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I vent and post about my dreams and stuff

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I have been offered an amazing job yesterday, and it's in another city and is literally amazing. I was so excited until i realised that i would literally have to use all the money i get from the job for transportation or rent

But it's an awesome opportunity and i JUST DON'T KNOW IF I WILL GET A BETTER ONE

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I have to keep reminding myself that just because someone else did it before you doesn't mean you should give up.

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I don't want much. But if 2020 is actually the end of the world let me have a cute boyfriend who will love me and cuddle me until the end. Even if for one week please let me feel loved and cared for for once

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I think im going to have a panic attack. What the fuck

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I have been begging for anything but that is not it

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Just received an email from my uni telling me that I have to pay all my debt before receiving the certificate. And the due date is in 25 days and im freaking out.

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Okay, you visited me again in my dream, and you looked so good and even in my dream i was trying not to crush on you but im pretty sure you tried to kill me too so we're not gonna count that.

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I had a weird were i got attacked by someone and somehow i managed to escape and it all feels so familiar and I don't know why. Tryin to remember the face of the person but i can't and my head hurt

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I always fuck things up and regret it all later. I wish i can turn back time why the fuck do i have to be like this

God please help me

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These two girls (like 13 years old) from down the street came and knocked on my door and asked for me and when i went to see them with my messy hair and blood shot eyes, they just said that they like me and that they want to get to know me and i was standing there like, yeah what do you want?

Why are you even saying that?

And they just kept saying that they like me and that the neighborhood shines when im in there and im like wtf is going on please let me go i hate this im terrified why would anyone say that to me??? And im still confused because they finished their well prepared love speech and left with a simple goodbye and a smile and i still dont know why they did that????(

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I just realized that i still look at 21+ years old as scary grown ups and i keep forgetting THAT I AM ALMOST 22 WHAT THE FUCK???

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This week was the first time I did not have a panic attack before going to a party.

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Am I actually an extrovert or am I acting like it because i secretly hate myself and I do not want another person hating me? You will never know.

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I keep telling myself that tomorrow i will turn my life around but am i actually gonna?

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Honey if you made me suffer once and came to me for help don't expect me to give it to you

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I may be stupid but i know how to hold a grudge

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Tw //self harm (almost)- suicidal thoughts

I accidentally broke a glass when i was about to do the dishes and i literally had to run out of the kitchen because i just wanted to slam the glass into my neck so bad.