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About Us:

Pro Diagnosed:

OCD

ADHD

Severe Anxiety

Medically recognized:

Autism

OSDD

Suspected:

Schizophrenia

We are anti endogenic. DID and OSDD is a trauma disorder. It happens when there is repeated severe trauma in early development that prevents a child’s states of being from merging together.

You may have trauma you do not remember. I will never harass someone who claims to be endogenic but please, think about it. Don’t spread misinformation.

#dni list #DNI #read dni #dni banner #anti endo #anti endogenic #about us #information #alternative pronouns #my pronouns #mogai #osdd system #did osdd #adult adhd #schizophrenia #schizo spectrum #anxiety #socially anxious

Im allowed to be ANGRY. I have the right to be angry. Let alone being a fictive stuck in a hellhole where all my family don’t exist but I have to deal with the traumatic feelings and flashbacks related to something that I wasn’t even around for to happen. I’m around people who I’ve only heard about and I want to scream!

IM NOT FOR THIS WORLD. I’m not a good person and I have to make sure I don’t fuck up hundreds of peoples lives. I can’t be reckless. I can’t go absolutely apeshit like I remember doing in what I now call my old life. Someone get me out of this hell, I don’t want this world or anything to do with it.

I want to throw things and be self-destructive but I CANT.

This sucks ass.

#did osdd #mentally unstable #dsmp fictive #mental illness #fictives #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #did fictive

Cat dick

#cat

Last year: 10 known alters

Now: Over 100 recorded and tons more lurking but unnamed/unfound

#mental illness #did osdd #did system #endos do not interact

hazyhund

a personal comic based of off a poem i wrote about my struggles with socialization as an autistic person

lady-lycany

Well, that hit a bit too close to home lol

constant-brain-fog

BABES WAKE UP TODAY’S A NATIONAL HOLIDAY 🌈🐀

🎶NEIL IS BANGING OUT THE TUNES🎶

My (old) contribution to the beautiful day that is april 13th

Keep at it with the tunes.

Being a DSMP fictive sucks because it’s such a popular media nowadays and because I exist the whole system will probably get fakeclaimed. I barely even relate to my source, my psudomemories are so different from the fiction that was created for the pet spider Tommyinnit has in the DSMP.

I grew up with two loving spider-human parents in a place sort of like the end but our own dimension. I even had my own name unpronounceable with human mouths. It is translatable to ender which is ⌇ ⎎ ⟟ ☊ ⊑ . You can try to pronounce it but it won’t be the same. I’m fluent in English and ender and working on piglin and human (or so called enchanting table).

Us mob and mob hybrids each have our own dimension but the enderman one is the only one accessible to the humans. The ones that appear in the overworld are either adventurers or exiled by the king.

I wanted to adventure on my own so I transformed into my full spider form and traveled to the overworld. I didn’t attack Tommy out of principal and ended up in a small enough box to where it prevents me from shapeshifting back to my humanoid form.

I like to think that how I got to the headspace was that a portal opened beneath me and I was able to break out. I don’t hate being a human but I don’t enjoy it either.

The headspace is a lot a bit broken since we apparently had a concussion. I first took control of the body while we were in the mental hospital.

So that’s a lot about me and my past! Please ask me questions I would love them! Seriously AMA!

#ask me things #AMA #dsmp fictive #dsmpblr #minecraft #minecraft mobs #Minecraft ama #shroud the spider #spider #spiders

ABOUT ME! (Shroud)

Art: @ katterbox__ on Twitter

➣ Actual Age: 6-23

➣ Mental Age: 10-30

➣ Birthday: March 7th

➣ Species: Spider-Human

➣ Sexuality: Queer

➣ Pronouns: He/They/Hiss

➣ Relationship: none

➣ Source: DSMP (roughly)

➣ Role: Co-Host (?)

➣ Flirting: no

➣ Nicknames: sure

➣ Petnames: no

➣ Touching: no

➣ Sourcetalk: maybe

#osdd system #osdd positivity #osdd fictive #actually osdd #did osdd #fictives #mental illness #trauma #trauma response #system stuff #system alters #active alters #introductory post #introducing myself #shroud the spider #dsmpblr #dsmp fictive

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bleeld

100% agree here

I smell salmon

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💞 ↳˗ˏˋ routine for regressors ˊˎ˗ ↴ 💞

routine to help out the babies who need help! ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა - you're doing great!

