if only

alice marsden, 18 years old (251). hybrid. abomination a million thoughts in my head should i let my heart keep listening 'cause up 'til now i've walked the line, nothing lost but something missing. i can't decide, what's wrong, what's right. which way should i go?

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( . neuroticleader )

“n-no… not really.”

the hybrid bit into her wrist, quickly kneeling beside him and holding it to his mouth. “drink this.”

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( . petrovaesque )

❝Maybe not, but it’s brave to do it in public as well. You could definitely be an exotic dancer if that was what you wanted to be.❞

“i’ve lived long enough to not really care anymore. maybe i’ll give it a shot one day.”

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( . petrovaesque )

❝I wish I could do that.❞ Nadia laughed. ❝It looks H O T.❞

“it’s actually not that hard, but thank you.”

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( . neuroticleader )

Chris withed upon the ground as the wound in his stomach panged. C’mon Chris. What to do? He had to orb. He had to orb to the nearest place possible. So he did. appearing right before the others eyes and upon the ground.  

“oh, my god! are you alright?”

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( . cupidhcrt )

“um….”

“what?”

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“i could definitely be an exotic dancer, don’t you think?”

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( . darkerthancain )

«We are what we are. The people that want to think that we are monsters have their opinion either way. No matter if you get it from bags or not.»

“well it makes me feel better about myself and my own existence, so... i’m going to continue with it.”

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( . darkerthancain )

No, he probably really wasn’t, but it was nothing new. Jace knew it the moment he killed his brother’s wife after he turned. «Okay. I mean that’s… cool that you can do it. Just nothing I would want to do.»

“i didn’t want to do it, either. but i tried as a test, and it was easier than i thought. and i don’t feel as much of a monster.”

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( . darkerthancain )

«I guess I am not decent then.» Jace lost more than enough when he turned into a vampire. Besides, human blood and feeding without killing were the only things that gave him the strength to stay in control. «So you feed from bags? Not the vein?»

“perhaps not.” alice shrugged. not many vampires that she knew had morals that matched her own, and she was used to it. “i do, yes.”

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( . criginalwitch )

The witch hummed in thought. It was good to know that Siphoners were still around and not extinct. It seemed like another possibility to end this war, but Esther wouldn’t mention any of that now. Not until she had an actual P L A N and found one that could be trusted. ❝Admirable. I wish more vampires felt the way you do.❞ Including her own family.

alice was slightly unnerved by the vibes the woman was giving her, but smiled and nodded anyways. “as do i. but it took me a long time to figure out how to do it.”

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( . darkerthancain )

«Yeah. By the resistance.» The same resistance that attacked innocent people so he honestly couldn’t say he gave a fuck about their opinion anymore. «A stash of people or bags?» Jace questioned, joking. Well… kind of.

“by most decent people, actually. i couldn’t care less about the resistance or any of that.” she replied with a shrug. “bags.”

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( . criginalwitch )

❝I thought they were a dying breed.❞ Siphoners and hybrids, both. ❝A half-vampire that doesn’t want to feed on someone attractive? Color me impressed.❞

“we are, yes.” she’d only met one or two like herself in her life, and one was dead. “i keep blood bags on hand, and i don’t want to hurt anyone.”

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( . darkerthancain )

«Does it make any difference?» If it did it only strengthened his belief in Wyatt. He was a vampire (partially) and he needed blood. What was the point in hiding it? «I don’t mind if anyone sees either. I’m deadlier than I look.» It was the benefit of being a hybrid. No one saw it coming.

“well, attacking someone in broad daylight is usually frowned upon, no matter what species. if you’re hungry, i have a stash back at my place.”

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( . darkerthancain )

«Well, if you’re not going to have a bite… Would you mind terribly if I do?»

“well, considering it’s the middle of the day, i’d say you shouldn’t.”

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( . criginalwitch )

❝Vampire, I assume?❞ The witch eyed her in curiosity. She thought that she sensed witchcraft, radiating from the other blonde, so maybe she was mistaking. It was confusing and rather interesting as well. There were not a whole lot of hybrids after all.

“a hybrid actually. vampire and siphoner. not looking at them for the blood though. they’re just both rather attractive.” the other woman’s gaze intrigued her, and she could feel the power coming off her.

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( . freezingkat )

“shouldn’t what?”

“break all my resolutions already.”

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( . darkerthancain )

«I wouldn’t blame you. Those do look delicious.»

“they do.”