hey bby, you haven’t post much lately...i wonder if everything’s ok? love your blog btw
Hi hun, thanks for worrying about me, it means a lot.
I’ve been quite inactive lately mainly because I faced lots of negativity here, some things were going on like on the background with all this discourse and stuff — that wasn’t really nice, but I could like, you know, control it by blocking certain hashtags and so on, but some of them touched me directly.
Last couple of months I received several anonymous asks where people were telling me what a piece of shit I am, how much my blog sucks, and what should I do — like deleting my blog or eat shit and such. I don’t know what I did to cause such rage, and those anons didn’t care to elaborate, so I guess it will remain a mistery forever.
But anyways, it fed my anxiety to the point where I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be a part of this community anymore because I felt like I did nothing particularly wrong — or at least I wasn’t that awful to anyone to cause such reaction. If you scroll down my blog, you can see that I tried my best to be respectful and nice to anyone. Maybe I failed, although I don’t really think so, but if I did, I’m truly sorry for causing any inconveniences or offending anybody.
But anyway, with all those anon asks, it turned out I’m a pathetic fuck who doesn’t deserve to be accepted in this society. So I stepped back a little bit to calm down. Although I’m still getting notifications about people liking and reblogging my stuff and about getting new followers, at this point I’m still not sure if I want to return here because all those spiteful words I received hurt me deeply, and I just don’t want my hobby-like activity to negatively affect my real life. I don’t want to come through this insecurity and anxiety again, and I hope it’s understandable and no one will get mad at me again, this time for not posting stuff, because last time people seemed to be riled up because I posted stuff🤷♂️ It doesn’t make much sense to me either but oh well.
All in all, those asks I received from the anons kindly suggesting I should like fully comprehend what a waste of skin I am made me question myself and the need of me running this blog. Perhaps, it’s really better off without me.
So there you have it, sorry for the long read.
But nevertheless, thanks for your support, it is very well appreciated and gives me life and heals me in a way ✨💕🙌🏻
