Billacookie

Small time artist big time aesop lover My boyfriend is Keith and he is mine ( even if he loves steve more) joke joke <3 Mainly IDV main

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Djune 15th

Steve hair. I mean Joe hair.

I never want to see this man’s hair ever again after drawing it over 100 times. But I guess this has to be my fav. @keithvalentinex

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I dont know why in the past week i have had influx of DM's about my relationship its hella sus man.... hella... sus

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Would you live with him in the future?

By him i assume you mean Keith? I don't really like talking about the future much because i always feel like a let down. But yeah.. i would love to be by his side forever.

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I didn’t take many selfies this weekend but here are the three cosplays I did. I forgot to take my cosplays lol

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Day 14 Djune - fav outfit? I think? Look clothes are clothes but that guitar OWO .. those who dont know me I freaking lover guitars, i use to be a base player in my younger days lol and my god all i wanted was a Gibson SG standard in cherry red *drools* I use to have the Gibson SG Standard bass though for a very very long time until my family sold it without my permission when i was in Uni :'( and trust me when i say i didnt make my money back :') So yeah... outfit.. dont care guitar on the other hand. yes gimme it please. @keithvalentinex can i have that joe merch ;) hahah

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Djune 13 - fave djoling merch

I stole this from Keith a long time ago. He didn’t wear it or he was wearing it and took it off and I put it on. I’ve not taken it off a day since. It may be silly but it makes me feel close to my keef. It may be a bit discoloured or the paint rubbing off I literally wear it swimming man but it’s special to me.

As a plus size person I can’t steal his clothes well I wore his hoody once and it made me feeek so close to him that he also got me one (cosplay man. ) but yeah being able to have something either me of all times that links to him means the world to me

I’m simply just keef trash <3

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Today I randomly agreed to sell at a con with less than a weeks notice. Jake is gonna kill me

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I saw your post mentioning your anniversary are things like that important to you ?

Ummm yeah I think so. Being long distance things like birthdays anniversary etc can become important to someone and they are to me too

I do like to try and be with my partner on our birthday’s anniversary and Christmas so I hope I can this year too 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

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Djune 12 ??? Djo merch

I bet you’re looking for the djo merch but instead it’s another night where I get to be sappy on main.

I don’t need merch because I have him. No not the white ball of fluffy (his name is happy hisser and you better tell him he’s beautiful ) but the amazing man holding him.

My sweet love @keithvalentinex it’s almost two years now since we got together and we have had hard times and good times but ultimately had have always done our best to be us.

I love you so much. You’re the light in my life and the person who reminds me it’s okay to not be okay. I want to be next to you every day forever. Supporting you. Loving you. Encouraging you.

I’m sorry o can’t write anything better I tried but I suck. I’m no writer.

Thank you for being mine.

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Djune 11. Fanart @keithvalentinex

This is still one of my fav things I have drawn for you. The fact you reached out for it made me so happy. I don’t get to draw chibi often and I get scared to so seeing you so happy made me feel like I was able to do this again.

One day I will draw chibis again and not be afraid. Baby steps

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Djune - 10 What can i say about this perfect Joe ... this joe means so much to me, as you can see he is majestic and by far the best out of all the joes. @keithvalentinex thank you for introducing me to the worlds best Joe..... i dont know who i would be today without him. I really hope he keeps your joe dreams alive. Joe ..

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Just some rambles

Mentally I’m just not okay. Everything feels so dull like I have no purpose to exist any more. Theres no one set reason but just loads of things piling on top of each other one after another to just push that darkness close and closer.

My father being sick and no one being able to figure it out.

Him taking it out on me becuase it’s easier right? Punch out at the fat kid who feels she had no life anyways.

Feeling no one takes her serious becuase she’s just a failing arts.

Everything just feels so bleak. No future to hold onto. No need to continue trying. Nothing just darkness. I’m not good at a lot of things. Just drawing and even that I’m starting to hate because irs just not desirable any more.

Logically I know cons are doing worse becuas price Increases vs money left for spending and I know it’s not just my fault because a lot of artists are facing the same issue but that don’t mean it don’t hurt. Constantly feeling you’re not good enough because you can’t even afford to eat any more.

When you feel the only option is just go. Cut yourself off from the world you knew because everyone was better off without you in it anyways.

Bills piling up but no one buying so can’t afford to pay bills.

Feeling trapped and isolated in a home where you know you arnt wanted and pretty much hated.

Turned to hyper fixating on what’s wrong with your body as a way to hate everything that made you happy. Being fat. Stupid. Ugly. Words you have heard since you was 12 and well they arnt wrong.

Just trying your best to make those are you happy but failing Becuase yo yourself is just a toxic idiot that no one needs around.

My mind slipping deeper every day and so my reactions to push everyone away. But try and cling so they don’t prove your own mind right.

When you just want to be a good daughter girlfriend. Friend. But all you are is a failure. Pushing. Ruining. Losing.

