Thoughts

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[bonsthoughts]

Lifted Poem

 Every inhaled breath I take is proof I am lucky to be alive. 

I have my moments where anxiety takes over. I can’t  think straight and my heart races  100 miles per hours. 

Heavy Weight on my chest and I become helpless. Help! (sigh)

I scream but no one can hear me, because I don’t know how to ask for help. 

 It is unintentional self Sabotage. 

If I could describe myself.  I’d say I’m a scary cat, invisible, and loves way too much. 

The motto is look down, be silent and move forward. Yes! Wrong!

In moments of darkness, my mind wanders like a lost traveler, retracing every step of past conversations and blaming myself for being me. I dissect and cut every imperfection with the greatest precision a neurosurgeon could only dream of. I become my worst critic. 

In the depths of my doubts, I find strength to rise above. 

I pause take a breath because, I am also intuitive of my feelings and suddenly I change my perspective. 

I Take a second breath and say to myself. I am loved for who I am. The people I cherish the most are the ones who, without hesitation, would choose me. The anxiety fades away and I feel whole again. 

cr. Original by Me

[bonsthoughts]

If I could erase your way of thinking I would erase it in a flash. I would lose and not win anything from it . Losing that straightforwardness and honest personality . I feel locked , trapped carying a sack full of weights. I fight and i feel out of breath. My heart races and you lose your mind. Just accept the help momma. You are closed minded leaving no room for optimism. Frustrated when i see you loose it . The more i see myself losing it as well. Mom please let me help.

[bonsthoughts]

I see Joy ,and I see love. The girl who looks like she owns the world with her head up high. Her feet straight and tall . The world is hers and she owns it. Great joy , a big heart , and shares it all with the one she loves. Girl don't change. Spread your love , live life and when the world tries to look you down stare it in the face and show it you are not one to be messed with, because you are not alone. Your eyes will show your strength, and your mouth will show your power. I see Joy , and I see love.

[bonsthoughts]

Life is but a thread just waiting to get cut short, get old and breakdown. In every step of the way never be afraid to make a wrong turn, with every turn make a purpose. No turn is the right turn. If one door closes there are more doors that will open not all doors are great. Doors will close right in your face but don’t give up. Work for what you want and never let go even if you feel like giving up. If you feel like giving up think of the this what tinkerbell told to Peter Pan,”The moment you doubt whether you can fly, you cease for ever to be able to do it.” “So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!”

[bonsthoughts]

Why?

Having anxiety over feeling loved and appreciated but I feel empty and bottom shelf.

[lovemakesyouwonder]

[deceptivelips]

(18+)

[bonsthoughts]

Living with a bipolar schizophrenic mother is hard some days she tells me she can't stand looking at me or that she wants me gone,and right after all that she tells me she loves me.

[bonsthoughts]

if I push you away don't leave, hold me tight and never let go. I want to be alone but I don't want to feel like I'm alone.

[bonsthoughts]

Always remember to be happy because you never know who's falling in love with your smile. ♥

-unknown

[bonsthoughts]

Sometimes I bite my tongue and I don't speak what is on my mind, instead I say what they want to hear.

[moonlitpoems]

when someone with anxiety asks ‘do you love me?’ ‘are you sure?’ don’t get angry.  we’re trying hard, but sometimes we need reassurance.  we feel like no one likes us sometimes. deep down, we know it’s silly.  but that doesn’t stop us. we’re still learning. be patient.

j.e.b. ((about a girl with anxiety that thinks everyone hates her.))

[bonsthoughts]

For every breath I take a flower dies and this earth has no room for my dream and goals

[c0ntemplations]

how do people go home and remain in their going out clothes the moment i’m home it’s like hello ugly betty mode

[inspirinquotes]

[bonsthoughts]

Truth

[youarean-ocean]

[bonsthoughts]

I'm definitely a city girl I miss my south bay I'm currently in big Sur, Cali

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[ghostdog07]

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

[j-aws]

yay its back.

[moondoll]

so… I half jokingly reblogged this yesterday cos I thought it was a nice picture… and was like oh wow I only get wishes on birthdays what would I wish for?!?!?! how about gainful employment L0L … and like… I have a job now? That I never applied for? That someone just called me up and said “here, have this”? In a place I really really like? So like… h8ers gonna h8 or something

[bonsthoughts]

I suddenly do not feel lost and anxious. i have a purpose and everyday I'm changing my negative thoughts into something positive