SUMMARY: Request: Aizawa dating a reader who's never been in a relationship before (because of social anxiety) and is basically anxious about everything they do together (holding hands, cuddling, being intimate, those normal relationship things) and the reader doesn't really understand how relationships work and has a breakdown? Please and thank you :> (If this is too much you can take some details out)
PAIRING: Aizawa x reader
WARNING: slight smut nothing to bad
Being in a relationship isn't something you were the most comfortable with. That is not to say you hadn't been interested in people. Of course you had many crushes but you never pursued anyone in a romantic sense. No one had pursued you either probably because you were so quiet. So when Aizawa began flirting with you, you had a hard time handling it.
“You look beautiful today, (Y/N),” He walked next to you and winked. You could feel your face flush. You attempted to let out a small laugh but it got caught in your throat causing you to cough weakly. After seeing your reaction he began to compliment you more often. Eventually this led to him asking you out on a date. He soon realized any small touch He soon realized any small touch for or small flirtatious things he would say would send your mind into overdrive.
The first time he held your hand on one of your first dates, while he had it gently clasped in his own hand over the table at the restaurant he took you too. Your fingers interlocking with his. You kept stuttering out apologizes for your sweaty palms.
“(Y/N), there is no need to apologize,” he pulled your hand to his lips, pressing them gently against your knuckles. That only caused your heart to pound against your rib cage even harder.
After your date he was walking you home when he placed his hand on the small of you back. He continued talking but you couldn't focus on the words coming out of his mouth. All you could hear was your heartbeat in your ears.“(Y/N), are you even listening to me?” he asked as his fingers moved in small circles on your back.
“S-sorry,” you stuttered before clearing your throat, “What were you saying?” you squeaked out. He took his hand off your back and repeated himself. The rest of the walk your heart pounded with anticipation and fear. Once you were at the door to your apartment the two of you stared at one another for a moment.
“W-would you like to maybe, um, come inside?” you managed to stutter out avoiding looking him in the eyes, “I mean you don't have to if you don't want to,”
“Sure,” he said as you fiddled with your keys. You were barely able to unlock the door because your hands were shaking so much. Inside your apartment you became a lot calmer.
“Would you like a drink?”
“Um, you can make yourself at home,”
You walked to the kitchen to fix Shouta a glass of water before walking to the living room. You saw him sitting on your couch arms, tired eyes looked you up and down as you handed him the glass. Pulling you to sit next to him on your couch. Conversation flowed between the two of you despite your stuttering and constant apologizes.
When his lips softly brushed over yours, He could feel your heart racing in your chest. His hands were placed on your waist as he placed a soft kiss on your lips. You could feel your breath speed up as his lips moved against yours. When he pulled away, he saw the deep red color on your face.
“(Y/N), are you okay?” everything was beginning to get a little overwhelming for you. You couldn't calm your breaths anymore, your eyes began to water slightly. He placed a hand on your shoulder trying to figure out what was wrong.
“I’m sorry if I upset you,”
“You didn't upset me. It's just…“ your sentence trailed off. You honestly didn't know how to explain this to him. How could you explain to Shouta Aizawa that you had never dated anyone seriously and you didn't know how a relationship works.
“Hey, take your time but please tell me what is going on. I care for you and I just want to know what is going on,” the two of you are sat on the couch as he places a hand on your leg, “please just tell me whats wrong,”
“I've just never done this,” you motion to his hand, “I've never had a serious relationship and honestly I don't really understand how they work. I'm not used to the touches or flirting. This is just very different from what i'm used to.” you felt the tears pricking in your eyes.
“We can go as slow as you want. I haven't been in a relationship in a long time either. I just want you to feel comfortable with me,” Aizawas hand wiped the few stray tears that made their way down your cheeks. He pulled you into his chest, wrapping his arms tightly around you.
“You can tell me anything. Okay, kitten?” You nodded into his chest as he stroked your hair. You pulled out of the hug with a deep blush on your face.
“Thank you for understanding, Shouta,” you leaned forward slowly and pressed a small peck on his lips.
That was definitely not the last time that you panicked about rather normal things. The first time Shouta attempted to cuddle with you, you were as stiff as a rock when he laid his head on your lap as the two of you were watching a movie.
“You are a very comfortable pillow, Kitten,” You had barely gotten used to his pet name for you, “You don't have to be so stiff though,” as soon as the words left his mouth you managed to relax slightly and by the end of the movie your hands were tangled in Shouta’s dark locks as he let out soft sighs in his sleep.
The worst incident was when you had begun to think you were growing out of your discomfort in the relationship. Kissing, cuddling, and small touches you had grown used to and even found comfort in them most of the time. You and Shouta were having a rather heated makeout in his bed as Shouta’s kisses began to trail further and further down your body. You could feel him growing harder.
“Yes, Kitten,” he said between kisses to your neck.
“I haven't been with someone like this before,” you said quietly causing him to pull away from you.
“Would you like me to stop?” he asked
“No, I just wanted you to know beforehand,” you attempted to explain.
“If you want me to stop, just say the word, okay?” you nodded as pulled your shirt above your head before removing his own. You admired his chest, keeping your hands placed by your sides.
“Kitten,” He said, noticing you stiffing slightly, “You can touch me,” you loosened up slightly reaching your hands out and placing them on his chest. Your finger tracing along his muscles and pale skin and for a moment you are completely out of your head until his lips are once again placed on your neck. He hands trailed down to you pants as he takes them off he pulls back again. He eyes raking over your body making your mind race. You could only think of the worst case scenarios as Aizawa’s hand began to roam your skin. You could feel the panic begin to rise and tears begin to form as his lips press kisses down your stomach and on your thighs.
“S-shouta,” you want to push him off and run. Your throat feels tight and your heart is racing.
“Yes, Kitten. Are you alright?”
He places a quick peck on your lips, “Do you need a second?” he asked. You simply nodded your head as he gave you a second to collect yourself.
“I’m sorry. My mind drifted to bad scenarios and I was just over thinking, I'm sorry,” you explained after collecting your thoughts.
“You never ever have to apologize for over thinking,” Shouta said, “Do you want to stop?”
You didn't give him an answer but pulled him into a kiss which came as a shock to him. You kissed his neck, hearing small sighs fall from his lips as you sucked on the skin as he did to you. His hands trialed over your body before grabbing your waist and flipping you over. He hovered above you and began trailing kisses down your body once again.
“Shouta,” you breathed his name out, “Thank you,” he hummed against your skiing before quirking his eyebrow at you, “Thank you for making me feel comfortable,” you said looking into his eyes
“Anything for you kitten,” he said before continuing to place kisses on your body and saying praises.
