you arrive like warmth does, without asking permission. before you speak, before you settle into a chair, something in the room softens. conversations loosen their shoulders. silences stop feeling accusatory. people donāt always know why they feel safer around you; they just do. your presence is porous. you feel atmospheres the way skin feels temperature. joy clings to you easily. so does unease. you often carry emotions that were never formally handed to you - just left in the air, assumed youād hold them. still, there is something grounding about you. you remind people that gentleness isnāt weakness, that openness can be steady.
colours: honey, warm amber, sunlit linen
scene: sitting cross-legged on the floor while others talk around you, quietly anchoring the room just by being there.
There were times where Chrissy couldn't stand the quiet. Couldn't handle how her mind would wander to such terrible images, or how the darkness seemed to slowly wrap around her. Sometimes the silence was so loud, deafening, even. It made her want to curl up and hide away from everything and everyone. But here, simply napping on her bed, curled up in Eddie's arms just listening to the rise and fall of his breath; it was the most blissful stillness she could ever wish for.
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FAVORITE COLORS: black, rich purple
LAST SONG ON REPEAT: tempest by ethel cain
CURRENTLY READING: flight of icarus by caitlin schneiderhan (character study of eddie munson whoops)
CURRENTLY WATCHING: rewatching righteous gemstones, vice principals, and yellowjackets
CURRENTLY CRAVING: diet coke
TAGGED BY: @wvlfthorned, @unhirsch
TAGGING: its been making the rounds so if you see this and haven't done it, tag me so i can see!
blog direction under the cut to avoid an overly winded explanation being forced on the dash.
the tl;dr - i am starting over with interactions. nothing is being carried over. i wiped my drafts and inbox clean, prioritizing new interactions moving forward. things got really hectic in my life and i am doing this for my brain to be okay.
for the explanation:
i experienced a massive breaking point in my mental health journey. apart from two weeks in between, i have not been working since august of last year. it has been extremely difficult, but i am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. along with that, my mother had a recent medical scare that we thought we were going to lose her entirely, but she's thankfully on a better path. and to punctuate it all, i moved to a state that is currently being invaded by ICE agents and horrible things are happening left and right. things are complicated in my home, as i live with an immigrant who is petrified of going to work everyday in fear. to say things are tense is a joke, but i am doing my part for my new family to protect them.
all this to say that i need a fresh start.
i hope you guys understand where i'm coming from, and if not, i understand that too. but this is what i need to move forward. i hope you guys understand and still want to continue writing with me.
i will prioritize short-form writing more than long-form, just for my brain's sake, as this is a hobby that i want to do when i can spare the time for it. i return to full duty (with no training wheels) on friday. no fmla left, no ways to dip out if i need to, because i need to focus on rebuilding my life in this new place. as time goes, i may be able to get back to my normal output but i don't want to put too much pressure on myself to do it, either.
this is too long, but it is where i'm at. if you read all of this, please know that i love and adore you, and it means the world to me. things are going to get better, my priorities more adequately in order. and i do look forward to writing with you again. and thank you for sticking beside me despite my long absence. it means everything.
(this list is mainly ways non-locals can donate but by extension offers a lot of resources and places to volunteer in the Twin Cities + there are specific ways to donate time under the cut which can be adjusted to your local neighborhood)
Memorial Blood CenterĀ declared a blood emergency on Tuesday, Jan 13. MBC is the blood supplier for both tier 1 trauma hospitals in the metro area (Hennepin County Medical Center and North Memorial Health).
Reach out to your neighborsĀ āĀ especially if you know they are staying home right now āĀ and ask if they need groceries or toiletry items. Offer to pick up prescriptions, give rides, or shovel their driveway. If you know them well, bring them a treat that you know they'll enjoy. Or just ask them how they're doing and let them know you are there to support.
Connect with any of the orgs aboveĀ and see if they are looking for volunteers.
Connect with a church or mosque in your area.Ā FromĀ u/MuddieMaeSuggins: "I know a lot of regular Redditors are not religious (myself included) but like it or not this is a where a lot of community organizing happens, especially in immigrant communities."
Connect with your local school's admin office and/or their PTA.Ā It's ok to reach out even if you don't have kids at the school. PTAs are organizing mutual aid for school families, safe rides, school observers.
Find an official protestĀ or other event viaĀ Indivisible,Ā 50501,Ā FREE AMERICA, orĀ MIRAC. Students at many high schools areĀ staging walk-outs; if your local school is doing this, reach out to school leadership or the PTA and ask how you can support as a community member.
Join the effort to stop Hilton from housing ICEĀ by booking hotel rooms and then cancelling at the last minute. This action can be done from home! The effort is being organized by Sunrise Movement, who are telling activists to target specific hotels one-by-one. More info:Ā SHUT DOWN HILTON
Find people in your area who are actively monitoring ICEĀ and/or stationing themselves in high-traffic areas and ask how you can help. Check for local FB events where people are organizing and just show up.
At minimum, read theĀ COPAL HandbookĀ before you go out to observe.Ā The DFL, Monarca, and other orgs have been hosting online trainings for constitutional observers (though these fill up quickly).
When you see ICE in action, start recording. Be as loud and as disruptive as possible: honk your horn, set off your car alarm, blow your whistle. Let people know that ICE is in the area. If you see someone being detained, try to get their name and a phone number to call their emergency contact.
If you do not feel comfortable observing ICE in person, there are ways you can support from home. Just ask the people who are organizing in your area. I have social anxiety, and I had never participated in any kind of political action before this past Saturday. If I can do it, you can!
Local organizers are requesting that people who help monitor ICE DO NOT participate in 1-to-1 mutual aid efforts, as these can put the families you are helping at risk.
If you have friends/acquaintances who are sympathetic but not politically active,Ā reach out to them. Show them that they're not alone in feeling helpless. Pick a few low-commitment actions from this list and do them together.
my dad passed away shortly after thanksgiving so this holiday really blows for me. so the next couple of weeks are going to be harder than normal. I appreciate you all while I power through this. Iāll try to get drafts up as inspiration hits.
# š²š¬š¬šµš“š°šµš«š¬š« ā independent & mutuals-only rp blog forĀ caleb widogastĀ from critical role's campaign 2,Ā the mighty nein. as overanalyzed by mel.
IT WAS SAFE TO SAY SILAS' REPUTATION PRECEDED HIM. it was almost impossible to go somewhere where one did not know his name. or rather, the tale of the hero of ferelden and the fifth blight. while he at times appreciated people's praise, he was also often meet with scrutiny. though that tended not to phase him as much over the past few years. he had been much more focused on a more pressing matter. one which he hoped would help to save him and his fellow wardens from their doomed fates.Ā
but, before he had even been able to set out on his quest, he found himself roped into yet another pressing matter. it seemed as though the world was facing peril once more. so much so that those who served the late divine had formed an inquisition. he had thought about going to assist them in the beginning but decided against it. but now? it had gotten to the point that the wardens were involved. and it was something he could not turn a blind eye to. not when he himself was responsible for most of the wardens that roamed ferelden.Ā
the sound of a woman's voice was quick to shake him from his thoughts. he was tired, having not gotten a good night's sleep in days. though the excitement in her tone was enough to have the warden smiling a bit sheepishly. eyebrow raised, he looked at her sketch. a huff of laughter left his lips, his head shaking along with his dark curls as he regarded her and her artwork. ā i would say so, ā silas agreed, attempting to look thoughtful. though his gaze slowly trailed over to what appeared to be a rendering of himself. he couldn't mask his amusement even if he tried. ā maker, is that me? much more flattering than the real deal, i must say. ā
