Just Doing My Overall Best

Hey, I'm Birb! Mama, Music Teacher, Writer

[frogmoss1]

me: *trying to take my socks off but they keep getting stuck on my heel* oh fuck. goddamnit.

the extractor fan in a bathroom in Norway that has an intrinsic link to my spirit: *momentarily whirs louder*

[billyshakesqueer]

5 original posts remain

[princeofuncertainty]

It's fucked up that I have ocd and autism and adhd. I feel like you should get capped at 1

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Be yourself…but not like that!

The Autistic Teacher

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Let’s Talk About Screentime for Autistic Folk

NeuroWild

[autie-j]

Uh oh fellow autistic people, I don't think we can okie-dokie, thumbs up, special interest fun fact share our way out of this social interaction

[squirrelbee-deactivated20250122]

A while ago I read about autistic people and nesting somewhere & I think we don't talk about that enough. Apparently, a lot of autistic people like nesting. I love nesting. I carefully choose a space to build my nest and I bring all my little trinkets there. I surround myself with everything I love and everything I could possibly need in the next few hours- my water bottle, a snack, my weighted blanket, my soft blanket, hand creme, my headphones, my charger, my favorite stuffed animals- so I don't have to leave the nest to get anything. It makes me feel save and calm and like everything is gonna be ok. This is a nesting appreciation post. Any other autistics who love a good nest?

[birbisunmasking]

Days like these have me really questioning why I chose to be a middle school band director as an autistic adult.

I'm cold and it's loud and I just want to be at home playing Psychonauts 2.

[onemillionfurries]

i love the old web i love the old web so fucking much i wanna kill algorithms and trackers and targeted ads i fucking hate the hellscape we live in now where every site has the same layout and the same "you can only edit ur icon, banner, and description" bs i hate that social media sites are literally built to be addicting i want to fucking kill mark zuckerberg for launching us into this shit

[onemillionfurries]

i see old web screenshots and i get violent sorry not sorry

[onemillionfurries]

like this isnt even just about social media. like even corporate websites like 20+ years ago were fucking distinct from each other. they all had their individual styles and stuff to actually do on them. like they were worth visiting in and of themselves

but now??? its all just the fuckin same shit

you tell me where one site ends and the next begins in these fucking screenshots. it's all the same. white background, banner with logo/product, 3 little lines at the top right of all the sites for the menu. it sucks. it just sucks so much man.

[onemillionfurries]

anyways everyone should make a neocities account and website. everyone should check out yesterweb.org and read their zines. everyone should learn how to surf the web.

im not saying yall have to quit social media right now cold turkey. i get it. it's hard when it's literally built to be addicting. im still trying to get off of twitter myself. but please just check out those links. you may find yourself a small respite that still exists from this late stage capitalism hellscape we find ourselves in.

[boyc4t]

Zzz (¦3冫 )二 !

[helpfulocd]

if you really liked your intrusive thoughts you wouldn’t be anxious over them, if you were really a horrible person you wouldn’t care enough to even wonder if you were. ocd can trick your mind into believing you like your worst fears, but the simple fact that you do compulsions shows that you don’t. joke with the thoughts and your anxiety will dissipate. don’t give the thoughts power.

also, if you feel like your having urges along with your thoughts, that is common for ocd sufferers due to the rush of adrenaline that passes through your body when you are anxious. the fact that you’re anxious is proof you are not your thoughts.

if you have sexual intrusive thoughts, it is normal to experience what appears to be arousal which can be explained by groinal responses. this is true for arousal during disturbing dreams as well. during sleep your brain pretty much goes haywire and i’m fairly certain anything of a sexual nature will get the body going and that doesn’t mean you have some hidden subconscious desire, freud was dumb anyway.

it is also very normal (especially if you’ve been dealing with ocd for a long time) to not feel anxious or like you’re repulsed by the thoughts because your brain has been bombarded so many times it has to protect itself from that constant stress and so it will “numb” you to the thoughts! this is so common and often a source of stress for ocd sufferers although it is one of the key parts of the ocd cycle.

you are so so strong for fighting this long battle against ocd. if you haven’t already and if you can, please try reaching out to someone you trust and try to get help from a psychiatrist and therapist. take care of yourself, this disorder is already difficult enough to deal with and you don’t need the guilt and/or shame that can go along with it.

