LF ✿ 18+ Long-term Roleplays
I'm currently looking for long term roleplay partners ( preferably within the Alien Stage, The Summer Hikaru Died, Bad Things, SF / DAWTDE, A ReGect, and Dandy's World fandom, though I do also OCs and other fandoms mentioned later ) to roleplay with on Discord :3
I am willing to fluctuate with a few things, so feel free to ask questions !
DD:DNE ― My roleplays often engage in very dark and heavy topics. They will be discussed below. Please be advised.
Do not roleplay with me if:
✿ Against Doing NSFW / Dark Themes Entirely
✿ Unwilling to do a ship-based roleplay Preferences
I prefer to do third-person semi-literate roleplays, though I am open to literate as well. I do not do novella or one-liners. I also prefer Discord servers over DMs as I find it a lot easier organizational wise.
I currently live in the central daylight time zone. I am a full-time college student. During classes, I likely won't be 100% available to roleplay. I will try to put my homework and studies before roleplay. I also have a part-time job, and will not be available to roleplay during work hours. Feel free to ask me for my schedule!
I struggle with memory loss and may forget some small previous events or to reply. Please feel free to remind me, I will not take offense to it!
I don’t have any roleplay triggers, however if there are things that do make me uncomfortable that I will do my best to vocalize. I am primarily an angst roleplayer, and adore incorporating multiple aspects of angst into roleplays. I don't mind what is done, and I love discussing ideas. Please let me know of any specific triggers beforehand and I will make note to avoid them!
TW UP AHEAD! [Dark Topic / Rape Discussion]
Please read this carefully before initiating any roleplay with me.
My roleplay themes often include very dark and traumatic content, including— but not limited to—non-consensual violence, abuse, self harm, suicide, pedophilia, incest, and other disturbing subjects. These roleplays are a deeply personal coping mechanism rooted in my own experiences with trauma in a place that I can control. You are not entitled to know my trauma. Please respect that boundary. This is a private way I choose to process intrusive thoughts, paranoia, and past harm. That being said, I am okay not roleplaying it. This is not to explicitly say I will only roleplay with people who are willing to do all of these things.
Understand I am not glorifying or encouraging these acts in any way. I do not condone or support any of the topics portrayed in these scenes / backstories. It is always portrayed as harmful, traumatizing, and wrong - never as something to support or condone.
These are not “rape roleplays” or “abuse roleplays.” Please do not refer to them that way. These scenes are a relief to quiet a lot of my constant thoughts as a victim.
While other dark themes like physical abuse, pedophilia, etc. may appear, rape and self harm are the most reoccurring and significant due to my personal experiences. If you’re not comfortable with that, please let me know so I can respect your boundaries.
Talk to me beforehand about your comfort levels and what’s okay for you, whether it’s for active roleplay, backstory, or general discussion. Your safety and comfort matter just as much as mine. I will not bring any specifics up further once discussed, so please discuss with me any specifics you may have so I can respect them.
Dark Themes / Rape / SH ― Rape and self harm are the most frequent and central dark themes in my roleplays, specifically involving my character as the victim. The assaulter is always an antagonist, never a protagonist or love interest. I usually prefer to write these scenes out fully, but only if you're comfortable. If this is something you can’t or don’t want to engage with, please let me know up front with what you are / aren't comfortable with, I will always respect your boundaries without question. Other dark themes may come up, but rape and self harm are the most prevalent ones to be aware of.
NSFW ― NSFW scenes are part of my roleplays, but I need character relationships to be clearly built up or discussed in advance. I do not and will not roleplay dominant characters, so please keep that in mind when roleplaying with me. I also prefer to play AFAB characters, though I am still open to playing AMAB characters.
Please point these out specifically, or I will, and tell me whether or not you are comfortable with it and we can go based on that.
✿ Morally Grey Characters
✿ Redemption ( Excluding things such as rape, pedophilia, or anything similar. )
✿ Slow Burn ( Within Reason )
✿ Multi-Paragraph Responses
✿ Characters Having Backgrounds
✿ Roleplays of fandoms I have little to no knowledge in
✿ Blindly going in without discussing big ideas ( Excluding Angst )
✿ Overly controlling my character
✿ Poor Grammar / Spelling
✿ Replies in all / primarily italic, bold, underlined, or code text ( I can't read it )
My roleplay fandoms do not equal the fandoms I am in, and vice versa! I also roleplay OCs! I always tweak my OCs for roleplay, so if you see a design you like I can absolutely roleplay with said OC in most circumstances!
I mostly roleplay fandoms with sometimes fandom based OCs!
The examples provided will all be from roleplays I have.
CW: Aftermath of physical abuse ― Andrew held his cheek, horrified at the realization that Ivan had just hit him. His cheek burned with the slap, a small red mark beginning to bloom from the force. He was stunned into silence, just staring at Ivan with a mixed expression - primarily clouded by horror.
When Ivan left, Andrew crumbled to the floor shaking. Did Ivan really just do that? He sat for a few minutes, just processing what had just occurred. The situation he was in now. After he managed to get composed enough to stand, he made his way to the bathroom. His cheek was still pink, evidence that the encounter had occurred.
Andrew made his way back to his room in a daze, sitting on his bed. What was he even supposed to do? He grabbed his phone, clicking the screen on. No messages. Not that he knew anybody outside of Ivan, Ivan had grown to be his rock through his healing process. Now he was part of the stones that pelted him, tearing him down. He considered calling campus security, but was terrified of how Ivan would react.
This level of instability wasn't normal, sure Andrew had noticed it growing more and more erratic, but he didn't expect it to get this bad. And he didn't know how much worse it would get. He hovered over the call button, considering it, but decided to call the campus office instead.
He briefly told them his door had been broken due to roughhousing, not feeling strong enough to tell the truth. They told him it would be a few days before it could get properly fixed. Andrew glanced over at the door, his chest aching. He'd have to sleep vulnerable, his barrier gone.
If you're interested, please add me on Discord! My username is BerryPawedPup - please let me know you are adding me for roleplay when I accept your request! Also, if you have any questions I am absolutely open to answer.
