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@bvckets

❛ do you know if you have king of kings ?? ━ also, i’d like to return babette’s feast. ❜

“ it’d be under ‘ K ’ if we have it. ” bucket snaps his gum, taking the vcr tape from the girl before him. “ babette’s feast. what kinda weird-ass movie is this ? ”

#c; heather #his name is beckett but like... bucket

sxtton:

He’d met gay people before, it’s the 20th century –– who hasn’t? Though none of them had ever come to him for advice, let alone for something along the lines of romance. He is noticeably uncertain, gaze shifting between Beckett & other objects in the room. ❛ –… What would ya do if it was, uh – a girl? I’d say startin’ there might be a safe bet, unless the guy’s– ❜ He trails off, refraining from pressing the matter further.

“ unless he’s.... what ? straight ? uninterested ? hopelessly in love with his dead ex-boyfriend ? ” bucket rolled his eyes. “ who am i kidding ? i don’t know why i brought it up -------- -- you’ve got no experience with the whole... ” he makes an aborted hand motion ( he guesses it was supposed to symbolize the gay thing ) “ i should let you get back to sellin’ drugs and whatever. ”

#c; ed #ignore the book lmao (:#XD

jvlis:

A year ago, Julian hadn’t been much for relationships, not he’d had one to begin with– but the statement still stood. And then, he met Micah. Though it wasn’t exactly like the younger turned him into some lovesick pup overnight. He liked her, he went for it, and suddenly he didn’t want to be alone anymore. Still didn’t. ❛ Someone like Micah, alright– but that’s not a suggestion, okay? So, back the fuck off. ❜ His tone was defensive, he hadn’t meant to be, though the topic of the younger certainly caused it. ❛ Just get outta town for a bit, fuck around– s’what you’re good at, anyway. ❜

“ trust me, you don’t have to worry about me barking up micah’s tree. her tree has the wrong... leaves, or whatever. ” bucket was shit at metaphors. still, it was clear enough what the implications behind his sentence were. at juli’s words, bucket smiled tightly. “ right. s’what i’m best at. fucking around. it’s all i’m good for anyways. ” he had built a reputation for himself here in sheffield; it was easier to hide behind the mask of a lady’s man than that of a guy hopelessly in love with his best friend. “ i can’t leave town -- the band needs me. ”

#c; juli

pippv:

❛ DUDE, relax. I don’t think he’d be … upset or scared or whatever. You’re a CATCH, Beck. A douche, but a catch. And … as a girl? Girl’s DON’T care. Or, like, they SHOULDN’T. But whatever, spoil my dreams of playing matchmaker ‘cause you’re SCARED. ❜

“ yeah but -- but what about KAYDEN ? ”

#c; pippa #when can bucket go back to flirting w everyone this is TOO GAY

sxtton:

Ed fell silent, not quite certain how to deal with the scenario at hand. Though, without much thought, he quickly offered the younger a response. ❛ Well … what’re you gon’ do about it? ❜

“ i -- i don’t know, sir. ed. i -- ” unbelievable. bucket was coming out to his DRUG LORD. god, when did he get so gay & unable to keep a secret ? “ i guess that’s why i’m talking to you about it. ”

#c; ed #ed the supportive daddi

jvlis:

Initially, Beckett isn’t given a proper response. Instead, Julian just scoffs and shrugs: ‘ of course I am. ’ But as his friend goes on, a bemused expression is replaced by a more solemn one. ❛ Dunno what kind’a rock you’ve been living under, but — that’s been A THING since ‘bout the 15th damn century. ❜ It had. Never had Julian stumbled upon a girl who wanted a guy to treat them as if they weren’t fuckin’ royalty. Which, sure – he understood. They wanted relationships. Nothing wrong with it. But the type Beckett was seeking out? He’d DEFINITELY have to get out of Sheffield for that. ❛ Just … get a GIRLFRIEND, man. Not one of those spoiled fucking— someone fun. You know, like– ❜ He cuts himself off, refusing to put himself through another depressive episode of just THINKING of her. ❛ Whatever. ❜

“ where does a guy gotta’ go to find a girl who doesn’t secretly wanna’ be a PRINCESS ? the god damn moon ? fuck’s sake. ” actually, beck probably would be okay waiting on someone hand and foot, ya know, if he actually LOVED them or whatever, but his problem was that right now, it was the wrong gender that was interested in him. “ you uh, you got an example you’re holding back, jules ? SOMEONE FUN like who ? ” he pouted out his lower lip, arms crossing over his chest. “ spit it out, julian. it’s okay, this is a SAFE SPACE. ”

#c; juli

maaverickd:

couldn’t leave you, man. couldn’t leave you, man. couldn’t leave you, man. sure he could. he wouldn’t be the first and he wouldn’t be the last, and SHIT, maverick felt guilty. he didn’t want to be the one holding bucket back in this SHITTY town, full of SHITTY people who have SHITTY habits. shit, shit, shit. “not allowed to say stuff like that, beckett. don’t let me be the one keeping you here. you can do so much better than me and this fucking town, so go. get out there. nothing makes me special.”

