A little bit of a pick me
I had to go 17 days with little to no male contact because I need to fucking stand up lmaooooo. I started feeling this olddddd ass man. He's literally 40. Like a whole 15 years older than me like wtf is even going on here?!?!?! And whyyy on the day that i break that fast i immediately text him and he responded girl. Not only did he respond, he facetimed me to see my face. Ughhhh. And I'm typing all this with a stank face because seriously WTF. Oh and I also cooked for my "brother" who I have a slight crush on. Girllll I need to stand up. Mr.40 can't get me my ranch and cattle so what am I even doing? He's just fine a lil bit. See that's what I need to do. I need to actually talk tohim about what he feels about his future with his wife. Like do you want land and cattle, because I want him to take care of the cattle frfr. I just wanna raise the kids and cook, spend money, and decorate the home. But this time I know I wont be overly going for him. I cant let loose a little bit because im actually cool with being single for the rest of my life, but i know the Lord knows I want a child and husband so he'll give it to me, but in this time I'm focused on the brushes. Makeup brushes.













