Poet

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Why couldn't it be me?

The apple of your eye

The love you can't help but need

Why couldn't it be 

My summers kiss that melted thee

Instead, it was another's lips that made you forget me

Oh, how I wish this was just a twisted dream

When we agreed to end our love

I only agreed to make you happy, but at what cost to me

Let's go back to before when it was just you and I

Why couldn't you stay and just lie to me

If I had known you were going to another

I would have never agreed

So would you please

Come back to me

And forget everything that you have seen

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Out of all the poems I've written so far This one brings me the most tears For I know I will never have another chance To hold you so dear To grip you tightly and whisper into your ear Not heaven nor hell can make us part I'll try my best to conquer the world To pull you from the depths of that hell So even after death We will forever remain one.

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My Heart was Written for You.

Them: Do you love me?   Y/N: Of course. I love you. I’m sure I do. It’s…..it’s just not in the way you want. Actually, maybe I do but it’s in my own way. That’s it, I do love you. I love you in my own way.  Them: Just not in the same way I do right. So in your own way. But, you still love me?  Y/N: I’m sure the love we feel for each other is not that different. Love is Love. Whether your way or mine, it's love.  Them: Do you love me so much it hurts? Do you cry yourself to sleep because of how grateful you are to find someone like me to love? You see I love you more than I can feel. I love you more than I could ever love myself.  Y/N:When I said I love you I meant as a friend. I think you may be confused on the type of love that is acceptable between us. Those kinds of feelings are not felt between friends. Let alone a love that the world frowns upon.  Them: If that’s the case then there is no way your love is the same as mine. Because even if the world is against us I wouldn’t want to love anyone but you. Y/N: Yeah I think you're definitely confused. Them: I don't think so. I'd die a million times over just to relive the first time I fell for you.  I’d choose to suffer with you in every lifetime, then to choose to live an easy life without you. Is that not love? Y/N: Are you sure those feelings are even real? How do you even know it's love? Them: Aren’t they? These feelings for you have led me to experience love in a world where nothing else matters. A selfless love in a selfish world. Of course it's love. Y/N: If love was this easy wouldn't we all find it ? If those feelings were easy to come by we would all feel it. Them: Why are you so sure these feelings are made up from a fictitious love? Y/N: because I’ve never felt such love. Not for you, family , or myself. Them: Oh!! I see you thought this love was temporary. This is not a platonic love or familial love; this is a love that will last long after the world has fallen into nothingness and collapsed from selfishness. This love is the love that lasts way beyond those that reach for the stars. To feel this kind of love they will have to reach past the love they feel for themselves. Y/N:You see I've never experienced the love you speak of. A love that is so full and complete that others are envious of. A love that makes you feel as if you can achieve anything. A love created for only you and possibly I.

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Is it possible to miss someone that stands beside you

The cries you hope to ease the pain but make it only bearable

The hurt you try to tuck away

For your heart just to remind you

I'll dress the wounds when no ones around

Embrace the pain where it can't be found

To hide the hurt that finds no home

From the numbness the bottle brings me

I'll try to drink away the pain when all it does is hurt me

Yet, to no compare the pain it brings

to stand beside someone that can't love you.

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Promised.

You promised you wouldn't leave me But that was just a lie You promised you’d stay As I watched the life leave from your eyes You promised you wouldn't leave Yet, when GOD called you answered So, the promise you made was just a lie I believed all your promises even when I knew they were lies So, I’ll smile through the tears And laugh through the pain Because you promised you wouldn't leave me Even though I knew it was all a lie.

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To my sweetest spring love,

Though it was only momentary

I am blessed to have been able to experience a love such as ours

Experience a love that never aches

A love that won't ever cease to forgotten memories

A love that one can't help but get lost in and embrace

With you insecurities are nonexistent

And this love will remain endless

So, to the sweetest of my spring loves

You'll be forever trapped in my mind

Roaming aimlessly in my heart

Never ceasing to the idea of forgotten love.

