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(this will be a mizuki themed and acting account, meaning some posts may be done acting as mizuki!)

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I'm thinking of deleting this account

there's nothing really left for me to say on here

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Licks your blog**

AAAAAA TY

I will lock yours back :3

mlem mlem :3

being mentally ill and self aware at the same time is so painful like

what do you mean I know my behaviors aren't healthy or stable in any way and will cause me damage and pain in the end

but as soon as I start spiraling, and feeling so out of control my body and mind during that, there is nothing that can stop me or save me from the absolute episode im going to have

I love it when my lover gives me attention

like

me?

this one right here?

you love me so much you put in effort to talk to me and love me for who I am? after everything? you love my interests, music and thoughts?

oh em gee I'm gonna cry i love him so much

I'm going to slam my head in oh my god why can't I help anyone. I try to make everyone I love happy and I end up failing and I feel useless. I'm so useless. I know its not my job to fix other people but I just want to help why can't I do anything

hey sorry for weirding you out I wasn't properly socialized as a kid and when I tried to put myself out there I got made fun of my interests and who I was as a person in personality and just breathing as a human being so i ended up hiding away and never talking to anyone out of the fear of being judged. no I just can't talk normally

so do you still want to be freinds?

wow I am extremely depressed and have rapid mood swings that are definitely not normal, I feel like one day in going to actually do it and disappear, but I'm too scared and just turn towards cvtting instead. I really wish I had someone to talk to and they would listen.

anyways! I cant bother anyone because all ill do is annoy them and burden them because I'm just a dumb asshole who should just die already!!!!