Oops..i died,in my fantasy!

•She/her__This is where i cm when i get tired, it is for all those weary travellers who need rest..who is tired of the chaos..Feel free to ask anything..Sorry but i can go depressing sometimes;)

[bloomblossoms]

Living shouldn't feel like an obligation

[bloomblossoms]

JUDE AND WILLEM, A LITTLE LIFE

"Across the room, across the pool of people, he would find Willem’s gaze on him, and that one look would be enough. Everything else—the conversations, the noise, the laughter—would fall away. There was only that look, and it was everything.”

“Willem sat beside him, his hand on Jude’s arm. He had learned not to talk, not to ask questions, not to try to make him promise anything. He just stayed there, and sometimes that was all Jude could bear, and all Willem could offer.”

"HE WAS HOME, AND JUDE WAS HOME"

[bloomblossoms]

Social anxiety

Anxiety

Anxiety

Anxiety

I can't breath

Kill me!!! leave me alone

[bloomblossoms]

Sometimes when i look into the mirror, i hate the person i see, how gullible and ignorant she turned into. How unbearable she became, how undesirable her survival is to herself. How can u expect the world to accept you if u can't accept ur own self.

[bloomblossoms]

Lost in the woods

[paganowlsheart]

[bloomblossoms]

Sometimes the guilt of ur own survival hits so hard. Its unexplainable, not that i sit crying..but there's an uneasiness in every breath i take, in every step i take. Its so hard living with this uneasiness. I want it to go. I want this to end. I want it to stop. I want my head to stop thinking. At the end u can't stop, u can't let it go coz u hv people who look up to you. You hv to get through this if not for you for them!

[bloomblossoms]

Don't underestimate your own worth! You hv the capability to achieve what u want, just keep faith in yourself, love.

[gondwana]

writing stuff down in a notebook is like. it's like taking a vitamin

[bloomblossoms]

We are trapped, we can't escape the hold coz we are so dependent on them for our everything. But everyday i wish i would be free, live a life all by me. And i would never be like them, i am not them i am better. I will never let my daughter cry to sleep.

Maybe i am happy;)

[bloomblossoms]

Ps- I am sorry . I know i get pissed off sometimes. But i love u, i am greatful to you but i hope u both treat each other better! Its not abt me surviving but its about us and our little family being together. I love you❤

[bloomblossoms]

We are trapped, we can't escape the hold coz we are so dependent on them for our everything. But everyday i wish i would be free, live a life all by me. And i would never be like them, i am not them i am better. I will never let my daughter cry to sleep.

Maybe i am happy;)

[bloomblossoms]

I was drowning, drowning in a space where everyone was better than me, it was so hard swimming to the top not for the world to see but for me to breath!

I am buried by my own insecurities, sorry i don't whine! But this is reality, this is what happens when i see someone walking by. I posses no quality or trait to hold, to pleasure the person i desire. Then the devil consumes me, i look upon the shining glass and i hate what i see. I envy my closest mate but why shouldn't i coz i saw him longing for her, when it was me who rubber her ass out to make him smile. Is this worth dying for?

[bloomblossoms]

When your tired of a broken family!

[bloomblossoms]

Even if we aren't a thing. You deserve the world❤

Imagine its u inside a mirror, smiling at the you standing outside the mirror!

[bloomblossoms]

[bloomblossoms]

And this is for you Bottle! You helped me bottle up my emotions and drop it into the ocean. I loved you boy, too much that i couldn't even speak up to you. Coz i feared rejection. But when i did speak, you left me hanging. I didn't mind, how could i ever hate you for something i can't force you to feel. But i still want to lay my head on your shoulders hear your heartbeat. Agghhh...its fine. You were my first love, you are unforgettable. But this year its farewell, until now even if we didn't hv anything also, we met every single day. You sent butterflies when you were near me. But this year its the end. Maybe farewell for ever. Its hurts i couldn't hold your hands, we couldn't stay together till the end. I hv no complaints or wailings coz love can't be bought forcefully. Honestly, you hv been with me since my kindergarten but it was so astonishing when i fell for you. It was splendid loving you!

I love you so i can let you go.

[bloomblossoms]

It wasn't even real, coz it didn't even exist. All this time it was just my head playing with my heart.

[bloomblossoms]