[queer-nd-culture-is]

when people say “support ND people with uncomfortable symptoms” we MEAN it. there’s a disgusting amount of people who parrot their ableism against stigmatized disorders as standing up for people and it honestly makes me sick.

supporting ND people means supporting people with coprolalia and POCD and defending them. it means listening to people with NPD and ASPD talk about how hard it is for them to exist in ND spaces. it means not chickening out when the ND people you claim to support are just a little *too* ND for you.

there’s a big difference between having an uncontrollable thought or tic than just voluntarily being a piece of shit. if your support for ND people doesn’t hold true to the ND people who are constantly pushing back violently compulsive intrusive thoughts or who have tics for saying offensive words, then your support for ND people isn’t real support because you’re showing you’d withdraw that support as soon as it stretched the limits of your comfort zone and that’s fucked up.

please support nd people with “darker” symptoms. you have no idea how much it can literally put us in danger to not have that kind of support. please please please just please support all ND people. having tics for saying a fucked up thing is nowhere near the same thing as actually wanting to say/believing in said fucked up thing. having violent intrusive thoughts about k/lling your whole family, leaving you in tears and terrified and paranoid, is nowhere near the same thing as wanting to do that/actually fucking doing it.

sorry. i’m just so done with peoples’ conditional support of ND people. you can rb this if you want.

[chiribomb-deactivated20220820]

Hey IDK who may find this useful, and I haven’t used it personally so can’t attest to the quality of the listings (which will also vary by field, of course), but I found this site when I was looking up job listings. The companies here are going out of their way to advertise on a job board for neurodivergent people, meaning they’re probably more accommodating and more appreciative of ND skillsets.

Again, haven’t used it myself, but have bookmarked it for when I graduate in a few months, and seeing as Tumblr is a cesspool of weirdos (I say with affection, obviously), I figure someone out there could probably benefit from it as well.

https://neurodiversityjobs.com/

[radicalurbanista]

you can’t support autistic people and support the police. No amount of paint jobs or sensitivity training can stop police from killing with impunity

[strkid]

As an autistic person there is no group of people that scare me more when I’m in public than police, and different types of mall security etc.

[sleepyowlet]

Let’s not forget the intersection of ableism and racism - while I as a white woman do feel threatened by the police and am very much afraid that certain autism traits will be misinterpreted as “liar tells”, I do have the privilege of walking away from interactions with the police unscathed more likely than not.

People of colour, especially Black people, don’t have that luxury. For them there is so much more danger. Sure, ableism sucks, but for Black people? The intersection of ableism and racism kills.

[castee-yel]

KIM RHODES MY BELOVED!!!!!!!

[adhd-vibes]

hey does anyone else who grew up in violent families/environments get like...premonitions of horrific events? like i'll just suddenly see it happening with such vividness that it almost feels real. and it happens over and over in the same moment, like i see infinite possibilities for catastrophe.

for example if i'm in the car and someone else is driving, i'm like "oh my gosh they are gonna get mad and turn the wheel and we are gonna go straight over the median and ...." and then when that doesn't happen my brain is like "oh my gosh well we gonna run a red light and get t-boned by that semi truck up there!" and over and over again with literally endless opportunities for potential disasters. or like if i'm just sitting in a cafe im like "which person in this room is gonna try and kill me and what do i have to do to be ready for that" and everyone is just...sipping their drinks and typing on their computers...but i'm seeing the whole terrible thing happen in my head where i have to defend myself with a butter knife

i feel like this might be tied to my c-ptsd and the difficulties i have feeling safe? but wondering if anyone else experiences this? where it feels SO real you think maybe you are having a premonition of something that will ACTUALLY happen.

or is this normal? or if you grew up in a safe/calm home does this still happen to you? im really really curious.

[birbisunmasking]

I get this all the time!!!

