I'm crazy boo YOU!

I is tall, by many standards, and grateful for it. A tiny bit of a grammar nazi. Hence the 'I is tall.' Dont know if that makes sense Wishes for travel and exposure with concern to pretty much everything. Interests are constantly changing. Tell me if you read this, or even this blog, it'd be nice to hear from you. If you're someone I already know, and you send me an Anon, I dont think that's very nice of you. Kayy, Thunks, Buuuuiii. =D

[booyouimcrazy]

Greetings great soul. I read your name and felt a Strong Energy and connection your spiritual energy ,that you on the right part. But the problem is that you have a spiritual limitation on your life and destiny which was put on you by someone close to you out of envy and jealousy and make sure you can't excel more than what you are right now, I know you trying to love your life and Be grateful for everything but we both know that you know you are made for much more.

Sis I have a serious message for you concerning yourself and a strange vibe around your love life and career

I have alot to tell you message me privately hit me up asap I am waiting rn 🧘‍♀️🍀🧘‍♀️

Okay?

[booyouimcrazy]

Hi, Tay!

Turns out getting in touch with you is a fairly tight ideal, and I have been underestimating it for the last few years of my life. I beg pardon, the last time I got in touch was when you still had a message option on your Youtube and made vlogs on tour. So, at best, it's been a minute. I've been meaning to get in touch with you for a loooooong, hot second, parasocial or not, it feels like we were kindred spirits, and still are, but you evolved a helluva lot quicker than I did. I'm catching up, though, it's happening! For the last few years I've been meaning to get in touch just to write you fanmail and to sorta become your friend, if you'll have me, ofc, but recently this itch has changed. There's been an idea I think you would thoroughly appreciate and want to enable happening. But I both feel like letting the idea out into the world means that it will be everybody's and also nobody's. Which, I, do not want. And neither will you when you hear it. I'm talking the longest shot I can in the dark to see if there's the remotest chance you may read this and give me an e-mail to get in touch with you with. Outside of that, it'll be hard to ignore me cause i'm hunting down Tree & Robert's email IDs too. It's just tooo good an idea to pass-up imo. Okay, much love, from another 5'11" girlie, that was inspired by you to want to be that height when she was 4 inches shorter, I send you the greatest of love, the warmest of love and the kindest of fellowship. Warmly & forever, N @taylorswift tis for you 🫠🙃

[booyouimcrazy]

Babyboy FoxHeera

that's what his name is now.

Heera cause honestly the poster looks like he's a heera of the Taj Mahal only.

Babyboy cause is he NOT Babyboy?????

ofc he is.

look at that cutie face.

i cannot wait to make him his tour shirts, just specially. for him.

and i simply do not know how to get his measurements without giving away that I'm making him a shirt.

Cause I mean......

MY love language is making things, it doesn't have to be his.

and also cause ..... wow, he ..... I mean, idk, he could very well just choose to not be, but 2 years later, he still wants to meet me?

I mean, not that I'm not meetable 2 years later, but the man has sussed out if I'm single or not.

And then jumped at the opportunity that I am not.

Gyats to give him credit for that.

[spider-mann]

Anthony Mackie gives a shoutout to Sebastian Stan at the Golden Globes

[booyouimcrazy]

For every single day of the last two years or more I have thought about how teenage Nicaia once wrote a long personalised DM to @taylorswift way back on YouTube once, when we could i.e.

And how much I've wanted to write her a letter SINCE.

AND ALSO that child teenage nix really thought that a good way to make friends w celebrities (honestly I really just wanted to be their friend for selfish reasons - to be able to ask them all my Qs) by writing them handwritten letters.

Maybe 2025 is that year 🤷🏻‍♀️

[booyouimcrazy]

woke up, broke up, now i'm waiting to smoke up.

[booyouimcrazy]

and I cry,

tears streaming down my face,

as I lie, curtains drawn

eyes out of sight,

"I can't embrace,

The feeling of you.

it feels too distant, to be true"

your words have spoke no amend.

I keep revolting myself,

hiding my face,

enjoying myself,

in lonely disgrace.

sheets drawn, long worn,

rose thorns for a monthly war.

you can't escape,

this feeling then,

if embrace escapes,

your pretty face.

[booyouimcrazy]

tonight

I lie in my bed,

tears streaming down my face,

because what I want I will never get.

but if I settle is this the best I'll ever have,

or is this the minimalist life I signed up to?

if acts of service aren't your joy,

how will mine ever be achieved?

if love and affection is only physically possible for you,

how do we keep this on,

and call this love?

is the rest of my life tied to me feeling like trash the 10 days before I get my period anytime you're not around and I don't feel special, because it's not your style?????

are relationships just one person liking another person's style and them both learning to adapt to what their other might or might not like?

cause I don't see us doing that.

You feel like a lesson.

you don't feel like forever.

and that scares me.

It scarese how r

[booyouimcrazy]

It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

It's been a long time coming, but ....

It's you & me, that's my whole world.

[maryoliveoil]

TAYLOR SWIFT | Saturday Night Live 2021 Source requested anonymity

[booyouimcrazy]

Oh, how I love this woman

[booyouimcrazy]

lover

how strange is it

to miss the body of the one you love,

when you have never held it.

how strange is it

that life has construed

for you to think to end it.

how strange is it

that your being has never felt love like this

so mended.

life w you my love,

I'd really like to spend it.

