Its Like Pulling Teeth

meg|19|they/them

[bloody-gauze]

Ate 850 calories today and I want to fucking kill myself I feel so full and greedy but at least I didn't hardcore binge like I wanted to ???????

[plucky-deactivated20180916]

[bloody-gauze]

This is the third night in a row this mans has called me and intentionally fell asleep while FaceTime audio and he wakes up occasionally but doesn't hang up and goes back to sleep like do u love me yet or what cmon I'm too emotionally fucked up for all this guessing (the kicker is I know he would never because he told me he's not looking for a relationship and he leaves in August for school in Victoria so like 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️)

[bloody-gauze]

Mood rn becasue I'm super obsessing over my weight for the past like forever and I've finally lost 20 pounds but I still feel bigger then ever and the guy I'm kind of obsessing over told me that I should try keto (becasue it's a "good way to drop 20 pounds") and I'm like okay does this mean u think I'm fat like bitch what the fuck and I know it's super unhealthy to be restricting like I am but if I don't I binge and I slipped up today too much and then at dinner I put more sauce on my plate because I would die for sweet baby rays bbq sauce and my mom like attacked me about how it's bad for me and doesn't follow her weight watchers bullshit she's doing,,, so I tried to purge but It's been so long since I've done it and my body wasn't into it and I freaked myself out after heaving into the toilet for a bit and I can't cut myself bc I'm hooking up with this boi recently although who even knows if that's ever going to happen again because I'm just disposable and convenient for him because I live nearby and I never meant anything to him even tho I spend way too much of my energy thinking about his basic white boy self !!! And I'm not working rn becasue I had a breakdown as we all do eventually lmao ,, and I'm trying to buy a car yet here I am spending my money that should be for a car like a fucking idiot ,, I have no life plans and I'm going to be nothing forever and sometimes that's just the way it is man. I have no impulse control time to starve myself until my mans whose not my mans comes back from Toronto so maybe he'll love me

[null-physical]

[gurobob]

Managed to polish up the first design! I’m thinking of doing a colour variant since I couldn’t choose between ‘natural’ and ‘yeahbut monsters’

eventually I’m hoping to get these made into double sided keychains like the boys!

[null-physical]

[mikashiya]

Lack of empathy and addicted to pain

[teethcake]

go wash your hands

[ghost-sketchbook]

[hogwartzlou]

you can tell a lot about someone based on their phone background. it shows what’s most important to them

[uss-clairvoyant]

Reblog this and put what your phone background in the tags

[moonrifts]

We try to change, but we end up hurting ourselves. //

[bun-nanami]

to match my yoonbum doodle

[silent-corner]

Get up and get more~

[henmaallina]

돼또

[7975834693]

1) 0*C undercover mission circa New Year’s Eve 1986. no, she doesn’t want your jacket

2) you ever play yourself 

[bloody-gauze]

Just remembered what I look like and I'm so mad