[despairhasitsown-calm]

a while ago i attended this lecture on autism. guy in the audience said he had many of the symptoms that were presented and asked what should he do to get treatment and possibly a diagnosis. instead of answering his question the psychologist went on a tangent about how “the clinic reigns all powerful over guesswork”, and how actually it has become a trend amongst little children on the internet to claim that they are autistic for cool points, and that this hurts real autistic people. no she didn’t tell him how to get his symptoms looked into, she just made it very clear that to her, aknowledging your own symptoms is bad and evil and hurts the poor real mentally ill people.

an ex-friend of mine, then a psychology major and by now probably a full psychologist, once lectured me on how horrible and bad it was that i told her “i probably have some sort of neurodivergency”, and that if i were her patient she would never give me a diagnosis because “you aren’t like this now, but i know that if you get a diagnosis you’ll use it as an excuse to start treating people badly. that’s just how mentally ill people are.”

same ex-friend was extremely disgusted when she found out that fans sometimes make neurodivergency headcanons for characters that have the same symptoms as they do, and that authors sometimes write books with neurodivergent protagonists in stories that don’t focus on that (ex: she seemed horrified that percy jackson has adhd?)

multiple psychologists i’ve seen on facebook agree that they should refuse to treat patients that say “i’m here because i have symptoms of a disorder and wonder if i have it”, and that a patient should arrive to a psychologist as a blank slate.

school psychologist asked me how i was feeling about my trauma situation and i told him i thought my friends would leave me. instead of addressing the issue he said that that no i didn’t, that i was lying, that i had searched “bpd symptoms” online and now i was faking symptoms because i wanted to have bpd, that he shouldn’t have told me he suspected i had a personality disorder because now look what was happening. no, i didn’t search bpd symptoms online. yes, my friends left me, it was a completely founded belief and not a symptom, let alone a faked symptom.

so the next time you hear someone saying they’re “anti self-diagnosis” i want you to understand what they’re saying. what they’re saying is:

- i don’t want people to be aware of their own symptoms

- i don’t think my patients should have access to any information that doesn’t come from me

- i don’t think neurodivergent people should learn how to cope with their symptoms and live “normal” lives

- i think neurodivergent people should be denied a diagnosis because the moment they get one they will become evil and dangerous

- i don’t think people who don’t look like a stereotype could possibly be neurodivergent, even if they have all the symptoms, so i think they are faking it for attention and should be denied treatment

[a-queer-seminarian]

so ya wanna know about autism: masterpost

I give this google doc link out to individuals a lot, and realized it might be useful for a lot of people if i shared it more widely. It’s a masterpost of a whole bunch of Autistic Stuff – here’s the link to the actual doc, but i’ll also post it all here on tumblr (under a readmore after the table of contents).

(edit: if the hyperlinks aren’t working for you, here’s the google doc url that you can copy and paste into an internet browser to access everything: https://docs.google.com/document/d/16BqhRv4IlZ6KcElGAEZOx8sFYwRs4W1jF-ddY_XKYnE/edit?usp=sharing )

Please spread it around (including sharing the google doc link outside of tumblr wherever you want). Feel free to comment with more resources, tumblr posts, articles, etc. that you find helpful! And if any links are broken, let me know.

It can be a major challenge for adult autistic folks to find content for us and by us, because so much “official” content is 1) ableist and harmful and 2) geared towards parents of autistic children. So I’ve compiled just about every resource I’ve got that discusses autism by and for #actuallyautistic folks.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

- ORGANIZATIONS AND SELF ADVOCATES

- DEFINING AND DESCRIBING AUTISM

misc.

Metaphors and images for autism

Disability models

Issues with Functioning Labels, ideas of “Mild” - “Severe” autism

- AUTISM AND INTERSECTIONALITY

misc.

Autism among women

Autism and race

Autism and LGBTQ

- STUFF ON SELF DIAGNOSIS

misc.

Is it ADHD or Autism??

Tests / checklists

- STUFF ON PROFESSIONAL DIAGNOSIS

- AUTISTIC PRIDE / CULTURE AND HISTORY!

misc.

Autism / disability history and culture

The Neurodiversity Movement

Person first vs. identity first language

Cureism

- AUSTITIC TRAITS (BEYOND THE ONES COMMONLY DISCUSSED!)

Misc. - samefoods, lists, needing to know what to expect, etc.

Stimming

Communication stuff - misc. - Verbal/nonverbal - Infodumping - echolalia - Prosopagnosia - Aphasia - Eye contact

Special interests / hyperfixations

Auditory Processing Disorder

Sensory issues / Sensory Processing Disorder

Meltdowns and Shutdowns and Burnout

Executive function

Emotion stuff

- MASKING / PASSING / SCRIPTING

- WHY AUTISM SPEAKS AND ABA ARE SO BAD

- MISCELLANEOUS

Suicide

Allyship / for allistics - For parents of autistic persons

More non-speaking autistic self-advocates

misc.

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