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My casual explanations are a combination of academic research, personal experience, and community feedback. These are informal (or loosely defined) terms for common DID/OSDD experiences, and may not be applicable to every DID/OSDD system. Some systems may have additional experiences not listed.

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Time Warp - Symptoms of Dissociation & Multiplicity

I’ve seen a fair bit about time loss as a symptom of dissociation (mainly DID), but that’s not the most common time issue we face. There’s a subtle form of time loss that runs through our timeline. I suppose you’d call it time distortion or a sort of warp.

Keeping track of what day it is has always been a little difficult. The date is hard enough, but sometimes even the day of the week is a little slippery. Even being co-consciouse or sharing memories through switching doesn’t avoid this hiccup. Sometimes it feels like yesterday, even though I remember someone else was out living yesterday in my place. Sometimes it feels like tomorrow or that it’s been a week since I was last out when really it’s been a night.

My memories seem to float. Moments are like little islands in the sea of time. Their edges don’t touch, so it’s hard to know how they relate to over another on the calendar. Usually, I can loosely track what happened before or after what, but there’s space in between that I can’t calculate it account for.

The scary thing is that time seems to be harder to track than it used to be. I can’t tell if that’s just from my realizing that I’m loosing little pieces (and it’s secretly always been like this) or if I’m actually getting worse.

When I’m tired or stressed, the day blurs in front of me. Depersonalization or Derealization make it hard to be present in time or place. Hours turn into minutes or vice versa. Events don’t fully register as real. Dreams begin to feel as valid and tangible as waking moments. So of course I don’t really know what day it is, and naturally I won’t remember clearly when this happened - I might not remember it at all in fact.

I’ve always used the stand in phrase “the other day” to gloss over the details of when something happened. I apply it to events from ten years ago as librally as I do the events of last week or last night. I’ve always excused myself as being as bad at dates as I am at names. I’ve always warned people that I’m “not on this planet really” on the days I’m out of it. But only now do I recognize these as just more little signs of a multiple life rather than a quirk. I wish these were at least mentioned as symptoms or signs of something dissociative. It’s not just lost memories; it’s that time itself is a little warped.

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artists with did/osdd: drawing your alters does not make you inherently fake. it helps strengthen communication & bonds within the system, and it improves your art skills. don’t let the stigma prevent you from drawing them! i love seeing what you guys look like, and your art is amazing!