for auld lang syne

actually a squonk🌵miles/simon/oisín/tadhg 🌵he/they🌵21🌵mostly fallout&dragon age Art Tag: #myart Poetry Tag: #mypoetry

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Do Not Reblog

Im still working on my account on what happened to me but i feel more comfortable now saying this in public. fugi/endum, aver/yti/nybee or homeb/randa/very on twitter, tumblr, Instagram etc se-xually coerced me, guilttripped and gaslit me, and has spent the last 6 months on and off either directly sending friends to harass, stalk and silence me, or doing nothing at all to prevent them from doing so.

Not saying I didn't fuck up sometimes with boundary issues because i definitely did but that doesnt excuse how ive been treated.

I'm working on writing everything that happened and going back to get all of the messages and such. Right now im still too hurt to look at that stuff but I'm getting there. This isn't official at all this is just for my mutuals and if y'all need proof i will gladly provide it. I want to take small steps because to be honest im still terrified considering all the shit I've had to go through every time I've tried to speak about my experience. I wanted to be able to talk about what happened without saying who he was but as I've discovered even when i never disclose it his friends message me and try to get me to shut up

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If anyone wants to read more abt this im working on writing it out rn. It's far from finished and i need to attach screenshots and such still (im doing this very slowly because its genuinely traumatizing having to relive this all) but it'll give a bit more context

https://docs.google.com/document/d/14lbuEwnf2XjXZAFw7NPuhrJkpM-JUsao14kw-UCz9nU/edit?usp=drivesdk

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Also pls look at my geckos (first 3 are Soup, 4th is Ducky, 5-6 are my yet to be named Indo-Pacific tree geckos

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Wow i havent been here in forever but update on my life: i have become gay scientist following in the footsteps of arcade gannon. I got my associates, am currently taking classes for my bachelor's degree, and have a full time job at a laboratory.

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So if my ex is still stalking me: xoxo thanks for giving me the encouragement to make my life better after you fucked me up in so many ways 💚 never been happier

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Wow i havent been here in forever but update on my life: i have become gay scientist following in the footsteps of arcade gannon. I got my associates, am currently taking classes for my bachelor's degree, and have a full time job at a laboratory.

[bakwaaas]

logically I know nothing matters and everything is temporary but emotionally I am crushed by the weight of everything that has ever happened to me and ever will happen

[thatsbelievable]

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I live

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Heyyy everyone i know ive been gone a while.

A lots going on, my dad is recovering from back surgery and learning to live with cauda equina, ive been dealing with a recurring infection, and my dog midnight had his spleen removed (thankfully it wasnt the worst diagnosis but they still found cancer).

In other words, im tired and i didnt want to put myself through the anxiety of being on tumblr. But now I have a lot of stuff back on track! Im going to my dream college for my botany degree this coming summer, and in general I'm a lot more happy in my current situation.

So I'd like to give a little bit of a teaser for yall: I've been working on a fnv fan comic that may or may not be debuting in the next month.

Get ready to see more of my courier's stupid face!

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prince’s plume

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prince’s plume

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Hey Avery (homebrandavery, fugiendum, whatever u go by now), idk if this is you or it's one of your weird friends who are somehow invested in this, but stop. I'm fairly certain this has to do with you, they always look at posts referring to what happened. If it isnt you tell them to stop. It's none of their fucking business and frankly its more worrying if some random friend of yours i don't know is stalking me.

Idc if you talk shit about me, but you have a responsibility to tell these friends this is unacceptable. Wtf is wrong with y'all, I made it clear to you I had a psychotic episode from a situation like this in the past, and you still think it's a good idea.

I'm so tired of this its been a year of you refusing to acknowledge what happened and talk about it like an adult, instead you act like you're over it and moved on and dont care meanwhile you watch me either yourself, send friends, or they do it themselves and you do nothing to prevent it

Watching me and what I say and talk about isn't going to help you

(probably didnt need to but blocked out the city but it's the same one)

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Hi at my stalker :)

If you got an issue either talk to me or kindly fuck off ive got other shit to deal with, thanks

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Midnight is currently in the hospital for tests.

Today will be around $1200 - $1400 USD. If surgery is an option it can be upwards of $5000 more.

Please help. Reblogs are appreciated.

$6 sketch requests:

https://ko-fi.com/cowboybotanist

Co/mms:

Portfolio

Prices vary depending on the complexity of the requested background, and every additional character is $15 USD.

Embroidered Earrings:

https://twitter.com/BigHeartBigEden/status/1485894990035402754?t=ntn9ndboAv3auN4VZTN0-Q&s=19

(DM me if you want info on co/mm/ssioning custom embroidery I do earrings, hoop pieces, and can embroider clothing)

Please help

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New Life (Spring)

30"x 24"

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Hmmm send me some recommendations for sketches i havent drawn in a while and i need warmups

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what is art i forgor how to draw

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a couple months ago someone sent me an ask asking if I’d ever heard of Boquila trifoliolata and I was like ‘no way. this can’t be real’ and i looked it up and it was and I forgot about it until just now when my supervisor and I got sidetracked and I looked it up again to prove to her that it’s real and found out that not only does this plant vaguely mimic the leaves of whatever plant it’s vining on, it does it when it climbs on fake plants too so any theories about how it does it that include gene transfer or chemicals or touching it in any way are just out the window and those were like, the only theories the original researchers had about how it might be doing it. so anyway I am screaming and crying and whatnot

[elephantbitterhead]

The more you read the better this gets – from Krulwich, Nat Geo 2016:

Boquila feels more like a cuttlefish or an octopus; it can morph into at least eight basic shapes. When it glides up a bush or tree that it’s never encountered before, it can still mimic what’s near. And that’s the wildest part: It doesn’t have to touch what it copies. It only has to be nearby. Most mimicry in the animal kingdom involves physical contact. But this plant can hang—literally hang—alongside a host tree, with empty space between it and its model, and, with no eyes, nose, mouth, or brain, it can “see” its neighbor and copy what it has “seen.”

(Artifical plant modeling & c. discussed in White & Yamashita, Plant Signaling & Behavior, https://doi.org/10.1080/15592324.2021.1977530)

[that1girlarreis]

Don’t like this at all! Thank you!!

[bogleech]

There’s increasing consideration that plants could have forms of vision :) https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/veggies-with-vision-do-plants-see-the-world-around-them/

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And now that has me thinking again of how well an octopus’s skin can see (because their actual eyes, which are better than ours, are colorblind): https://www.theverge.com/2015/5/22/8643965/octopus-cephalopods-skin-light-detection

We already know their arms have their own brains: https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2020/11/201102120027.htm

EDIT: On the topic of plant vision, went looking and it turns out plants can see color: https://www.cannagardening.com/influence_of_colors

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Also here’s an image showing how good the vine (V) is at mimicking the tree (T) it grows on:

Source: https://www.researchgate.net/figure/Leaf-Mimicry-in-the-Climbing-Plant-Boquila-trifoliolata-Pictures-of-the-twining-vine-B_fig1_261917750