I write this from my bed on the floor at Sanams house, tears streaming down my face, completely thrown by the fact that we now both will be struggling to pay rent to have our own houses.

and yet, this is do or die for me, and life has been absolute chaos, of the goa upset and endless days of crying because I lost the house happened this year, and man does it still hurt like a motherfucker.

but hearing you say bambolim has me in love assuredly, as if I had even a smidgen of a doubt.

i cannot wait to lay my eyes on you, but they might take a second, because they just might be well up & full of tears from the reality of seeing you.

touching your skin is made of my daydreams and nightmares altogether at the same time.

I love you, puppykins

I love you, mi amor 💙

[tomcruisecells]

they should stop making musician biopics made by gen x men and let millennial women who have been writing band rpf for decades get in there and let go of "accurately" "historically" depicting anything

[booyouimcrazy]

yes please!

[booyouimcrazy]

Imprints

something about life, that marks you in ways. simple but long-lasting. could be a word, could be a string, could be a sentence. but the moment you use it, you're back to – the person, that memory, the emotion. life is but a list of endless strings of your marks. whether you call them bruises and glorify them, to be remembered in vehement anger, or in glorious embers of warmth. the latter begets forgetting, and the former, forever. choose wise.

[booyouimcrazy]

(thoughts on being cherished by my puppykins)

Gimme a date, gimme a time, gimme something to live by

[booyouimcrazy]

2024 - 01.01

Woke up slightly okay this morning, because I went to sleep last night quite mad at babybuns.

At the stroke of midnight he was out w Nitzan & Tomer & Dor, and before that he napped cause he was v tired before he even thought of leaving.

Luckily enough, when I ended up walking the dogs was also coincidentally about 12 minutes to NY, and then v quickly about 2 minutes to NY. By which point I'd obviously called him up to wish him for MY New Year's, after i spent the day already wishing him the last day of the year, etc.

And he chose to keep his light off, and so I got mad that he didn't even think of turning his light on when it had stroked midnight here. I'd said it was so when it did turn 2024.

Proceeding to get p fucking mad at him. Except that wasn't the end of it, then started the fireworks, so Twiggy jumped out the park gate, Snowy followed her through the fence and Brandy stayed who I asked to follow me home, except she ran off too.

Fireworks are scary for Twiggs, so I was scared for her, also cause she's run away before, even though now she is far more comfortable than she used to be on walks leashless.

So i had to disconnect this stupid call to chase them, but I was so mad I did it happily.

Then got home and was just frazzled from looking for them, had to hunt them down one at a time. Brandy first from the back, then Snowy in the front, who'd followed Collar to the Chowkidar, and who also said he saw Twiggy run off towards the road. 👀☠️☠️☠️☠️

Dada was still up, but Mama was exhausted and went to bed, understandably. Niren had just come home.

Boyfriend was now soon heading out, and said he'd text from the car and/or place he got to. Proceeded to .... not. cause I got home and called him back, and i was just not interacting much, and on the verge of tears, and he just changed and left.

This was 1am, and his midnight was my 3.30-something, and I said I'm gonna go read and likely fall asleep. He proceeded to get tipsy, I still got no texts until I texted like 15 minutes to midnight, and then got a barrage of food photos and such, but like nothing to make me feel missed or anything at midnight on new years eve.

And then I texted him cute shit, wished him, and fell asleep p quick after.

His excuse is sirens started and they had to evac before things were chill again, except half an hour later he was home. And he was drunk this whole time, as per his standards, mind you.

And i just felt v unwanted, unmissed, unloved in all of it.

Last thing I wanted was to start another year feeling like that, but guess not.

Hopefully fixes itself 🤞🏼🤞🏼

My minds only been thinking, "this ain't going to last the year" but there's no way I'm giving up on this before we get to lay hands on each other. I love this man, and I loved him in 3 weeks, I'm not giving that up cause he's going through a depression?

But yeah, Day 01.

Let's see how I long i Tumblr this year.

Ly, can't wait for this year. 🤞🏼

To, 2024. 🥂

[booyouimcrazy]

I sit here wondering,

when the next time I'll hear your voice will be.

sober and stumbling,

catch my wonder in a whim.

find my heartstring,

tugged by your voice through the ethos.

a sound clash,

louder than lightning, wrapped up in spring.

the melting of icecream,

against the warmth of a fire.

louder than the taste,

of a smore on a pyre.

burning through chaos,

the match madness of desire.

i hope to hold you,

abate my desire.

love you to my heart's desire.

[booyouimcrazy]

I didn't replace the happiness you gave me.

It's not taken over by other stuff,

Like you predicted it would.

I've found other things to plug the gaps with,

But plugging gaps with people that don't seem to be made from the same fabric as you,

is a slightly different construction maneuver than simply laying bricks.

I AM, however, incessantly glad, it rolled around this fast.

Not going to lie though,

and say i don't think about you (mmnnhmm)

But its a lot less, and definitely less sexual.

I've somehow managed to make peace with the fact that,

If you're not picking me,

and you know you aren't,

that should be a clear enough indicator of things.

I have NO idea what getting my texts feels like to you,

but I'm not blocked yet,

and i definitely celebrated that,

FOR SURE.

I thought I might've been,

after revealing to you, that you weren't making me as sad as before.

It's a joy to not be as sad though.

Maybe it's being at home.

Maybe it's the love of my dogs.

Maybe it's being able to physically hold a human thing and have it love me back.

To be fair,

I knew i was coming back for my dogs anyway,

But they mightve been the band-aid i didn't think would work as well.

They also fill up so much more of my time than regular,

And I've been trying to hustle at work too.

Kinda makes me wonder how the fuck you're doing all your 100 days stuff all alone.

That's insane as all hel