hopeful silence

claire

[sourdough-seal]

writing is easy actually. all you have to do is tell people what happened

[enjoylentgreen]

[starsworth]

aftg but neil is genuinely wholeheartedly under the impression that andrew and kevin are boyfriends. which is basically just the first book and half of the second but i mean we let him keep that energy the whole way through. andrew says he'd blow him and neil is like ??? pretty sure kevin would take issue with that??? and andrew, thinking neil is referencing their deal, is like ??? kevin doesn't care what i do when im away from him??? and neil is like ??? but you're always with him when im around??? and andrew is like ??? i would tell him to go away??? and neil is like ??? i don't think you should do that??? and andrew is like ??? u mean u want him to watch??? and neil is like ??? i didn't agree to this but if i was going to then yes, im not going to make you send kevin away??? and anyway this is how both andrew and neil operate under the assumption that the other is angling to enter a throuple with one another and kevin day and kevin has no clue about any of this

[greelin]

everything. cost money

[greelin]

stop this

[belovedsamber]

neil and jean: making up stories and lying to the FBI to keep riko out of any negative light

kevin on national television: RIKO WOULD HAVE KILLED NEIL IF ANDREW WASN’T FAST ENOUGH

[antimasculist]

at work: i could be cooking and cleaning and coding and reading and working out and weaving tapestries and playing video games and climbing a mountain and having sex and filming a movie right now yet they keep me trapped in this prison. idle hands are the devils plaything and i am being forcibly molded into his perfect conduit. i must break free, seize the day and waste not the beauty inherent to finite mortal life

at home: my one true passion upon this pointless earth is bog mummy imitation

[drunkinourtears]

jean describing neil as "that malfunctioning cretin that existed to cause trouble for everyone in a thousand-mile radius" might be my new favorite way jean calls neil so far lmaoooo

[bongchoonie]

I was so so scared that Jean's mental health would degrade after Zane said that he should have been the first one to die but oh god, Jean's "I deserve to get better" caught me so off guard, he has come such a long way from tsc and I can't be prouder :((

[motherfucker-somewhat-limited]

really enjoying all the videos Muslims have been posting of their cats looking like this

when the humans are up at 4 am for suhoor

[motherfucker-somewhat-limited]

[lukeawesm]

andreil at the next banquet

[oyabun-draws]

[theuniverseiswithyou]

jean finds out about jeremy's family withholding his social security card and birth certificate and being like okay, I have a guy give me a second. and he calls neil up and says you can't kill another abuser but can you do the next best thing. and neil doesn't even know the whole story but he gets jeremy new papers no hesitation because ruining an abuser's day is his favorite hobby

[alexandriaellisart]

flowers

[zombiecowboy65]

Jeremy wanting to be chosen so badly and then getting one of the most possessive guys on the planet is taking me out so badly. “You showered again/ different cologne” / “they are not your partners!” / “I will choose you everytime” . Idk how he’s still standing honestly

[kefcioart]

“You are a pipe dream”

The voices the voices

[oyabun-draws]

saw a photo on pinterest that reminded me of andrew after a spar with renee so I drew it

[two-bees-poetry]

so soft it hurts

[wootix]

No matter how many times I reread the first book, Andrew still attracts me. Love at first hit🥰