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hi my name is ben I'm 17 I'm 6'0 tall pretty athletic a massive nerd and the main reason I have this account is to meet new people trade ideas and post my thoughts

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Don't we just love when the supreme Court protects the basic fundamental ideas that define what an American is.

I'm of course speaking about birthright citizenship, because like who's gonna look at a kid who was born in the land of the free home of the brave and say "nah you not it brother" like huh anyone born here is an American, anyone who comes here seeking protection and aid from their own country is allowed to become an American 🪩🕺🏻🇺🇸🦅🇺🇸🦅🇺🇸🦅🇺🇸🦅🇺🇸🕺🏻🪩

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Get em, yeah. Was I funny

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Some thoughts of mine from the other evening

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Have you ever fallen through a flowering spiral of lights and emotion? have you ever seen the moon? have you ever been bathed in the light of creation? have you talked to Dave? Have you seen the end and beginning of the universe? Have you ever felt the suffering of an other? Have you ever offered a helping hand? Have you ever fallen in Love? Have you ever lost yourself? Have you lost an other?

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I have written and sent an email to my state governors office and I wanted to share it here I know it's kind of rambling but it holds a lot of my ideals and beliefs in it I could've done better though

Hello Governor Sanders,

I am 17 years old and currently a high school student. While I have not been an avid supporter of the Republican Party recently, that is not the focus of this message. I am a citizen of Arkansas, and as my governor, I want to respectfully share my concerns with you and your office.

The main purpose of this message is to express my ideas and what I truly believe is necessary for both our state and our country. I believe we must uphold the standards that our founding fathers established, principles rooted in the belief that all people are created equal. By “men,” I mean all of humankind, and I believe that every person deserves the same basic, inalienable rights.

These rights include the ability to own land, practice religion freely, to have an education, express oneself without unlawful persecution, live freely, and pursue happiness. I firmly believe that America should stand as a beacon of hope and freedom across the world not just as a safe haven for some, but one for all.

I think truthfully that you can help protect these ideals, and I hate to say this but throughout my travels in America I have seen people beaten, and hospitalized for having similar ideas to what I have, I seen a growing 'regime of hate' both in the office of the president where he plays with the lives and tax dollars of American citizens, but also in the homes and streets of America; people are scared and are having great difficulty seeing through the mist of fear in these uncertain times. The people I included need someone to stand up and say enough is enough so that the average American citizen doesn't have too.

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Did you enjoy my strangeness

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I wasn't able to flex my back very well since I'm really sore and in need of a chiropractor

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Maybe I should stop complaining and just live with what I have, but on the other hand I've been working out everyday to make myself visually appealing, and I don't know if I'm just overthinking it all but I think I'm a semi decent person to talk too I just don't know why I struggle so much to make anything other then sexual, and platonic relationships, like I have friends, I have had sexual partners but when it comes to an enjoyable romantic intimate relationship nope nothing, all quiet on the western front, But what are your thoughts. Also I'd like to say I'm not at all upset a the chick I liked, I'm happy she was able to share that with me and I'm glad she feels comfortable with me I'm just well upset and a lil salty about my current situation

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Soo last update the chick I liked and was gonna go on a date with is aromatic apparently, so Im just mildly bummed but idk yk I'm just tired, I haven't had a genuine human connection for ages lol

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So I got the date with the chick I can't get outta my mind, I'm trying to prepare but now I have the issue of trying to express how I feel in a meaningful manner to her so I can keep and grow my relationship with her.

You think it wouldn't be that hard, I never usually struggle writing things to make people like me more but every time I go to put pen to paper I stumble over my thoughts;

I just want to tell her how I feel, I want to be able to tell her that every time I look at her it's like I'm experiencing the first moments of creation, every time I see her smile it's like a ray of sun shines down upon me, when I hear her talk its like hearing the devine.

She's just so amazing, she's Devine, heavenly, smart, funny, gorgeous, beautiful, she holds the blessings of Aphrodite.

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She said yes, I'm so freaking happy, nervous as hell but very happy, I feel as if I could jump over the moon; the only thing to do now is make sure I'm prepared for the day which is the 24th although the date might change depending on her schedule but that's ok😺

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Quick lil update on my lil situation, but I asked the chick i like out, she was out of town at the moment and I felt like if I waited any longer I'd explode, so I messaged her she saw it after like 6 hours and left me on read, I feel better knowing I was able to tell her but also I feel I might've screwed up my relationship with her so I don't know what to do now.

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All sunshine and rainbows yesterday afternoon

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Here's some post workout back and core pics

I think I look pretty alright tbh 😼

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I have made something magnificent...

I've made psychedelic hot coco, with probably the total amount of psilocybin being 100mgs-150mgs I finished the cup of drink not to long ago like 5 or so mins I've been riding a slow building high since like 2 mins after I took the first drink of it so I think I'm might go to sleep and dream up spectacular things or lay in bed envisioning the ending and begining of all that there is.

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I'm like dying my guy, I'm so painfully in love with someone but am unable to express said affection beyond friendship, because she has expressed feelings for another. Every time I'm around her I feel as if the world melts around me; she has the most breathtaking smile, and eyes that look like eternity, her laugh is so adorably whimsical and brings a stupid smile to my face.

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Im so glad it's summer break now, I was so overwhelmed by school, I mean like damn that last week killed me.

I'm really excited for this summer, I have a couple concerts and festivals planned along with some camping trips and a few parties that I've been invited too, I'm going to be working 3-4 days a week this summer but in my down time I'll be with friends, getting high, working out, or at fight night which is a thing me and my friends do once -twice a week where we'll do boxing, wrestling or a mix of the two for alternating rounds until we feel tired