small, angry, & traumatized

csa victim vent blog // follows from flowerjom

[traumasuggestion]

it felt as a game. i didn’t think it was serious. that’s how fucking young i was, but you still had to have me

[traumasuggestions-blog]

I’ll always be a scared little child 

[seraphimrot]

[holmes-at-the-helm]

you abused me.

[softly-scared-deactivated201911]

The more I scrub my skin the more I realize I will never feel clean again

[rottoncure]

[shattered-angel]

was i ever pure ?

[garden-of-growth]

I don’t actually remember anything about it

[aspec-positivity]

Trauma

If your asexual identity formed because of past trauma, you are still valid. You don’t have to defend yourself, you don’t have to mention it to people who ask why you’re asexual, you don’t need to think “im not really ace”. No matter your reason for your asexuality, it is wonderful and valid. And if, in the future, you decide you aren’t asexual after all, that’s cool too. You weren’t “lying”, you aren’t a “traitor”. People change all the time, it’s a long journey to discover yourself.

[sicksadstar]

i cant remember

[meryderpyderp-deactivated202207]

CSA survivors:

Stay away from alcohol when you can. You’re more likely to be triggered and regress or have flashbacks.

When this happens, Little You needs help, but Big You isn’t there to take care of her. She’s hurting and no one’s there to comfort her.

If you want to heal, you have to start nurturing and protecting Little You consistently.

[pathologising]

[copingundertheradar]

Just because you didn’t understand what was happening at the time doesn’t invalidate the abuse. Just because your abuser appeared to not know what they were doing doesn’t invalidate the abuse. Abuse is abuse is abuse no matter what.

[pathologising]

[no-one-hears-me]

Abusers really think they’re innocent huh

[bitchybratzbaby]

me invalidating my own trauma then seeking out triggers to revalidate it:

[bitchybratzbaby]