smug face. She wrapped Bucky’s arms around her and held him to her. “What’s so funny over here? Don’t you know this is a party and you are the Avengers? You should be mingling!” She said.
You quickly down your drink and look at Steve. “Stevie, want to dance?” you say, completely ignoring Dot. He nodded at you and took your hand. Bucky looked between you and Steve and couldn’t help the jealousy he felt. He bent down to Dot, “Let’s dance.” He whispered, dragging her with him.
Steve held you in his arms as you moved to the slow ballad playing. You look over your shoulder to see Bucky and Dot also dancing close to you. You rolled your eyes. “Ignore them, Y/N.” Steve said quietly. You blush, and look at Steve. “I’m sorry, I just hate her.” you say, making Steve chuckle.
“Yeah, she isn’t well liked by any of us, but what are you going to do?” He said. Tears start falling down your face. “I’m sorry Steve, but I think I need some air.” you say quickly. Steve nodded and let you go. You quickly walk out of the ballroom and out onto the balcony.
You try and contain your emotions and took deep breaths, looking out over the compound property. You really wish you didn’t come tonight. You hated seeing them together, especially her. You wish you knew why he took her side, why he now hated you, when you love him so much.
“Ya know, for an Avenger, you’re a pretty easy opponent to beat.” you hear Dot’s voice from behind you. You tense up, but refuse to look at her. She laughs, “I mean I thought you would have put up more of a fight, when I made him dump your pathetic ass, but I guess you are just too weak.” She said. Now you turned and looked at her, rage pouring through your veins.
“Excuse me?” was all you could say. Dot continues to walk toward you with her smug smile. “I mean, I saw how much you were in love with him when we first met. I knew I had to get rid of you. He spoke of nothing but you for the weeks we were talking to each other, so I knew you were trouble. But I thought you would have fought for him. Obviously you know a lost cause when you see one.”
She laughs again, while you are shaking in anger. “I mean when he came to my house that night, I told him how uncomfortable you made me. How I didn’t like how close you guys were, and he bought it. Hook. Line. Sinker.” She says with a proud smile on her face. “Now I get to be at Tony Stark parties with Bucky Barnes, rubbing elbows with the rich and famous, making contacts, and setting myself up for success. Meanwhile you get to sulk about the man who didn’t choose you.”
Just as you were about to open your mouth, you hear, “What… the… fuck!” You and Dot turn your heads to Bucky, who was standing at the door, glaring at Dot. Dot lost her smug smile, and looked panicked. “Bucky… h-h-how long were you standing there?” She asks, fear evident in her voice.
Bucky walks up and stands next to you, glaring down at the red head. “Long enough to know you are a manipulative bitch, who is only using me.” he says. You see him trying to control his emotions. You wonder if you should calm him down, but decide against it. You step away from them, and start heading toward the door.
You turn around to see Bucky still staring at Dot, and decide to go to your room. You walk back into the ballroom and head straight through to the elevators. You make it back to your room, and decide you needed a nice long hot shower to wash this whole evening away.
After spending probably close to 30 minutes in the shower, you change into sweats and a t-shirt and walk back into your room. You stop short when you see Bucky sitting on your bed, his head in his hands. He looks up at you, tears running down his face. You swallow the lump in your throat, but don’t move.
“I… I’m so fucking sorry, Y/N. I know it’s not enough, because what I did was the worst thing I could do, but I really am sorry.” He says through his tears. You want to go over and hug him, but you are too hurt, so you just nod. Bucky shakes his head, closing his eyes for a moment. When he opens them again, he stands up and walks toward you. You tense up, but remain where you are.
“Y/N, ending our friendship was the worst thing I have ever done. Worse than anything I ever did as the Winter Soldier. You are my best girl, and I should have stuck by you. I would give you an excuse, but you probably wouldn’t believe me anyway.” He says. When you don’t respond, he turns toward the door. As he is about to grab the handle, he hears, “Try me.”
He turns around and looks at you. He turns back toward you and sits back down on the bed. He motions for you to come and sit, which you do, but you make sure there is plenty of space between you. He swallows the lump in his throat.
“I… uh… I never thought anyone would ever love me. Not even in a friendship way, besides Steve. When you became my friend, I felt so lucky, and I wanted to hold on to that feeling forever. You became the most important person in my life. I… I fell in love with you.”
