I BITE

I want you to look at me and feel something

[bittenborderline]

Really starting to believe I’m truly unlovable in anything more than a platonic sense

[free-my-mindd]

[geryone]

Black Jam, Matthew Haigh

[lilyblisslys]

there should be a cool, chill way to say things like “I’m struggling” or “I’m having a hard time” that doesn’t imply you might have needs

[fairydrowning]

"I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break."

-Marya Hornbacher, Wasted

[lifeinpoetry]

“I burst into tears. “I just feel so terrible about living,” I said. “I feel too self-conscious about living and it’s driving me crazy.””

— David Wojnarowicz, from Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration

[bittenborderline]

Really starting to believe I’m truly unlovable in anything more than a platonic sense

[bittenborderline]

I feel so fucking alienated all the time, it seems like other people can do regular things or even malicious things and no one bats an eye but I’m genuinely trying my best to connect with others and enjoy my life and I get treated like some sick fucking monster

[bittenborderline]

I feel so fucking alone and no one seems to care, I try to reach out to people to make plans and I just get ghosted, cancelled on, or made promises of plans that are never followed up on

[bittenborderline]

I feel so fucking disgusting and pathetic for wanting any kind of connection with anyone

[bittenborderline]

I just want to feel wanted and invited and worth spending time with

[malglories]

i do feel somewhat ruined forever. but it’s okay we stay silly

[deathgasmic]

“you’re so chill” thanks i grew up around people that did not care about my opinion so i simply do not express it even if i am uncomfortable

[bittenborderline]

It really never matters what I want or need, everyone else is going to get what they want and I’m going to be left with the scraps, if there’s even any left.

[macaulaytwins]

Wishbone, Richard Siken // Corpus Christi, Terrence McNally // A Primer for the Small Weird Loves, Richard Siken

[gaycommunist]

excerpt from a diary entry

[bittenborderline]

What if I never feel fulfilled?!

[bittenborderline]

What if I can’t have what fulfills me?