My comrade dared me to make a post so here we go bois, read at your own risk comrades, its like twelve o'clock at night so sorry for any mistake or seemingly un-understandable sentences and rambles. Furthermore the post might just being boring in general. So first I’ve been going through a weird religious crisis, I’ve been looking alot into reformist Judaism, hell I even prayed like twice(It doesn’t sound like a lot but it was for me), essentially I think it makes me feel safe and as if I belong to something bigger (shit it sounds like fascism). Second a lot of my new comrades are depressed/suicidal and not that it makes me uncomfortable or anything, but rather it reminds me of how fortunate I am to be white male and straight. It reminds me also how fortunate I am to simply be able to talk to them, for them to be here with me, for them to have taken the time out of their day to speak to some loathly dipshit who knows too much about communism and history. I suppose my only hope is to help them if possible and if not help, then to simply be there if I’m ever needed, I hope my comrades feel comfortable talking to me and if not, hey I get it I look like a fucking school shooter wanna be half the time. This has been my weird ass rant thanks comrades.