If you mean the blog @fearcup, I update it on occasion but my askbox there is empty atm. If you sent a thing and I didn’t answer it, just assume I didn’t get it and send it again! Since I haven’t posted a new part to the fic series in a while I wasn’t expecting a lot of asks, so it’s to be expected that it’s quieter over there.
If you mean the series itself, then…yes and no. Its on hiatus in the same way a series is on hiatus between books while the author plans out the next installment, but it’s not on hiatus in that “I wrote fanfiction and it’s on the shelf indefinitely because I don’t know what I want to do with it.” way. …
…actually, you know what….this ask came at a good time, it feels like a good time to talk about this, so I’m gonna talk about it C:<
The short answer is: I am still working on it but it’s not a priority. My priority right now is finishing my hired work and getting my main personal project back up and running after its winter hiatus, both of which are artistic jobs that demand my creative energy first and put fandom things second.
The long answer is: the fearling au is really dear to me. In the process of starting it, fleshing it out & expanding upon it, I’ve made lifelong friends, traveled around the world to meet those friends, gotten into a long-term relationship, and changed drastically as an artist and as a person. I don’t think I could abandon that gritty little spin-off if I tried.
Looking back, I had a *lot* of fun writing “the Sky in a Cage” and “The Canary.” But I wasn’t in a good place when I wrote “the Hollow Men.” Reading back over it, I can see that really obviously. My writing goes from my signature, alert kind of thing to….something really stiff and nervous and confused. At the time that I wrote it, I had some particularly cruel people active in my daily life, and I was going through several very difficult situations I’d rather not talk about that are all, thankfully, resolved now. I’m a thousand times happier now than I was back then, but….yeah, they happened and it wasn’t great, and my creativity suffered a lot for it.
For a while after I kinda beat myself up for my creative dip. I thought, man, I don’t want to let something I like drop, I should keep creating and being productive through this sadness….but…doing that in the first place wasn’t fun, and it showed in the end result. I also realized (read: was sternly told) that effectively, I was typing up a passion project thousands of words long just because I enjoyed it, and if I wasn’t enjoying it, I should stop pushing myself so hard. So I decided to stop pressuring myself to create content faster, and focus instead on quality control & creating content when I’m healthy, which is what I’ve been doing. I feel like I’m getting over a lot of things that happened and were subsequently fixed in the last two years, and now that my physical and mental health has gotten strong again, I’m doing all these new creative and adventurous things in my life and it’s actually….amazing. I’m doing things now I never thought I could do before! I’m moving forward in my life in some really big ways and I want to do even more! How great is that! And yeah, included in moving forward is the fact that I want to finally hash out the finale to this AU.
I recently finished the full outline during my flight back home to America this September, and once my other priorities are taken care of, I want to go back, heavily edit the Hollow Men into something I like, and then pick right up from there with my brand new outline and finish this sucker. There’s a lot of scenes I have detailed that I just can’t wait to flesh out, and this time I’m going to be sure to enjoy it.
Also. It means a lot to me to have friends in my life who keep the fandom alive in & with me. But it means just as much to have followers, on & off anon, who still send me asks and somehow ?? keep interest in my silliness. I want to share with you guys a lot more, but for now I just want to say from the bottom of my heart, y'all are really special and thank you for making the fandom such an exciting, welcoming and inspiring place for me to be.
In the mean time, here’s a pic I whipped up just for u of the little maneater himself. Have a good night my friendo.
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