blushessandbookss

A miscellany of thoughts and things felt too deeply.

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

“He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

~Friedrich Nietzsche

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

When you're trying to be all strong

A small twitch of your lips

Chin slightly lifted

Shoulders relaxed

Almost authoritative,

Commanding

Walking like you just own it

Like you don't fear

But deep down

You think like a martyr

Like someone who's all lovelorn

Gone through a war

Where the heart didn't survive

Like a star that collapsed

You pretend that you're strong

But beneath the steady steps

There's a hurricane of emotions

A whirlwind of them

Pushing you to an extent

You don't know how to step back from

When the weight of everything

Presses against your ribs

Rest if you must

But don't you lose yourself

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

Unfortunate

The love she gave to her prince

Was incomparable

Impossible

It was from the very bottom of her heart

No one could ever love anyone like that

Or, perhaps, him

Since then

For her

Blue became the colour of love

Today,

When she remembers

Those meticulous, naive, efforts

Which were never acknowledged

Everything went in vain

She wishes the little naive girl

Would receive even two-third of the love

Which she gave to her prince

~Soumya<3

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

“He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

~Friedrich Nietzsche

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

When you're trying to be all strong

A small twitch of your lips

Chin slightly lifted

Shoulders relaxed

Almost authoritative,

Commanding

Walking like you just own it

Like you don't fear

But deep down

You think like a martyr

Like someone who's all lovelorn

Gone through a war

Where the heart didn't survive

Like a star that collapsed

You pretend that you're strong

But beneath the steady steps

There's a hurricane of emotions

A whirlwind of them

Pushing you to an extent

You don't know how to step back from

When the weight of everything

Presses against your ribs

Rest if you must

But don't you lose yourself

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

When you're trying to be all strong

A small twitch of your lips

Chin slightly lifted

Shoulders relaxed

Almost authoritative,

Commanding

Walking like you just own it

Like you don't fear

But deep down

You think like a martyr

Like someone who's all lovelorn

Gone through a war

Where the heart didn't survive

Like a star that collapsed

You pretend that you're strong

But beneath the steady steps

There's a hurricane of emotions

A whirlwind of them

Pushing you to an extent

You don't know how to step back from

When the weight of everything

Presses against your ribs

Rest if you must

But don't you lose yourself

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

“He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

~Friedrich Nietzsche

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

Unfortunate

The love she gave to her prince

Was incomparable

Impossible

It was from the very bottom of her heart

No one could ever love anyone like that

Or, perhaps, him

Since then

For her

Blue became the colour of love

Today,

When she remembers

Those meticulous, naive, efforts

Which were never acknowledged

Everything went in vain

She wishes the little naive girl

Would receive even two-third of the love

Which she gave to her prince

~Soumya<3

[blushessandbookssssss]

“He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

~Friedrich Nietzsche

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

When

When harsh thorn like words

Stab my chest

I just smile

In shame

In ambiguity

In an unspoken pain

And my heart feels like it broke with a quiet yet loud thud

While there's a storm brewing in my chest

The words and bile

Trapped in my throat

Like a thorny vine

Wrapped around my neck

I want to speak

Stand for myself

But I just can't

The words don't come out

Like a beast within me

Having a firm, almost painful hold on my throat

My eyes get welled

Like a river without embankments

I don't let them flow

But behind the curtains

They get uncontrolled

They flow and flow

And they won't stop

Till I'm done questioning

My own existence

~Soumya

[blushessandbookssssss]

Adolescence

It is often whimsical

A period of growth,

Both mental and physical,

A time of realisation,

A step toward self-determination,

When life kicks into gear

As we navigate the path that draws near.

When friends become vital

For our very survival

Some are fleeting and fake,

Some like guardian angels in our wake,

A quest for memories to make.

But amidst joy, there can be pain,

Within a kaleidoscopic brain,

Where emotions run unbridled,

And a mere failure seems to be the end

Where we unknowingly unravel,

Perplexed and overwhelmed,

By emotions that endlessly revolve.

Yet through it all, we evolve.

Where tender hearts learn to break

Like a flower that first blooms ecstaticly

Then falls apart with a silent yet loud thud.

Where love unknowingly blooms

Then quietly breaks.

Where we taste love's first bittersweet goodbye.

With raging hormones and a restless mind

Adolescence is a quest to find

Who we are and who we owe to become

For this is a journey to maturity.

Adolescence is a quest of life

With multiple narrow alleys

It's upto the volatile brain of adolescents

Which path to chose

We often get misguided

For life is a journey

With myriad challenges

And multitudinous lessons

We must learn to rise

And find redemption within.

Adolescence is a period

Quietly woven with different emotions

Happiness, sorrow, redemption, care, disarray, enthusiasm, and desolation.

For its a time to thrive

Embrace it as much as you can

And embark on this period of life

As one day, you may long for it again

~SOUMYA