Another year on this earth, time for a new pinned post.
My name is Nova, or Ella-Vee (He/they), I am a 30 year old, AuDHD, genderqueer individual living in Staffordshire UK.
This is a personal blog, expect personal interests, expect personal shit, I hide my heart IRL due to past trauma so this is my way of having a space to wear my heart upon my sleeve, I don't do online personas or roll playing and I cannot act to save my life, so what you see is what you get.
Forwarning, I struggle with correctly tagging my posts, part of it is executive dysfunction, if you subscribe to spoon theory then for me it feels like tagging requires a separate spoon to reblogging, part of it is drawing a blank on tags, but part of it is just laziness on my part. I will at least try to tag things that other people would seek to exclude from their feed, but I may need some prompting from time to time. I apologize in advance for any distress caused.
The primary interests this blog will focus on are, in descending order: Warhammer 40k, focused upon the iron warriors, with occasional memes from other tangentally relevant sci-fi, grim dark, and fantasy settings, Bionicle, scale modelling, astronomy and space, railways in all their forms, and industrial history, especially relating to my local area.
I may occasionally reblog NSFW related to the above, which will be tagged, however as a rule I don't sexualise my interests, the main exception to this is suggestive/NSFW content that I find funny.
My music tastes are are: Rock and Metal on the more melodic end of the spectrum, rap, DnB, rave, house & chill house, in fact I'm generally chill with most music, although the nature of my neurodivergene means I oftenstruggle to find new songs and artists that actually become my favourites, my tastes are so inconsistently vibes-based that I cannot accurately predict whether I will actually click with a song or artist, even when I should, regardless, I'm willing to give most things a listen that isn't downright offensive in nature.
My favorite Warhammer books are The Night Lords trilogy, The Infinite & The Divine, The Twice Dead King, The Night Lords Trilogy. The Night Lords Trilogy, and sundry short stories from The Horus Heresy, particularly Aonid Thiel's saga and Iron Coprses.
My favourite non-Warhammer books are: Dungeon Crawler Carl, The memoirs of Lady Trent, and the Dragon Mage (trying to get back into that one).
favourite movies: The Lord of The Rings, Transformers: ONE, and the AvP cinematic universe.
Extra personal/political shit contained below:
A forewarning, I struggle greatly with my mental health in a number of ways, I was abused heavily at school, and then I was abused by my mother, and I do not hide it, I choose to be frank and blunt with the realities of who I am as a person.
I did not have a single friend until I was 18, in fact I was pretty much loathed by most people that met me, looking back in part for my own fault. This combined with issues relating to past relationships means I don't have any self-esteem, confidence, nor a positive image of myself.
As such I generally do not respond well to compliments or well meaning sentiments relating to me personally, when I get sent asks of that nature it tends to make me spiral even worse because it runs so counter to what I was told for so long that it just hurts to hear because it feels like being lied to. For this reason I would appreciate if people held off from sending me asks trying to up lift me, I know you probably think it helps, but at this moment in time it doesn't, I'm not currently in the headspace to appreciate such compliments without throwing them straight back in your face.
I am not suicidal, I have no desire to harm myself, so that is no risk anyone needs to worry about with me, but I go through cycles of deep self loathing. I just feel my depression and trauma very deeply and that spills over. Take anything tagged #vent as a means to get these thoughts out of my head, even if for a short while.
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Here's the shit that really I'm not proud of; in the early 2010s I dipped into and then sharply backed out of the right wing pipe line in 2016, and at the time I voted in ways and held beliefs that I look back on now and I'm fucking ashamed of. The short of it is Brexit happened here, and Trump happened in the state, and that was enough to knock me into my senses and start straightening myself out. I make no excuses for my past, I was a fucking moron who allowed ignorance, fear, and shame of my then repressed sexuality & gender to get the better of me.
what matters about my beliefs today is that I try to hold myself to firmly progressive, Self deterministic (one example being highly supportive of the restoration and expansion of teaching the native languages of these Isles, Keslowena Kernow!), pro-queer, pro-immigrant, anti-authoritarian ideals. I try to listen and learn, and I am prepared to fuck up and fail many times over to heave myself up out of the quagmire of ignorance and into something approaching respectability.
I do not claim to be a perfect with a spotless past, and I recognize that even now with all my life experience to guide me I can always fuck up in entirely new ways. I make no excuse for any problematic actions, take this more as a preemptive apology when I'm being a stupid bastard and feel free to give me a slap.
I'm white & English, sorry about that but, I didn't have a choice in my race or country of birth. Rest assured as a queer person living in this country I hold no love for Westminster. I identify with the county I currently reside in more than the nation, if I make a post tagged "#British for the bit" accompanied by this then it's a joke and a generally disparaging remark about my country.
free use is kind of a funny kink bc it relies on the idea that everybody wants to touch you and have sex with you but what if they don't. what if you tell everybody at the party you're free use but they all ignore you and mind their own business
🦾🐍You guys didn't Like the Last baby sitter I left here taking care of you, so I've got another one. I Am sure he ain't scheeming or planning anything Evil whatever. And he 40.000% isn't Alpharius.
Oh and he has a snake demon living on his weird fake arm and a witch friend.