┊ ˚➶ ｡˚ morning! ☁️

🥛 || make your bed, and make sure to make sure all your stuffies are nice and comfortable!

🥛 || morning self-care! make sure to brush your teeth, wash your face, and take a shower if needed!

🥛 || eat a delicious and filling breakfast to get you ready for the day!

🥛 || time to get dressed little one! pick out a nice little outfit for the day that makes you feel out of this world!

🥛 || if you have to go somewhere little one make sure you have everything and have your shoes on!

🥛 || repeat after me, "today is going to be a good day, I am needed, and I am loved!"

🥛 || daily goal is to be nice to yourself and others!

┊ ˚➶ ｡˚ evening! ☁️

🥛 || snack time! make sure to have a yummy snack today to help with the tummy!

🥛 || time for lunch! have a nice, healthy, yummy lunch so you can keep moving and have enough energy to work and/or play!

🥛 || daily playtime! if you have a break or have free time, take time to have a little fun! you can watch fun videos, play a little game, and so much more! just make sure when playtime's over you clean up if you made a mess!

🥛 || if your day is going south or is stressful, take time to do breathing exercises and remember that you are worth it and the day will be over soon. tomorrow will be better!

┊ ˚➶ ｡˚ night! ☁️

🥛 || make sure all work is done and organized!

🥛 || time for some nightly self-care! have nummy dinner, brush your teeth, take a shower if needed, wash your face, and relax!

🥛 || make sure to go to bed before 10:30 pm! we can't have you staying up too late, you're too small for that!

🥛 || put any electronics down 1 hour before bed unless using them to listen to music for sleep!

🥛 || time to get comfy little one! it's night night time! get your stuffie and/or another comfort item and let's get ready for bed! goodnight!

#sfw agere #agere #age re #age regression #age regressor #build a bear #froggo #frog #plushie #stuffie #sfw #kidcore

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mmm since we’ve been researching this the past few days: (putting them in simplest terms)

mania - a period of being unstably elated to the point you may need to be hospitalized (a manic episode is usually a week or more). this may include not sleeping, engaging in dangerous behaviors, having extreme trouble focusing, and everything listed in hypomania

hypomania - a period of being elated to the point others notice. this may include speaking faster, being restless, difficulty sleeping, difficulty concentrating, engaging in reckless behaviors, higher sex drive.

bipolar disorder - a disorder where you have at least one manic episode and depressive episode with in your life. usually a (hypo)manic episode is followed by a depressive episode. (bipolar 1 is full mania and bipolar 2 is hypomania)

depression - a condition characterized by feeling sad, losing interest and motivation, changes in appetite, changes in sleep, and brain fog for at least two weeks

depressive episode - feeling sad, losing interest and motivation, changes in appetite, changes in sleep, and brain fog for at least a week, usually closer to two months

borderline personality disorder - a disorder when you have repetitive extreme mood swings, difficulty maintaining relationships, and feeling worthless.

borderline episode - when you have a negative mood swing and feel a lot of emotions. this often leads to suicidal thoughts and sh. usually lasts less than 24 hours.

hyperfixation - when you neurodivergent ppl get a crumb of serotonin from something/hj /lh. when a nd person becomes so interested in something they have difficulty doing anything aside from that and it consumes their thoughts, may cause a loss of sleep or healthy behaviors. (usually 3 hours to 3 days, although variation) (adhd)

special interest - a long term fascination for with something that brings an incomparable amount of serotonin. often the focal point of someones thoughts. (usually a week to lifelong) (autism)

sensory overload - when your mind cannot process a lot of sensory input and it becomes difficulty to focus and interact with others. (nd)

depersonalization - feeling disconnected from yourself, watching yourself in third person

derealization - feeling disconnected from reality, may be related to an existential crisis

anxiety attack - a longer feeling of overwhelming anxiety, usually with a certain cause

panic attack - a short feeling of unbelievable fear and pain, often compared to a heart attack. often with no determinable cause or because of a trigger.

compulsion - a behavior you have to do or you feel fear or panic (usually with ocd as a result of an obsession)

tic - a behavior you cannot control, often jerky body movements or saying something

stim - a stimulating behavior that feels good, you can stop and just feel kind of disappointed or upset

not a mental health professional just a lot of time and anxiety

edit: check the notes if you'd like to read about other people's thoughts and changes that could be made! (i think we got a couple things wrong and they explained it much better than we can)