I just wanna scream everything on my mind into the void so I can get it off my brain
I got hurt by the person I love most. I feel like that’s all I ever get. Is hurt. his love was so different from any other love I got. It was innocent and loving and just absolutely wonderful. Even through the roughest spots, we stood as a team.
Flash forward to this month. You let your stress take over you . Gave me no love and stressed me out to the point I had nothing left to give. I cried for weeks. I felt like I was about to be left by the one person who promised me that they would never hurt me. After two big blow ups, you came to realize what you did. You started to tear both of us apart. You let your stress BLEED into us. Granted, I also have things to work on and I’m absolutely not perfect by all means. But what I never would do to you is hurt you with my stress. I still loved and supported you 100% and gave you everything I had even when I was at my lowest. But I’m left. By myself. Like I don’t even matter.
I’m left with a shattered heart. No motivation. No fucking nothing. You tell me you are working on it. But where are you when I fucking need you? I text and text but you’re out here having a laugh fun time. Where is my fucking support? Where is my love? yeah I get it. You need you time but when am I supposed to fit into this? You actively make me feel like a friend again…. Even a burden. Jesus Christ how many times do I have to tell you?
I don’t feel like you care. It hurts. I tell you my deepest darkest secrets and I get hit with 1..2…3 hours of silence to you not even acknowledging what I said. I don’t want to be the type of person who forces love out of someone. But if you love someone THAT much, you will go out of your way to make sure you right your wrongs. I’m slowly starting to disappear from you. I don’t want to but I know when feelings aren’t being reciprocated, I might as well silently say bye. I don’t want to say bye. I need you to listen. I need you to make me feel again.
