Beautiful Disaster

@borderlinedragonfly

My name is Crystal and I am 26. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in 2012 and have been in DBT since diagnosis. I have also been diagnosed with Bi-polar II, Generalized Anxiety, Social Anxiety, ADD, and Depression. Some days are good some days are bad, 'tis the life with BPD. I am a very kind and passionate person, and if you have any questions or just want someone to talk to, send me a message or an ask. :) Some of the older stuff on my blog may be triggering because I used to use tumblr to express the things I couldn't share on facebook. Now I Hope I can turn it into a positive encourging blog about recovery.

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22tangledpines22

I agree whole heartedly with this.

Suicide is the only way out o all this pain

I wish I was different. I wish I didn’t suffer from borderline personality disorder. I wish I was normal. I wish I knew who I was. I wish I was someone who was worth something. I wish I knew how to love and to be loved. I wish I wasn’t such a fucked up failure. I wish I was stronger. I wish I didn’t feel all of this pain. I wish my life made more sense. I wish others saw the potential inside of me. I wish I didn’t hold myself back from my own ambitions. I wish.

I can’t believe I still love him. I can’t believe I still want him back. He clearly doesn’t understand me and he does not appreciate me. He clearly does not deserve me but I still want him. I’m so stupid! I fail. I’m pathetic. Life is over-rated. Maybe people would appreciate me more if I were dead. I hate myself more than anyone should be able to hate themself. I’m fat and ugly and worthless. I can’t do anything right.. I’m a failure. I mess everything up. I try to be good but I fail. I make people miserable. I don’t want to live this way anymore. I don’t want to live.

#borderline personality disorder #Suicide #break up #pain #depressed

My sweet puppy! Part of my therapy. I've only had her for a month and a half and feel like she's saved my life a few times. She gives me purpose and makes me feel loved. I haven't had any suicidal thoughts since I got her. Not even when things got tough.

#bpd #dog #therapy

kageneki

Reblog if you believe that Demisexuality is a legit sexuality

I’ve had enough with people believing that it’s just a fancy little title for non LGBT+ members to feel especial. Demisexuality exists and it’s legit.

kacey-is-shape-shiftting

sexioto

most people with bpd suffer from extreme fear of (and sometimes delusions of ) abandonment

please be gentle with your bpd friends and remind them as often as you are comfortable that they matter to you and that you still like them

whatsleftofmypoetryblog

I know pretty much what I like and dislike; but please, don’t ask me who I am.

Sylvia Plath (via poetessique)

jellomarshmallow

HELLO. IF YOU’RE READING THIS YOU’RE AUTOMATICALLY PROMISING NOT TO HURT YOURSELF TODAY. NO TAKE BACKS.

themanysidesofruss

BPD thoughts: The hardest thing about getting better is not knowing what “better” feels like.

Me: *checks Facebook* Oh hey, here's a picture of two of my friends together. Looks like they hung out yesterday. Good for them!

BPD: But they didn't ask you to hang out with them, did they?

Me: Well, no, but...

BPD: So they don't want you around tbh

Me: But do we really know that? I mean--

BPD: YES, YES WE DO. They're going to leave you just like everyone else and everyone hates you and you'll be alone 5ever and your life will be empty and meaningless

Me: Why are you doing this