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I'm Cocoa, 28, and I really love tabletop! They/Them/Their, Ae/Aer/Aers, and He/Him/His Read A Disease Like You Spreads

[pjackk]

I cant think anymore

[acidhydra101]

what can i do to help this time

[pjackk]

Back shots again

[beyblaiddyd]

like we literally almost dnf'd ~30 minutes in and then went on to finish the movie and uhm. well i did enjoy it i don't know that it was Good but i'm going to be thinking about it a lot which matters more

[beyblaiddyd]

deeply compelled and fascinated by that movie i've had a Lot of horror movies have decent setups and then end up being dogshit i've never had a horror movie have an Abysmal setup and then end up being preddy good

[wongkrwai]

‎Alice, Sweet Alice (1976) dir. Alfred Sole

[60sgroove]

God took her from me the day of her first communion. Don't you see? He waited until then to teach me that children pay for the sins of their parents.

[calebwittebane]

person typing into google search bar: obfuscate meaning

google ai overview: Understood! From now on, all meaning will be hidden from you, and you'll be forced to wade through the dreary vastness. Whether it's things you've always held dear, or new ideas you've yet to discover, nothing will make sense or appear to have any real value. This could be the beginning of a fascinating journey!

[swamplevel]

if I could kill anything on the planet it would be my friends bad parents. and the second thing I would kill is fuckedelf

[marrow-morrow]

in the 1960s 12 sleep deprived guys all saw a hat that definitely wasn’t there, and then in 1962 it was witnessed again

[beyblaiddyd]

@vapidmalefloozy I FORGOT ABOUT HIM MISPRONOUNCING DOMME

[beyblaiddyd]

Characters from BDSM class:

- Sir Alice - The presenter who didn't show up because sir overslept and left us to our grim fate

- Wolfman - The impact play top who got called in to fill time while we waited for the backup presenter. Was clearly very uncomfortable with public speaking. Demonstrated good flogging practice and briefly touched in privacy etiquette but broadly had nothing useful to say.

- The impact play bottom who did not introduce themself but was very very enthusiastic and helpful. Much better public speaker. Whenever Wolfman or the presenter supplied a bad answer they were there to swoop in and provide a tolerable answer.

- The backup presenter - He did introduce himself but I forgot his name out of spite. Had a habit of saying "and it's like" so intense that Naomh counted like 150 instances of him saying it in the Hour he was presenting. Covered none of the topics the class was supposed to be about and mostly shared anecdotes. I had to ask a leading question to get him to say anything meaningful and even then impact play bottom did the heavy lifting

- Grok Ambivalence man - guy in a suit who works in tech and clearly has a lot of money. Straight verse* (updated for accuracy) who has clearly been in BDSM clubs before and was just coming to this class to learn about this club specifically. Genuinely friendly and helpful temperament but by his nature was doomed to be unbearable

- Group of gay women that got up and left 30 minutes into the "presentation" - smarter people than us

- Director guy - Guy who was asking questions about how to handle it when you're a Dom and you create a SCENE and it's Your scene and then a sub comes in and wants to change it through Negotiation but it's YOUR scene!!! - I think it should probably be legal to run this guy over with a car

- Earnestly confused hookup app guy - Newbie dom whose experiences seem to mostly be through random hookup app meet ups who was asking a lot of questions like "is it okay to negotiate a scene over text?" And "if you do cucking are you supposed to, like, be the husband's friend?". I appreciate that he was asking instead of continuing to wander this world.

- Butch lesbian with blue hair - Her and impact play bottom were fighting for their fucking lives trying to teach the hapless newbie basic negotiation skills

- Dirt - The hero of the evening. Guy in the largest cowboy hat you've ever seen and a shirt that says "himbo," carrying his collar around. He was very nice and was also speaking up throughout the lecture to ream people out for bad etiquette or bad negotiation skills. When I asked questions that weren't sufficiently answered he scooted over to offer to do a mock negotiation scene with us after class to teach us how it usually goes and so we ended up doing a very like high-school PSA-level acting improv scene together about it. Very funny. Thank you Dirt.

[beyblaiddyd]

Went to a bad BDSM class on Monday (the speaker didnt show up so they got a last minute cover who had literally no idea how to run a class) and there were many Characters in the crowd but the one I keep thinking about is this suited tech guy who was bragging about having a whole playroom in his house who like clearly did genuinely know a lot about the social etiquette and boundaries etc so he was trying to speak up and be helpful filling in gaps on the presenter's shit performance But halfway through the class he started talking about how you could use chatGPT (he clarified that he prefers Grok for this but went on to continue referring to chatGPT) to brainstorm scenes while also complaining that it's crap and gives you crap and you can't trust AI but then still saying Doms could use it to draft lists of scene ideas. Who is this man

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

[xalatath]

Interested ✅️

[beyblaiddyd]

Do you think they'll add a gay wesker skin to dbd

[garbageknight29003]

screen burn in. don't look away

[yiddishfisting]

this is like actually vile. are you fucking kidding me

[yiddishfisting]

what if i blocked all of my critics, especially critics of color, cried for weeks about how i was being bullied for no reason because everyone is just meanies and i'm a baby autistic bean, and then made the most condescending post possible where i say "if you think my book is bigoted it's because you have the emotional maturity and intelligence of a ten year old"

[yiddishfisting]

the bigoted therapy speak arrogance of someone like trick weekes but you're some loser nobody cat blogger on tumblr

[yiddishfisting]

[yiddishfisting]

yes exactly