I try my best. But I fuck up. Sometimes letting go seems the best option. The easiest option.

I’m sorry to those who I hurt day in. Day out. Trust me there’s no one that hurts my brain more than me.

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Tag game: Ten people you'd like to get to know

Thanks for the tag @keithvalentinex! why not aye

Last song: Fairytale :- Livingstone some lyrics that hit home hard ' ''Oh, I thought I was invincible But Mr. Incredible could only take so much and I made my heart invisible 'Cause I thought that WALL-E could still find love with an empty soul"

"I was so scared to open up that door Worried that the world outside wasn't my home anymore This isn't Andy's room, these aren't the toys I used to know What happened to the stories I was told?" I really do take this song as a way of learning that its okay to grow up, and even though you have always had the safety of your dreams and even though the real world can be scary... you will be okay. Is this the meaning behind the song prob not but .. when have i ever listened to songs correctly

Currently watching: A video of a brushbuddy

Current obsession: Identity V first and foremost, it is my safety and it is my home. its the place i get to be with @keithvalentinex and be free for a few hours. I am also really getting back into genshin, again because of my sweet love keith, i really do just love being able to see him happy with things.

Currently reading: I lack reading comprehnsion man. books scare me becuase its too many words and my brain goes NOPE.

Currently working on: Logicaly myself and my mental state LOL. but also stock for a con i have this weekend which i am genionly very anxioius to go to. but it will be okay and i always have @keithvalentinex with me as alwasy in the evenings so i need to try and not panic so much

Currently wearing: Hello kitty pj t shirt

Last Google search: Story of blodeuwedd and the mabinogion

Favorite flower: I guess im just gonna keep keiths picture here because my fav Flower has always been forget me nots ''The "forget-me-not" is a small, delicate flower that universally symbolizes remembrance, true love, and enduring connection. Whether gifted to a romantic partner, a distant friend, or used to honor a loved one who has passed away, it carries the profound message: "You are always in my thoughts." I also really love lotus flowers which you will see in my work a lot ( Its my logo) because i was always told they was ugly but at night.. in swaps they bloom to their full potential and beauty and i sometimes feel that on a deep level...

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I'm tagging, and you don't have to do it, i dont have 10 friends and keith has already done it so um yeah

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To all the new people following me for my djune posts you are going to be sorely disappointed to learn I know nothing of this man. I am just hear to hype up my boyfriend and his safe place.

I know a tiny bit about certain characters but that is it

I’m literally just a idv girly.

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Djune -9- Djo fanart @keithvalentinex

Do i have many words for why i chose this plush baby above all the other plush babies.... Nope but is it still my fav. yup. I remember when you asked me to draw this, it was when i was in my ' Please do not ask for another damn steve harrington plush baby' phase but you was like ' but you can put him on a hook' and i was like damn your right hahhah Conceiving this baby will always be so funny to me. The fact that we was together, on call, you was playing DBD and i was drawing for you and the entire time you was fighting for your life and i was giggling like a child because i couldn't wait to show you my latest masterpiece. Every time you asked ' what are you giggling at' and i would reply ' you will see' followed by more giggling. Your reaction when i finally sent him to you in the chat was the best i have ever had it was like you didnt know if you wanted to 'save' him. 'laugh' or cry it was beautiful. Each and every one of my stevelings (and joes i guess) mean a lot to me, becuase they all hold a memory that is ours. every 'can you draw this one' or 'you coloured his pants wrong' or ' MAKE HIS HAIR BIGGER' they are all wonderful memories that i will never forget. memories that made me feel safe and grounded and home. Fun fact: I often purposly misscoloured aspects of steve because i wanted you to whine at me to get me to fix it. it was always so sweet and it always made me feel 'usefull at something' I was fearful when the stevelings would stop beacause i was worried i would have nothing else to draw for you but that big beautiful brain of yours always find a way to find me more <3 and for that i am eternally thankful that his skins keep coming :P Love you baby boy, thank you for encouraging me to continue doing this event with you especailly since im not joking when i say i know 0 haha

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Sometimes my fav thing to do is tease my boyfriend with snippets of art he’s asking from me.

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ᯓ‎𝄞 ˎˊ˗ Djune game ᯓ‎𝄞 ˎˊ˗

Link to full game

-Djune 9th: Share your favourite Djo fanart.

Easiest one to answer ever!!! Everyone, please lay eyes on THE Djo plusbaby in all its glory by @billacookie !!! Other than that I've never really looked or interacted much with Joe Keery fanart online :') I also heavily veer towards cute stuff and chibi's so aaaahh, I wonder if I'm the only one who will list a chibi Djo as their favourite art??

Me and my girl are also trying to raise some more funds to make it a bit easier to see each other, so I'd like to shamelessly use this to tell you all that her COMMISSIONS ARE ALWAYS OPEN and she's had plenty of practice drawing any and all forms of Joe Keery X'D

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