my weight loss journey

25 yo 5,7 (1,70cm) 194 pounds (88kg) FG - 187 pounds (85kg) SG - 176 pounds (80kg) TG - 165 pounds (75kg) FG - whatever it goes.

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Frustration

One thing I've learned with my first weight loss is that we can't always have the results we one. It's not a straight line we follow to reach our goal, but it doesn't make it less frustrating. I've been eating no more than 1.400 calories a day, and training for 4 days quite nice, dedicating myself honestly. Today I thought it'd be good to check my weight again, just to show myself it's working, so I'd make me keep going. So, there was me over the scale making the must frustrating face in the past weeks. I got almost two kilos. Seriously, I have no clue why this is happening, but seems to be "normal". I feel like crying, but you know, I'm already wearing my training outfit, so I'm just going out for some jumping rope, cos in less than two hours I gotta work.

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Just try

That's what my boyfriend said to me yesterday when we out for jogging. He really says I look great now, but he also says he's gonna support anything positive in my life. So I appreciate it. We did 10x 1min jogging 1min walking Believe me, I've been in the fitness side, this training is easy, but yesterday it was the most difficult thing I've done so far in the past months. I thought I was going to throw up or fall down any moment. But I got it. I was feeling proud of myself... I'm still feeling proud!

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Yes, You’re reading it correctly. That was my before, and this my after. This is myself, one year after the first picture, completely unhealthy. My muscles hurt, I’m always feeling tired and now and then getting sick. Well, I confess I’ve been quite lazy and feeling “not that unhealthy lately”, but after looking at that before picture, I started thinking about the healthy lifestyle I used to have and how good it was for me. To be truly honest, I’ve never felt so body confident in my life like I’m now. Not even when I was smaller. I easily feel really really pretty, and nice looking, wearing clothes I love and walking around with my friends and boyfriend. I don’t care. I don’t even care when people say I should lose weight, because I feel like I don’t owe them a thin body. I mean, don’t tell me how I should look like, it’s not of your business. I’m doing this for myself, I think women have the right to choose the body she wants, and I chose being the old me again. So let’s go for it.

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Hello world, I’m B, 25 yo in the Netherlands.

First of all, this blog is not about skinny apologia, I’m totally against fatphobia, so this is not my aim.

So, why do I want to lose weight? Well, I also fight for the right of having your body the way you want. As long this body is mine and I’ve been fat for a while, now I wanna try a smaller body, and this is what I’m gonna do. As I said, I’ve been fat since my adolescence, and always ashamed and afraid of people’s judgment, I’ve became a sad teenager, negative and lonely. I lost weight several times and got them back again, and again.

My highest weight was around 100kg (220 pounds), and after a party seeing my pictures with my friends, I realized I was big, unhealthy and unhappy. Then I started my weight loss journey slowly, but positive. Months later I met a guy for whom I fell in love, and in my mind he would only love me back if I were skinny.

That guy fell with me as well, and he was sorta supportive with my weight loss. Well, it really helped me, I lost 20kg (44 pounds) in five months. I was happy, proud and more than anything, healthy.

But four months later this guy found someone new, left me and I’ve found myself depressed again. I couldn’t stop eating. I gained 15kg (33 pounds) back.

After being in the dumps for a short while, which means 6 months, I’ve met na amazing guy, who now is my boyfriend and he loves me the way I want. He’s not ashamed of my size and never make fun of it. It makes me love him even more.

So this is why I want to lose weight and have my healthy life back: because now the only reason is BE HOWEVER I WANT TO.

I’m constantly feeling tired in my work, getting sick, and losing sleep and I’m quite sure these are results of my unhealthy life.

I don’t care about clothes, about what men think or anyone also judgment. I love my curves and every piece of my body is amazing. Not body negativity, just a new version of me, like when you change profession or style.

I’m happy and I hope keeping motivated, I don’t have an exactly final weight goal, just think whatever I think it’s nice or my body wants.

Here we go!