♡Digital Diary♡

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[blushpuppies]

Blush Puppies 🐶

The very public diary of a landmine girl

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About me

19 years old

Star sign: Libra

She/Her

Language: English

Country: USA

MBTI: INFP

Interests

Anime

Manga/Graphic novels/ Webcomics

Girly-kei/Dark girly

Menhera

Sanrio

Horror games

Visual novels

Mental health

Official diagnoses:

Major depression

Anxiety with OCD tendencies

Bipolar ii

Trigger warnings

Self harm

Drug use

Body image

NSFW content

Intrusive thoughts

DMS open

Stats

Height: 5'5/165cm

Hw: 260lb/118kg

Lw: 130lb/59kg

Sw:245lb/111kg

Cw: 240lb/108kg

Gw 1: 200lb/90kg

Gw 2: 180lb/81kg

Gw 3: 160lb/72kg

Ugw: 120lb/55kg

[blushpuppies]

If you were gonna k!ll y♡urs3lf what song would you play?

[blushpuppies]

Does anyone else feel <---(keynote FEEL this is not true) like a fake jirai for recovering from $# and dr♡g addiction ect. I'm far into recovery and haven't done $# in a long time (not sure how long) and I'm almost 2 years sober from w33d. I am currently struggling with abusing prescription dr♡gs (which unfortunately makes me feel more valid) but still recovery makes me feel like such a poser

[blushpuppies]

Women and other non masculine presenting people- do you think that if you were a man/masc you would still want to be thin?

?

yes

no

other (explain)

Voting ended onJun 26

[whimsweed]

[blushpuppies]

I went out in jirai kei with my friend today. Even as a beginner in a basic coord with clip-on bangs, she looked so much better than me. She has big eyes and a tall nose and is all around beautiful and thin. I'm jealous. I hate having pretty friends. I wish I could see myself as beautiful as I see her. Why can't I look as good in the style I dedicate so much time and money into...

[imlostbutitsokay]

Maintaining is better than gaining..

Maintaining is better than gaining..

Maintaining is better than gaining..

Maintaining is better than gaining..

Maintaining is better than gaining..

Maintaining is better than gaining..

[thevo1dosphere]

[caffeinatedneet]

[hanah898]

I want to be skinnier than my friend

[blushpuppies]

I wonder if gooning burns calories...

[blushpuppies]

I stayed up all night gooning an just got one of the worst headaches of my life I want to die. I took a shower and ate a yogurt and drank both warm and cold water. It hurts so bad help me

[blushpuppies]

Go until your thigh highs fall off instead of roll down

(Image from pintrest, not mine)

[blushpuppies]

"Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"

Obviously you haven't eaten in-n-out

My downfall

But it's okay cause that's the only thing I ate today for my OMAD 👍

[blushpuppies]

Let's fucking go

[blushpuppies]

Current dinner plan:

Sleep, antidepressants

[sailatina3]