Never Did Fit In

Cune's religious recovery vent blog. Save space for survivors of toxic religious environments. 

[audarcy]

I love how often this xkcd comic and its derivatives make the rounds, but it's so sad how few people have seen the title text:

[blacksheepsden]

I think I'm experiencing some kind of inverse crisis of faith? I've been looking into my culture (and subbed to my jewish learning) so this is very much an assimilated jewish perspective, but they had a lesson on the mourner's kaddish, and it's sort of rewiring my whole perspective on gd. (censored because when I'm thinkin' of the jewish version of him you don't say their name)

All my life (raised evangelical) it's been p. much sold to me that gd is already perfect already powerful too big and so high above us that we can't help but always lower ourselves and serve him.

But here in the kaddish it's showin' a different aspect. It's talking both about how the prayer is beseeching for gd to become holy, to become all that's promised. Because he specifically isn't that yet!

And I fear I sound like all the crazy assholes I grew up with but like, the concept of gd being imperfect is already so fuckin' wild to me. It talks a lot about the kingdom to be and all that usual stuff but like, it's translating to me now that the idea is that the world is broken and hurting not despite the perfect higher than us being who made it and that it's this way because we failed, but it's this way because he isn't perfect yet.

And, pardon me if this seems a little blasphemous, but I'm thinking of the concepts of greek myths and greek gods and how they were more concepts than people at the end of the day, and since gd's commands are for us to become beings of light, and how jews are commanded to try and put in the work to bring more of that light to the world, and I'm thinking about human morality and how humans have so so so many good traits but we do have equally bad traits and all of our problems depend on how we swing from one side to the other...

And it just makes me think. Gd as a representation of human morality, specifically the ones that encourage us to help each other and packbond with anything that moves. gd as a concept of all the best parts of us, and how he isn't 'perfect' because we haven't reached the point where the best parts of us outweigh the more damaging parts.

It just. Gives me a lot to contemplate. A Lot.

[velvetsart]

bite the hand acrylic on paper

prints / postcards

[exchristianjoy]

We do not need His love.

Our love is not a threat.

Our love is respectful.

Our love is worthy.

Our love is here.

Our love is real.

[oneheadtoanother]

Their savage Asiatic AI-operated drones vs our benevolent Judeo-Christian AI-operated drones

[blacksheepsden]

BULLSHIT

[gramarobin]

[thistoowillpasss]

[thistoowillpasss]

[allsystemsblue]

Yasmine Wüster

[shrimptin]

[cop-disliker69]

Shortest dissertation ever: you just don’t do missions.

[time-thy-pyramids]

diversity training at the racism factory

[hotvampireadjacent]

“Decolonizing missionary work” my brother in Christ missionary work IS colonization

[reverie-quotes]

I had only a little time left and I didn't want to waste it on God.

— Albert Camus, The Stranger

[exchristianjoy]

Galatians 5:19 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality.

The wonders of the body are evident: sexual freedom, connection, and experience.

That Paul guy really did a lot of damage to people's relationships with their bodies. I know he did damage to mine with verses like this one.

Our bodies are not sinful flesh that we are doomed to despise. Our bodies are capable of many wonders, sexual or nonsexual. Our bodies are ours! And it is a wonder to discover, nurture, and celebrate our bodies without judgement from Paul!

I am happy to release Paul's opinions, which I once internalized, to float out and dissipate like a stinky fart.

Happy pride to all who celebrate. I hope you don't have to deal with too many stinky opinions today.

[yuri-alexseygaybitch]

I hate USAmericunt Christianity I hate their ugly multi-million dollar tax-haven megachurches that look like Walmarts I hate their nightmare "family" structures built on ungodly amounts of gender and sexual violence inflicted on the women and children they treat like like property I hate their genocidal desire to do away with queers and fags and anyone that doesn't conform to their nightmare reality I hate their God Guns Babies version of Jesus I hate their slavish and idolatrous worship of white supremacist capitalist dictatorship and most of all I hate their tyrannical desire to impose their evil hateful spiteful cruel lifestyle on all 400 million people stuck in this shithole country and the infantile hubris it requires of them to think that's possible, because it's not, no matter how many fascist legal clerics and laws and law enforcers they incubate in their "think tanks" and "universities" and airlift into the rotting carcass of our government and courts

[blacksheepsden]

I would like to have a corvid’s wings.

Just small ones. It doesn’t have to be one of the greats, like Raven or Crow, though I do love them.

I would be happy with a rook’s, or even a simple blackbird would do. Just any Corvid really.

They are our brother’s and sister’s of the sky, just as intelligent and twice as wise.

And if I must look like an angel, I’d rather they not be white.

[soberscientistlife]

That is funny AF!!!

[seymour-butz-stuff]

[justsayin59]

Yep.

[anti-encomiums]

[spacemancharisma]

hey uhhh but fr the concept of fallen angels existing but risen demons being an impossibility is kind of a great summary of sin in christianity

[ashelyskies-deactivated20241121]

holy shit

[spacemancharisma]

no, no, come back here and tell me how stupid it is to talk about how the power dynamics inherent to christianity are built upon the rhetoric that failure is unavoidable and there is never enough you can do to make up for it

[swtfrmx]

Missionary being eaten by a jaguar (by Noé León, 1907)