Faa Miraa

I'm desperately looking for papers and pens. It hold my secrets since forever. 

[beyondtheshadow]

Bila perasan terpendam

Mula hati berdendam

Aku cuba untuk meluahkan

Tetapi sentiasa sering dilukakan

Aku tidak pinta yang lain

Hanya secebis kasih dan penghargaan

Sering dicaci dan dibenci

Kini aku sering memerhati

Aku tidak tahu lagi apa harus dilakukan

Kerana semuanya kelihatan seperti penyeksaan

Tanpa sedikit belaian

Aku terus menjadi bahan cacian

Cacian seperti seekor binatang

Aku cuma perlu kasih untuk ditantang

Kalau semua jawapan aku ditentang

Jadi apa sisi ku yang kamu pandang?

Semakin hari kau semakin berani

Berani melihat aku disakiti

Bukan sahaja dihati

Malah juga fizikal ku ini

Pabila ku sentuh segala kesakitan

Aku sentiasa merasa kesedihan

Sering tidak dapat menahan

Aku masih lagi menjdi bahan makian

Aku tidak sanggup melihat diri ku sedih

Tapi bila difikirkan hati ku pedih

Apa lagi yang cuba aku pertahankan?

Sedangkan aku sendiri jua sudah tiada nilaikan?

Terlampau banyak persoalan

Sehingga aku sendiri memikirkan kepastian

Kepastian yang sering aku mencari jawapan

Tapi masih lagi berada di skala sekatan

[wallpapers-no1]

[reallyloudcolor]

message me if you know the artist

[cochleacochlea]

2.The High Priestess / 3.The Empress 

4.The Emperor  / 5.The Hierophant

ⓒMio Im

http://instagram.com/cochlea1313

[bled]

[justiceleague]

Margot Robbie as Harley Quinn in Suicide Squad (2016)

[babyboomerbullshit]

admin: this one is good actually

[duzy-pies]

Never underestimate the powers that cat

[parisi0n-deactivated20191022]

hmmm let me just rant for a bit… okay but i’ve come learn to love my boyfriend’s love. like, before I would crave for this sort of intellectual and passionate connection with someone. that sort of ‘you get me, and I get you’, deep within, with my guts, my soul and yours, whatever they are made of, yours and I are the same (yes, yes, I’m abusing wuthering heights here but hear me out), and yet the truth is, more often than not, when I have that kind of connection, I only end up getting hurt. we’re so inside ourselves and we create unnecessary complexities within the relationship that we forget the love. like, I don’t care you can talk to me about art or literature or what not, but please hold my hand and kiss my nose when I get nervous. don’t try to intellectualize my feelings, I’ve done that time and time again, too many times in my head. and my boyfriend has taught me that. like, we’re the most different and unlikely pairing ever made on earth and yet we work. at the beginning I was so scared to give in because I still craved that intellectual connection and I self-sabotaged the entire thing we had built. and yet he came to me, and I was in complete disbelief that he would just postrate himself to my knees like that, to bare himself naked like that. to tell me ‘I don’t understand you, but I love you’. and his love is simple, his love is listening to me talk and talk and talk and not saying anything bc he doesn’t understand but most importantly because he loves the way I frown when I suddenly catch myself contradicting myself. his love is doing little acts of service, helping me fix the cupboards from my kitchen, holding the groceries bags for me, going to museums with me even when he’s not interested in the slightest just to tell me that I look beautiful next to that painting, and he’s just so simple, so present. and yeah I just wanted to share that

[beyondtheshadow]

If only there is a time machine

I would love to travel back in time

Listening to those rhyme

And enjoying those time

Like there is no afterlife

[beyondtheshadow]

Tidak ku pasti,

Mengapa harus sering berkelahi,

tanpa ku sedari,

Aku disalahi.

Sering ku berdoa,

Agar tidak ku didua,

Tetapi tidak ku menyangka,

Dikau lebih sukar dijangka.

Walaupun kita saling setia,

Aku masih dicuriga,

Tidak ku sangka,

Aku masih diduga.

Maka aku disini masih menunggu,

Agar kita dapat ketemu,

Walau hatiku pilu,

Kau tidakkan rasa diganggu.

[beyondtheshadow]

Realiti

Setiap hari aku dicurigai,

Menunggu masa untuk dihargai,

Walau aku masih berasa sunyi,

Aku masih menanti telefon ku berbunyi.

Walau masih dicaci,

Tidak pernah sekali aku membenci,

Aku pasti aku ikhlas disayangi,

Maka aku masih menanti.

Saban hari,

Semakin berat dugaan ditempuhi,

Maka aku masih memerhati,

Untuk fahami realiti ini.

Minda aku masih memikiri,

Untuk menyingkirkan fantasi,

Walau masih berangan agar ianya adalah realiti,

Namun aku masih berusaha agar ianya dapat direalisasi.

[lilithnoah]

time is passing by

rapidly

and we’re getting older

i hope

that laugh lines will decorate my cheeks

instead of forehead wrinkles

[chooseselflove-againandagain]

remember to be proud of yourself. yes, you do have something to be proud of. it can be anything. pride feels so good and you deserve it!

i am proud of myself for studying extra today. i am proud i made a lonely customer smile at work. i am proud that my puppy deems me worthy of licks. i am proud that i washed and conditioned my hair even tho i was super tired. i am proud that my blog makes people happy.

please im serious. acknowledge yourself for what you’ve achieved cuz everyone has achieved something. whether you graduated college or confessed a huge secret or made your bed today or even just WANT to do better at something, i am proud of you. i am so proud of you but you’ve got to be proud of yourself. its the best positive feedback to keep you going. go you!

[beyondtheshadow]

Aku hanyalah seorang wanita melayu yang layu,

Bukan bangsawan atau sasterawan,

Aku cuma wanita kampung yang tinggal di dalam kepompong,

Yang cuma mempunyai sedikit kemahiran dan ilmu pembelajaran,

Termasuklah hal ehwah rumah dan juga sekolah,

Penat lelah dan kesakitan tak pernah diakui,

Bila dicerita sentiasa ditentang dan dicara,

Aku ini manusia yang lemah,

Sentiasa diberi cacian dan tuduhan untuk dimamah,

Tanggungjawab sahaja yang membawa aku ke sini,

Sehingga tidak memikirkan tentang diri sendiri,

Aku ingin rasa seperti dulu,

Dimana aku hanyalah seorang budak yang sentiasa didahulu

[artruby]

[russiansandgod]

[moonlighttbabes]

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