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If Love was as easy as choosing forever

Maybe we would have never gotten lost or

At least stayed by each other

A perfect love only Fate could sew together

Maybe If love was a choice I'd be happier

Better

Whole

Fortunately unfortunate that Love isn't a choice

Fortunate you can move on and find someone better

Unfortunate that I wont be the one you find

Yet, just maybe if love was a choice

Your heart that's written for another would be written for me too. 

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In your arms for the first time I realized I just wanted to be held

To have the pain soak away and the added ache to dissipate

Arms that would have protected the young and now the old me

To feed my soul and make me elevate

A love that can melt much more than just past heartache

A love that fights for me to be in their eternity

A love that is just.

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Eternity

I've waited desperately at the end of the world for you.

I told you I'd wait to be consumed by you

We said we would meet at the winters sun set

Waited an eternity to no avail did I see you

I refuse to believe the heavens would keep me from you

I can sense you're waiting for me too.

I now race to each corner of the earth looking for the lost love I once found

We promised in the next life we'll finally be happy,

Grasps onto the Idea of love and make it a reality

Time that has now lost its meaning

yet this time I feel as if I will find you

The love I refuse to let end in such a tragedy

I promise I will find you

Even if it takes another heart-wrenching eternity.

Photo credits~ from Pinterest  i.etsystatic.com

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Winters Sunset

When the winter’s sun sets

I’ll be waiting at the ends of the world

To be consumed by you

Though we said our goodbyes

In another life we’ll grasp onto the idea of love

And make it reality

When the winter’s sun sets

we’ll finally be happy

In our last goodbye

I could taste the end of our love

But I refuse to let our love end in such a tragedy

So when the winter’s sun sets

I'll still be waiting desperately

At the ends of the world

For you.

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Looking at the beauty of it all A Gorgeous reflection as I soak away the pain Leaving the ache behind, the reality I run from The truth in which I do not seek A perfectly imperfect reflection of a now distorted me.

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Your presence lights up when your near me

Your smile sparkles like christmas lights 

I look in your eyes and see forever 

A world where only you and I exist

I’m sorry

I'm sorry that when you look back you see the end

The end of our love 

The end of what your heart told you would last forever 

The end of what I told you would last forever 

Yet you still remain jubilant when you see me

I know you see the story my eyes tell

The story of how we fell out of love 

Or should I say 

I

For a long time I wondered why you ignored it 

Then I finally noticed 

Your light has dimmed 

Though your smile still lingers 

The forever that once lived in your eyes have now vanished 

Filled with tears soon to overflow

I realize now that when you looked back 

You always knew you didn't see forever

Too scared to say goodbye

So you smiled with tears in your eyes

I'm sorry I couldn't remain your one and only love 

I'm sorry I couldn't see that you saw right through me

I'm sorry I never experienced the world where only you and I existed

I'm sorry for never having my smile resemble christmas lights 

I'm sorry you never got the chance to see forever in my eyes

I'm sorry that im sorry

I'm sorry that I keep saying sorry 

So I’ll say goodbye after this last sorry

I am 

Truly 

Sorry.

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Words are to paper 

As tears are to the eyes.

Pain is to the heart

As love is to the soul.

Both infatuated with the other

Non-existent without each other.

Poems will cry for those that do not cry for themselves,

To tell the untold stories of the heart

To give courage to cowardly

And love to those that are unwanted.

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This side of me.

Soaking in the sound of loneliness that makes me feel free The piercing sound or maybe just the fall of me The trees that keep me company Seem to be the only ones that truly believe me A silent mystery of how this came to be A child deep down inside hiding from the reality That this loneliness is starting to slowly chip away at me.

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Winters feel in a summers bliss

photo credit: the night bakery by kaoru yamada

Today I stumbled across a painting that remind me of you Winters feel without the snow A summers bliss that began to glow The smell of the freshly baked bread you always craved The long strolls coupled with the endless talks the moon secretly listened to As I watched the sparkle in your eyes battle the starlit nights that never dimmed Sweetly singing memories that I can't stop listening to Will always push me to remember every bit as to why I fell in love with you, Thinking this painting had left me speechless Yet here I sit writing this letter To you.