Solomon Akurra, Great Chaos Lord of the Serpent's Teeth, Harrowmaster of the Ghost Legion, High Lord of the New Alliance, new user of The Pale Spear, etc etc, thats a Very Fancy way of saying 'Chapter Master' who united his hydra brothers, the guy with The coolest dreadlocks that... WAIT, how does your helmet work again???
Why is there so little fanart of his books??? Also we need more Snake Daemons and Tulava Dyne, just, in general. Every big evil man has a little slightly mean woman who saves them from stuff it seems.
Also, bleep.
These are, as usual, 2625x3500 digital illustrations, and I used the Harrowmaster book covers as reference for Sol and Tuva, Because TUVA IS ON THE COVER THIS TIME AH— I DID add somethings, as Always, weird placed ports, Because... Alpharius. And Golden, because... Black. And since he has 200 years of service, 2 piercings, since he doesn't like tradicional studs very much. His arm IS The most complicated thing, since ITS a... Biomechanical Daemon infested tendrils skeleton blade thing. Very weird to EVEN imagine, but very Generator Rex in How It works.
Never piss off a Noise Marine enough to write a diss track about you, if it's catchy you're gonna hear corpse-worshippers explode to a bar about how big your forehead is for at least 30 years and you're never gonna recover from it
you have this mysterious fish that no one really cared about, because everyone assumed they’d gone extinct with the dinosaurs. an interesting footnote, but one of many, many fossil species.
and later the coelacanth gets some fame as a so-called “missing link” species, a theory which is now outdated (and not accurate for coelacanths) but was really influential at the time. because they have some weird biological quirks – bones in fins! – people were like “oh, they must be a missing link.” so the coelacanth was launched into some fame with the theory of evolution. it got brought up a lot. drawn in old textbooks as proof.
and then a fisherman finds a weird fish off the coast of south africa and calls a local fish expert who had let it be known she was interested in weird finds, and he brings her the (unfortunately badly rotted) corpse and she’s like “well, this is sure weird,” and sends off the bones to other experts, who start to quietly freak out, and rush to south africa, and rewards are offered for another one, any other one, and a few years later one is caught and frozen before rotting.
and it’s this incredible discovery, this extinct creature come to life (the prehistoric coelacanth lived in swamps and marshes in south america; these now are deep ocean fish in and around the indian ocean, but it’s still recognizably the same species)!
but it’s also blue.
not like, muddy blue, or tumblr-default-background blue.
proper shimmering sapphire blue and white. almost turquoise in some lights. this like… muddy, fossil creature. always drawn in dinosaur browns and grays. and it’s alive and it’s blue. just imagine being the scientist who opened that crate to this creature for the first time. you’re already excited, you’ve known about this fish for decades, you thought it was a story, you know it’s in this box. you expect to see the weird fins and the strange tail. you know it’s large and odd looking. and you open it up and it’s this beautiful, shining blue, you know?
Can a Zoanthrope or Neurothrope be possessed by a daemon, since they are psykers?
They aren't conventional psykers, they're psychic conduits for the Hive Mind. To possess a Tyranid, the daemon would have to overpower its link to the Hive Mind, and the Hive Mind itself. Best of luck to that daemon.
Tyranid bioforms can become physically corrupted by chaos, especially if separated out from the Hive Mind, but possessing them and/or converting them to chaos isn't terribly possible. We have seen bioforms corrupted by the obliterator virus, by random warp growths, by prolonged warp exposure, but still ultimately behaving like Tyranids. Even the enslaved, obliterator-infected bio-ship was just that; enslaved to perform a function. There are exceptions to every rule in 40k, of course, but y'know. Generally speaking.
friend is trying to sell her car bc shes moving to a state with vehicle inspections and her prius lives in defiance of god. anyway so shes cleaning it out at my apartment complex bc we have dumpsters and her roommate forgot to pay the trash bill. i will be liveblogging my experience watching her do this and you will understand why i refuse to help her
guys theres a pile of chicken bones down there from wingstop im so scared
AND i hear "hey dude can i use ur washing machine real quick" and she pulls out a pair of pants from, i shit you not, 1940 and theyre moldified into a SOLID. those pants survived a war and couldnt last a year in her fucking shitbox istfg
i swear to god im not exaggerating here. anyway heres an incomplete list of everything we found inside:
-axe (stolen)
-earrings made out of dentures
-flavored condoms
-a quilt
-hello kitty sweater (stolen from a DIFFERENT ex-friend with a felony charge)
-deer spine
-baseball sized wad of human hair
-""sex apron""
-uranium glass plate
-pile of non-uranium non-car glass
-rollerblades
-complete phantom of the opera cd set
-magic the gathering cards mold-ified into a brick
-lego millennium falcon
-a CUTLASS??? (for "self defense")
-the back bumper of the car
-an entire fucking ant colony
and finally, perhaps the most disturbing,
-a pack of vanilla wax melts, inexplicably unmelted and intact despite sitting inside this terrarium-with-a-prius-wrapped-around-it in 100 degree heat for god knows how long
i must stress: before today she DID NOT KNOW about the ant colony in there . she thought ants just really liked to climb inside anytime the car was parked.
bringing this post back bc i found a video of her offering me the phantom cd set and i said no because the box was coated in a syrupy mat of human hair and she was confused because "we know whos hair it is" ???? as if the origin of the hair was the only fucking holdup
