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I feel so alone.

#vent #borderline musings #borderline personality disorder #bpd #actuallybpd #mental illness

perhaps. i do want to be loved. unfortunate.

My mental illness is my responsibility? So if I got cancer, is that too my responsibility? Shit I cannot control is not my responsibility. I'm not "hurting" anyone on purpose, I'm just having symptoms of my mental illness, because it's an ILLNESS. How is this hard for people to understand? You don't tell people with physical illnesses to control themselves. It's the exact same thing. Stop treating mentally ill people like they choose to be some monster. We CAN'T help it.

ct-lambykins

every day i wake up, think about killing myself and then do absolutely fuck all about it

daddystinygirll

the traumatized urge to over explain things so that i'm not misunderstood

brdrlneprsnltydsrdr

I wish people knew rage and despair like I do. Maybe then you wouldn’t think me heartless.

#bpd #borderline musings #borderline personality disorder #actuallybpd #anger #mental illness

My fp just has no fucking idea how hard it is to “use a good coping mechanism” when all I feel is rage. He thinks it’s soooo fucking easy to just set it aside and talk it out. And when I dont manage to fully hold back my anger he tells me I’m not trying

#fuck you.#you dont fucking get it #try living like me #feeling emotions so intense you feel physically sick #vent #borderline musings #borderline personality disorder #actuallybpd #bpd

toosharpteeth

so sick of people’s attitudes towards bpd. we either get vilified or romanticized or just. discredited entirely. i heard someone refer to bpd as “tragically beautiful”. i need to hit something

st4rs4ndm0on-deactivated2025090

I'm so tired. I wanna sleep forever. And then not wake up. Because I'll never get better.

decayingrain

Sorry, im not who you thought I was.

And I'll sorry im not who you wanted me to be.

Sending an angry text and waiting all the day for the other person to respond, knowing that when they do your relationship will be over and you’ll be filled with regret, fear, and still- fucking anger

#vent #borderline personality disorder #bpd #mental illness #borderline musings #actuallybpd

Always always always I get brought down by the people I love and trust the most

#vent #bpd #borderline personality disorder #mental illness

foolisland

neckkiss

Daily quote,lol

I might kill myself after all

#there’s just so little to live for #everyone just keeps telling me this is what life is like #how much I fucked up #how much I’m ruining everything #how much of a burden I am #if I kill myself it’ll be better for everyone no?#life is so miserable what even is the point #vent #tw sui ideation

Actually. If all my half sisters died right now, my life would instantly improve so much.

#vent #I’ve never loved them. I never will.

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