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rina / kiki. 28. she / her. okinawan / seasian. private, selective, independent blog for cherry valla, warrior of light. this blog has been remade several times, so i will be trying to re-gather my headcanons and rewrite them as needed, while exploring new lore, with a heavy focus on main / canonverse of final fantasy xiv, and secondary activities in modern / band / league of legends verses.

i am not interested in shipping cherry ( re: friends only ). i do have npcwolships that i enjoy, and if i do happen to have a friend(s) who write those particular npcs interested in shipping, i'm open to discussing things, but it's not a priority. unless we have a pre-established dynamic or ship that we've already been developing and discussing, i'm not interested! i'm not interested in any multi-wol plots / theories anymore, unfortunately. i just really want to write cherry authentically to her canon and prioritize her canon existence in the ff14 universe rather than in any other aus.

i am not caught up on dawntrail. i haven't even unlocked the last zone lmfaoooooooooo. idc about spoilers atp but i won't be referencing its content 'til i get caught up.

carrd being reworked blah blah blah.

#pinned.#if u see this and are still following me ur safe dw ily

vampire hunter cherry would go soooo crazy

#imagining her without her bunny ears is so fucked up though #ooc.

apparently one of my cherry archives was terminated???? idk which one like i tried logging into it on accident bc i just downloaded the firefox containers and i didn't know which email was the one to this account and i chose wrong and was met with a terminated screen but anyway i hope it wasn't the one from which i LAST moved from because that had all my headcanons .........

edit: it sure was 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ok so both fanfolds + enavance were terminated??? idk which email combo i was using for which but i submitted an appeal for one but the other one says "this account is no longer eligible for appeal" like what????? genuinely i'm gonna lose it because the LENGTHY headcanons i've written for cherry are now all gone, as well as gposes i don't have access to ANYWHERE because a friend wiped my SSD which had all of them. oooooohhhhhh my god

#i'm about to check rn but if it's the one i need i AM gonna be so upset #literally no reason for a termination either esp bc i didn't get emails warning me?????#ooc.#tbd.

azem/emet

#also probably cherry / anyone but cherry is the avoidant loser #sobbing #about.

this is cherry

#about.#she's so good at being alone #i have a meta out there somewhere #i should probably just rewrite it #it's at least 4 years old probably

chewing on my hands because there's no real good way to translate the existence / concept of a character like the warrior of light to specific verse in the grand scheme of things, and it's not wholly important to me or anything, but just know that cherry in any other fantasy-based universe will absolutely be some mercenary / enforcer for hire and is very good at her job and absurdly strong and reckless. she's not ruthless because ( unlike eden ) she has pretty rigid morals, but she's not above beating the shit out of someone ( if they deserve it ).

#mild brainstorming before bed because i am dying to throw cherry at everyone #guys when my nerve pain goes away it's over for you all #also i think cherry in a cyberpunk 2077 would be insane #not a fixer like eden but like #absolutely legendary solo i think #like modern day johnny silverhand type of character #god cherry and johnny would've gotten along so well LMAO #ANYWAY!#mwah thank u all for being SO PATIENT WITH MEEEE #ily #ooc.

fanfolds

narrator voice: four hours earlier …

#HELP SDKJBCSD I REMEMBERED MY ARCHIVED BLOG EXISTS #this still kills me #love of her life getting roped into bullshit #visage.

also when i get home i'll probably throw up my olddddddddd carrd from a billion years ago just so y'all have some info about cherry sdkjbcsd i need to overhaul it so bad and retcon some things tho

tldr cherry is an introverted extrovert who's socially reserved but will be super loud when she's mad and she has a hair trigger temper and she's mean and bitchy and doesn't hate people as much as she tries to pretend but she's just deathly afraid of forming any close bonds with anyone because everyone she cares about dies so she tries to be so cold but it usually fails and deep down she has a heart of gold and she's like chaotic neutral / chaotic good and has a really bad penchant for self-sabotage and self-destructive forms of self harm ( re: she's INSANELY battle smart but she does not give a fuck and will go dive in head first without any other plan except kick ass if it means saving everyone else )

#ooc.#tbd.

who can i pay to do my gfx for me because i hate making gfx for myself KJBSDKJCBSKJD

#i will have to take more gposes of cherry tho for some transparent pictures to make it easier on u #because i also lost all of my fucking gposes regular and transparent #when my friend wiped my ssd the other year #i'm still so mad about it actually like i lowkey got so upset last night LMFAO #because i'm having to also refund people their comms bc i can't complete them #because i lost all the fucking files for those #not just the files they sent me but the photoshop files I CREATED all the banners everything #and i don't think i was able to recover all the resources i downloaded lmao #anything prior to 2021 was safe bc they were on my laptop but #everything after that. peeposmile.#i'm so mad lmao #like i already refunded some ppl starting earlier this month #and i have to refund like idk another $200 or so #my friend bought me a new like 5TB ssd when it happened but like #AND IT WAS NICE OF HER IT REALLY WAS but that doesn't replace like.#all my things i lost #my documents my gposes all my resources all my WORK all my psds my banners my personal use things #and it doesn't return the financial damage from beinng unable to complete comms lmao #sobs.#ANYWAY #I DON'T WANT TO MAKE MY GFX KJSDBCKJSD #ooc.#tbd.

miss cherry i love u

#I MISSED HER.....#whole time i've had a glamour applied to only look at eden lmao #LIKE IT'S HARD WHEN YOUR FIRST FAVORITE OC GETS RUINED BY A FUCKING MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i'll play the game again for 8.0 .........#visage.

welcome to my cherry/thancred/estinien ted talk where i discuss cherry and thancred's ARR situationship and cherry meeting estinien and hating his ass and they fight and argue all the fucking time because they're just so similar as people and they butt heads and don't realize they're literal mirrors of one another and then he saves her life because he's lowkey in love with her and also it's the right thing to do and like cherry's also lowkey obsessed with him because how does someone get under your skin like a rival and you're not obsessed with them but then her soul gets kidnapped with the rest of the scions and she re-bonds with thancred in this different life-altering way ( as with the rest of the scions ) from being trapped on another shard but by your soul and she still can't admit she loves him and they finally make it home and the world is still going to shit but like it's extra going to shit and this time cherry gets to spend time with estinien and it's like wow she kinda loves them both but cherry is so fucking stupid when it comes to feelings and she doesn't even know it, just that they're there and important and she cannot exist without them and would probably lose her mind if something happened like she went on a bender after emet-selch ( because how are you supposed to reconcile the memories of your soul and that nostalgia it holds and having glimpses of the past and then he dies ) AND THEN you travel to the past and you realize you're not crazy after all and you realize in full who you were and how you're just a piece of a whole and then your ancient soul mate withers to the lifestream but not after you spend this journey thinking you lost the loves of your life and your adoptive family and it's all very extra traumatic but then everything is fine and

now cherry is a little softer because she realizes life is precious that time is so short but she still won't say she loves them but i think they know, because she's kinder, smiles a little more easily, openly reaches for them with affection in ways she wouldn't have before

and i can't wait to see what traumatizes her next <3

#this is like the only polyship i have #the only one that works for her or me LMAO #she has a type </3 #men with white hair </33333