Reflections of a Crazy Life

@bipolarchick79

I'm just a chick with bipolar disorder, PTSD, ADHD, and panic disorder trying to survive like everyone else. I post relatables, thoughts, memes, funnies, pro-cannabis, or anything else that tickles my fancy. Some of it may offend you. If so, kindly exit my tumblr blog and save the hate mail for someone who is actually going to read it. mmkay? I don't really get personal here (with the exception of the Bipolar Post #) but I do on my personal blog, when I feel like updating it. You can find it at www.bipolarchick.net

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When the doctor rips the hide off with the dressing. #PICCLineProblems https://www.instagram.com/p/BtBK_8Un-27/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=r3hpsu9gdrg0

#picclineproblems

My babies taking over my bed https://www.instagram.com/p/BqlN6N-H4i7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7sozau68oe9m

Emotionally Exhausted

Emotionally exhausted

I’ve had a difficult day emotionally. I’ve been depressed, irritable, exhausted. I got 9 hours of straight sleep which is 3 times my typical sleep cycle, but I felt even more spent than usual and I feel guilty for being so tired. I wish I wasn’t so tired all the time. I wish I was healthy again. I am holding on to my life as hard as I can. Sometimes, I have to retreat a bit and recuperate. It…

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#depression #exhaustion #heart failure #heart transplant #lvad #mixed episode #warrior

Fuck holding a grudge, just GTFO of my life.

#irrelevant

Joey's Birth and PPCM Update

Joey’s Birth and PPCM Update

Joseph was born February 12th. He was 18 inches long and he weighed 6lb 8oz. He had jaundice but is very healthy otherwise. Everyone says he looks like me, but I think he shares facial features with Lucas, my thirteen month old. My boys are the light of my life; my amazing miracle rainbow babies. They were both born at 36 weeks and 1 day gestation and delivered through c-section. I’ve had some…

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#health #Joey #Lucas #PPCM #pregnancy #update

Peripartum-Postpartum Cardiomyopathy (PPCM)

My first appointment with my cardiologist since the January 6th echo-cardiogram was Wednesday. My husband, Matt, went with me. He knew how worried I had been and he wanted to be there for emotional support. I also wanted him there so he could become acquainted with the cardiologist and hopefully gain some rapport in case he has to make medical decisions on my behalf at some point. The doctor…

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#health #Lucas #Matt #medications #physical health #PPCM #stress

30 Minutes of Wonderful

I have caught flack from people over getting pregnant so soon after Lucas was born. He wasn’t even six months old when we got confirmation I was pregnant again, but my hubby had known since the minute it happened. He was thrilled. I had mixed emotions because I knew it would be a big challenge and that my body wasn’t fully recovered yet. The doctors had recommended I wait at least a year to get…

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#death #fear #health #help #hospitalization #love #Lucas #Matt #medications #medicine #meds #miscarriage #Mom #pregnancy #success #Tori

First Ultrasound

Well it's definitely real now :) Posted by Jen Long on Thursday, July 3, 2014

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#Lucas #pics #pregnancy

Surprise Pregnancy

For me, the long, winding road to motherhood was wrought with loss, heartache, tears, devastation, disappointment, fear, guilt, shame, bargaining, hopelessness, anger, anxiety, depression, and worthlessness. On my 35th birthday, I finally accepted that my fate was to always be the auntie and never the mother. I felt like a failure as a woman. (more…)

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