benji || active may '21

stay away if you're new or in recovery || cw 151 || gw 150 || ugw 100 || 5'1

[benjiisafool]

im so sorry, i lied to all of you.

i'm not actually 5'3

i'm 5'1 😔

yes im lowering my ugw bc of that

[estebun]

So I just got this message literally few minutes ago

And if YOU get this message in the future DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE CLINK ON THE LINK I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD I WILL CUT YOUR HANDS OFF

A warning to all of my followers there no such a thing as @exposingthoselosers I just thought any form of information is good and can protect my followers from getting their phone or any other devices hacked if you’re connect to the wifi they might hack all of the devices connected.

DO NOT FUCKING CLICK ON ANU LINK YOU GET NOT EVEN FROM UR FRIENDS ON TUMBLR BECAUSE THEY COULD GET HACKED 👀

Pls share this awareness ⚠

[izzyfandoms]

Also blogs get hacked or something and send these without the blog owner’s consent. I got this message and then afterwards the person who sent it to me said they didn’t send that.

[angelcatsiel]

got a message from a mutual today similar to this and they later messaged me to say it wasn’t them so yeah be careful

[djpaige13paige]

Basically if you get this message, don’t click on it, instead tell the person that you received that message. That way they know that they were hacked.

If I ever send you any message, especially if it has a link, message me back about the message before you click on the link. I will understand because things like this^^ can happen.

[liviastudiespsych]

Guuuuys. I’ve received this

I’ve checked with the person running the account and it was a virus. Sooo… Be careful

[a-shakespearean-in-paris]

I just got a message like this and thought it sounded familiar. Be careful everyone!

[hazel2468]

Yeah hey followers I do NOT go around randomly sending links, so if you get something like this from me, let me know because I did NOT send it.

[shallowspocketdimension]

This sounds so similar to this other thing when people send you a link to a cursed eurovision fanfic but it turns out to be a virus.

Please stay safe darlings!

[thatlesbiancrow]

yeah i don’t send links without context.

[libraryfag]

@thehugwizard

@one-time-i-dreamt

PLEASE BOOST

[thehugwizard]

BOOST!!!!!!!!!!!!

[imaushuyuna]

Ayo don’t click the link if you get it

[sapphossidechick]

yes pls if my acc sends u a link pls check to make sure i actually sent it

[daintyfever]

Stomach: eat please, it's been hours

Me: No

Stomach:

[deepthoughtsvibes-deactivated20]

I wonder who I would be if I wouldn’t have depression. I wonder where I would be if Anxiety wouldn‘t always win. It hurts to know that I could be someone else.

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

[benjiisafool]

ack im sorry ive been so inactive 💔💔 i promise i havent died. ive been on edtwt mostly so ive been here less often. (if you're on there my @ is sagebutskinni , we can be moots 🥺)

[soft-and-thin]

Standing in the mirror I pick apart my reflection,

stomach hungry for food, but I’m craving perfection. 

An itch in my throat that I can never swallow,

“you cannot eat that” my mind says and along I follow. 

It’s 2 am and I’m under my fridge, waiting to see if I’m going to binge. 

I wake up in the morning with bags under my eyes,

it’s amazing what lies a smile can hide.

I always feel insecure, no matter what clothes I wear,

and going shopping for anything is a gruesome nightmare. 

I compare and compare until I pick myself apart,

I cry and I cry, until I’m just a broken heart. 

My eating disorder has become my only friend,

because even when everyone else leaves she’ll be here til the end. 

But don’t think this is easy, she comes with a price. 

She comes with depression. 

She comes with anger and tears

and darling, she’s not as beautiful as she appears. 

So now I go to sleep for another night,

but don’t worry ana i’ll see you in the mornings light. 

*since my last blog got deleted I decided to repost the poem I wrote*

[benjiisafool]

omg a family member just said i look skinnier

i mean i dont see it but whatever. ive only lost...

10 lbs?

[benjiisafool]

i just did a 3 mile walk and im dying 💔 i hate living in arizona 😃😃

[benjiisafool]

my mom gave me a string cheese but i still have like...117 hours of fasting left. i think ill just hide it in the fridge until then.

[benjiisafool]

>_< posting to hold myself accountable!!! im having really bad cravings but i cant give up yet.

im so happy there's not much food in the house. cant binge if there's no food, right?

plus we have people over so im probably gonna be upstairs hiding a lot until thursday lol.

[benjiisafool]

i cant wait to get to my ugw !!!! i know im gonna be hot as fuck.

[greenteaandchill-deactivated202]

*a minor inconvenience happens*

my brain: make yourself throw up

me: why

my brain: you just gotta

[ahpologies]

[fallenangel-com-deactivated2024]

[iwentboomm-deactivated20251120]

I feel goofy, loud and awkward. I always regret the things I say/do and think my friends cannot even stand me.

But If I weighted less... my movements, my looks and the way others treat me would improve.

[benjiisafool]

genuinely considering fasting for the entirety of october:)

[benjiisafool]

i gained all the weight i lost back i want to die:)