You can’t help but gape at him. He loves you?! You go to say something, but he quickly continues. “I know you don’t feel the same way, which is why I tried to find someone to take that place. I met Dot, and she was nice and flirty, and made me feel normal. I thought she actually liked me, but apparently I was just a pawn in her scheme to become rich and famous.” He scoffs at himself, shaking his head.
He looks at you again. “I got trapped in her plan. It’s really no excuse, but I did. She told me that she was falling for me, and I was so happy to find someone else to fill the hole I had, which was really made for you. She told me to do something and I did it because I wanted to keep her happy. I wish I had snapped out of it when she told me to end my friendship with you.
When I did, and you ran off, I knew it wasn’t right. I actually went up after my work out to apologize, but you had left for the mission already. I thought maybe it was for the best. Dot and I continued to get closer, which unfortunately you heard when you came back.” He winced. “When I saw that you were alive, I was so relieved. I was so worried about you while you were away, but you were so cold to me. I know I deserved it, but I never thought I would see that.
I got angry and thats why I called her ‘babygirl’. I knew that would cause a reaction, but when I saw your face, I immediately regretted it. I never called Dot that name besides that time. Actually I never gave her a pet name.” He thinks to himself.
“Tonight, when I saw you laughing with our friends, I wanted to be by your side, with my hand around your waist like all the other parties. I wanted to dance with you, and when I saw you and Steve, I got…. jealous. I… I’m an asshole. I don’t deserve your forgiveness or your friendship. I’m sorry.”
Before you could answer, he left the room, leaving your door open. You sat there for a moment thinking about everything he said. The one thing that stands out is that he loved you, but didn’t realize you loved him too. But you didn’t know if you should just forgive him, when he hurt you so bad.
You suddenly found yourself outside his door. You knocked, listening for his footsteps. When you didn’t hear them, you tried his door, which was unlocked. You peeked your head inside and saw Bucky laying on his stomach, his face in his pillow, quietly crying. Your heart broke, as you quietly entered his room and closed his door.
You went to the other side of the bed, and laid next to him, staring at the ceiling. “I can’t forgive you for the pain you caused me. You broke my heart more than once in the last few weeks, and I didn’t understand why. I thought we were stronger than that, but I guess I was wrong.”
You sigh and look at Bucky, who has his face turned towards you, tears streaming down his face. “But you were wrong too. I’ve been in love with you for so long. I thought you didn’t feel the same, but I guess we are both idiots.” You say with a laugh. You turn your body towards him.
“I can’t forgive you…” Bucky closes his eyes in pain. “… at least not yet.” You say quietly. Bucky’s eyes shot open and he sits up, staring at you. “Not yet?” he asks, hopefully. You give him a small smile and nod.
“You have a lot of making up for how you made me feel, Bucky, but I love you. I’m in love with you, and I want to spend the rest of my life in your arms. But… it’s going to take time.” You say, as you sit up and look at him. He moves closer to you. “I will give you as much time as you need, as long as I know I will have you. I love you so much Y/N.”
You put your palm to his cheek. “I love you too.” You say before bringing him in for a small peck on his lips. Bucky started to deepen the kiss, but you pulled away. “I should go.” you say, as you get off the bed and walk to the door. You turn back and look at Bucky, who looks disappointed that you are leaving. “Goodnight.” you say, before leaving the room.
You are sitting in the common room, flipping through possible things to watch on Netflix. “Ugh, there is nothing new that I want to watch!” you yell. You hear a deep chuckle from the kitchen, before Bucky walks into the common room with a big bowl of popcorn.
“Just pick something, it doesn’t have to be new, babygirl.” he says, as he sits next you and wraps his metal arm around you. you settle on “Stranger Things”, and snuggle into Bucky. After 2 episodes, you look up and notice Bucky is staring at you.
“What?” you ask. He smiles at you. “I was just thinking… I don’t know if you would want to, or if you just want to keep things as they are… but… um… would you want to go out on a date with me?” he asks. You sit up and look at him. He looks so adorably nervous, that you can’t help but smile.
“Absolutely. I think you have been patient with my punishment, and honestly, I have been waiting for you to get the guts to ask me out. But on one condition.” You say. Bucky nods, “name it, doll.” You smirk, “We are NOT going to that pizza place a few blocks away, and you are driving me home this time.” you say. Bucky rolls his eyes and pulls you to him. He looks from your eyes to your lips, and then back.
“Babygirl, you will never have to walk home alone again, because I want to be beside you for the rest of my life.” He says softly, as he leans forward to give you a soft kiss.