he could say something. he could say something right now about how special mav actually was. about how it’d been eight fucking years since beck had realized just how important and special maverick truly was, and that he could talk for hours about how much mav actually meant. he could tell the truth, the honest truth, that maybe the love bucket felt for his best friend was more than platonic. but ------- -- he wouldn’t. he’d never. if there was one thing in bucket’s life that he’d never fuck up intentionally, it was this. so he’d stay silent. stay friends. “ yeah well, it ain’t that much better anywhere else, so i might as well stay here with the friends i’ve made. no point in starting over. besides, who else would stick around when i get so high i can’t blink ? i need you, dude. ”

#c; maverick #fkcing

jvlis:

Beckett’s response bring on the roll of dark tones, only for a bemused scoff to escape. ❛ Really ? Then what do you call each & every single one of them wanting to fuckin’ gut you ? That’s a … a Tuesday, right ? ❜ He pauses. ❛ Not homicidal enough ? ❜

bucket narrowed his eyes. “ ha ha. you’re a real comedian. ” he gave his head a small shake as he kicked at the ground. god, one bad break-up and the entirety of the female gender under the age of 21 decides to hate you. fuck relationships. “ w h a t e v e r. it’s not like i’m having trouble getting laid. ” he shrugged. “ nah, just... boring. there’s nothin’ new. all the girls ‘round here seem to want is someone to dote on them, buy ‘em shit and be their arm candy. i ain’t about that. i want... i want adventure, or something. ” bucket turned, searched juli’s face for some kind of agreement before snorting. “ god, that was so gay. ”

#c; juli #whaddafuc bucket

pippv:

❛ I’m not a 𝑆𝑁𝐼𝑇𝐶𝐻, Beck. AND I’m a good friend. ——— KEV won’t tell anyone either, but … 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙚. You’ve bought my silence, no coupons for next time. You’re really that embarassed about it? ❜

“ it’s not -- EMBARRASSED ? no. i just don’t wanna’ scare mav away. he’s my best friend. or whatever. i don’t want to make it weird. plus, like, it would totally ruin my chances with girls. ”

#c; pippa #why is he like this

maaverickd:

“you can do whatever you want, beck. don’t let us hold you back. i could take good care of my girlfriend,” maverick said, a ghost of a smile coming over his lips. of course if bucket were to leave, maverick would have to cut him from his life without remorse, always easier to do in the beginning. he didn’t actually want bucket to leave, but who was he to force someone to stay living a life he himself HATED? “what else is there to worry about, beck?”

“ i’m sure she’d love that. ” she would. sarah loved mav WAY more than she loved beck; understandable, of course. and he did entertain the idea of just leaving, up and moving away to some far off place -- he’s got some money saved, knows a couple people down in new york, it wasn’t a stretch. it’s just... everytime he thought about saying his goodbyes, everytime he went down to the bank to close out his account --------- --- bucket looked up, eyes searching mav’s face --------- --- he couldn’t. as long as mav was here, whole, and welcoming, bucket wasn’t going anywhere. “ well i-- i-- i couldn’t leave you, man. ”

#c; maverick #THUS IS REALLY GAY SOMEOEN GET ME OUTTA HERE

maaverickd:

“been tired of you since the day we MET, beck. it took you all this time to realize i was just trying to get you outta my hair? thought you were better than that.”

“ i never claimed to be the brightest bulb. you should know that by now. ” half of a smirk ghosts over beckett’s face before it’s replaced again by furrowed brows and a down-turned mouth. “ i can’t leave anyways. you know, i’ve got -- i’ve got sarah. could never leave her. ” he bites his lip, keeping back the ‘ or you. ’

#yike #c; maverick

thalivs:

‘ one would think that because you seem to believe you’re all that, your feelings wouldn’t get butt hurt over a good ol’ fashioned rejection, but—— here we are. you sure it’s not a cover-up for your deeply rooted self-worth issues? ’

“ you’re right ! i sleep around because deep inside i HATE myself, and this is the only way i get the attention i crave. got me in a corner, babe. ”

#c; thalia #actually he sleeps around bc he can never have who he truly wants but we wont get into that

pippv:

❝ RELAX. He’s not gonna find out unless you tell him, or I announce it tearfully at your funeral. I’ll even make like a toddler and do pinkies crossed that I’ll take it to … your grave. I mean, after I tell Kevin. ———- How do you know he’s not a top? ❞

“ pippa, no. don’t -- c’mon, don’t tell kevin. please. i told you and.. and only you. i’m not ---- i’m not fucking around with this. no one else can know. ”

#c; pippa #gross #gay #extra

jvlis:

❛ what it always is … mother, sister – literally any woman within a five foot radius. crazy. you’re more likely to be havin’ those than me, anyways. ❜

“ i never have girl problems. i ‘unno what you’re talkin’ about. the only problem i seem to be having is that the girls around here aren’t doin’ it for me anymore. they aren’t fun. ”

#c; juli #again: gay