You would have been 16 years old today. It is your birthday 🎁 7 months have gone by and my heart still aches looking at old memories of you, because that’s all I have. Memories.
I cannot express how heavy my heart feels on a day we used to celebrate you. We- meaning my whole family: Mum, dad and my sister! We would get you a little cake, or a slice of birthday cake, even one year mum baked you your very own birthday cake. We sang happy birthday to you, you joined in with your bark, full knowing if you participated you got cake! You were a very intelligent puppa that’s for sure.
Your last birthday I have a video of you being so old and tottery you couldn’t wait for your cake so you went to eat it, being blind and not being able to see the candles but smell the yumminess. You blew out your own candle, twice! We were in hysterics and were glad you weren’t injured.
This time around I live in my own appartment with my partner, and my family live on the other side of town. We can’t see eachother due to this pandemic, and we can’t even have cake together or mourn. This adds sting to the burn, and I wish it was different, maybe it would hurt less, or hurt more? Who knows. But having the option taken away from you is not ideal.
People say to me all the time, “why don’t you just get another dog?”.. because to me you are irreplaceable! It doesn’t feel right loving something else that isn’t you, even though it might help with the pain and sadness I feel every now and again.
PSA- don’t tell someone who is mourning about their dog to just “get another one” you are just as a cruel as life is right now if you say so.
Anyway this post was just to express my feelings, get them off my chest! Celebrate you in the best way possible! I’ll always love and miss you, and a day doesn’t go by that I don’t wish upon a lucky star that you are still here with us! 💗
