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Black Jam, Matthew Haigh

there should be a cool, chill way to say things like “I’m struggling” or “I’m having a hard time” that doesn’t imply you might have needs

fairydrowning

"I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break."

-Marya Hornbacher, Wasted

lifeinpoetry

“I burst into tears. “I just feel so terrible about living,” I said. “I feel too self-conscious about living and it’s driving me crazy.””

— David Wojnarowicz, from Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration

bittenborderline

Really starting to believe I’m truly unlovable in anything more than a platonic sense

I feel so fucking alienated all the time, it seems like other people can do regular things or even malicious things and no one bats an eye but I’m genuinely trying my best to connect with others and enjoy my life and I get treated like some sick fucking monster

I feel so fucking alone and no one seems to care, I try to reach out to people to make plans and I just get ghosted, cancelled on, or made promises of plans that are never followed up on

#+double booked and they decide the other person/event is more important #bpd #bpd problems #ptsd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #anxiety #lonely

I feel so fucking disgusting and pathetic for wanting any kind of connection with anyone

#bpd #bpd problems #ptsd #bpd feels #especially my own friends #but it feels like no one ever wants me around

I just want to feel wanted and invited and worth spending time with

#bpd #bpd problems #ptsd #bpd feels #borderline personality disorder

malglories

i do feel somewhat ruined forever. but it’s okay we stay silly

deathgasmic

“you’re so chill” thanks i grew up around people that did not care about my opinion so i simply do not express it even if i am uncomfortable

bittenborderline

It really never matters what I want or need, everyone else is going to get what they want and I’m going to be left with the scraps, if there’s even any left.