Chow, Bella

Lost soul. Looking for something. 

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Why does this feel like the 7th season and the recap of the last episode before the 1st one airs. Something is happening. Not sure what.

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It's been a while. I always forget you're there. The simple bar in the middle of my home screen that lives in the same spot forever. I miss the way the letters can hit, and the relief a quick note can give. I miss spoken words, and having the courage to speak the words as well. Well that has run dry, at least that's how I feel. Fill me again, with art and love and creativity. With positivity and a belief that I will finish the puzzle. There won't always be a missing piece. 3000 shapes with barely a sliver of myself to give. I must be missing something. But it won't last forever. Just like nothing and anything quite does, or does not. I can play with words, word things just right, and worry far too much. I crave the way the sentences can push sense into my skull. One so thick, at least that's what I've been told. I'm trying to soften, though. The way it softened when I flew down that flight of stairs. The crush and the crash never to be remembered, but certainly felt. This may not make sense, but it's keeping me from sin and honestly the sun isn't always in this picture. It gets dark, cloudy, rainy and that's when I'm the busiest. It's the run around like a chicken with your head cut off because you are a chicken. I think too much. I don't think enough. I say thanks too little, and debate in a way that is sure to seal my fate. But it's me. I'm here for it. It's confusing, concerning and connected all at once. So if you're here, you're here. I am too.

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And the world spins madly on

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Ahhhh what an adventure

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Thank you Lord for the blessings you've given to us, I promise to always try to do better... Even though I may fail sometimes, I will get back up with the grasp of your hand and try again for you .. Amen

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"Whatever makes you happy, whatever you want...."

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"The mountains are calling"

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Life is strange.... Anyone ever get that real bittersweet, kind of blissful, know that something is changing but can't quite pin-point it feeling? Let's see how far we've come, I suppose ....

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Just For Today...

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

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Bloggin' along

Hey guys, whoever "guys" may be.... any-who, today is a writing day. A keep to myself, beat the yells and break from the spells, day. Ya know? Probably not. I wonder what I am even doing sometimes, like this for instance. Writing on my laptop, on yet another soul sucking social media platform because I need my voice to be heard... or something. I guess writing, art, music - etc. Is just always going to be burned deep into my heart, with scars along side them all because these things could bring me so much joy, whilst at the same time bring so much frustration. Why its like that, I am still not quite sure but somewhere a long the way, Art and Music.. the lifestyle showed me nothing but a façade of dull things that once from farther away appeared to shine bright. What a mind trick.

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“I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.”

— Uma Thurman

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Irony

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“When you talk you are only repeating what you already know. But when you listen you may learn something new.”

— Unknown

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"Wake up kids, we've got the dreamers disease"

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Hello

Hello, face I thought I recognized. I guess I didn't. - People can so easily put on a skin that is not theirs. It is truly incredible. Superhumans, I call them. The reptilian kind.

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White Flowers

White Flowers. What do you think when they come to your mind?

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I think pure, innocent. Maybe foolish, even. I also think of my name which - to me - currently does not represent any of those things. I hope someone, one day may be willing to journey with me. I have so much to say...