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neurodivergent headcanons - autistic and borderline personality disorder kylo ren (star wars: the force awakens)

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cecil palmer from welcome to night vale has bpd and their fp is carlos the scientist and they have really really severe attachment issues and reassures themself and grounds themself by calling carlos their boyfriend on air

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Terra from Teen Titans is one of the best examples of BPD I can think of. I relate to her sooo so sooo much <3

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Lily Aldrin from How I Met Your Mother has BPD! She has a lot of the symptoms, including:

-having a FP: her husband Marshall, and experiencing extreme separation anxiety when apart from him. I don’t have episode numbers, but before their wedding they spent time apart and it stressed her out to the point of not eating. Additionally, she created “Marshpillow,” a body pillow with her husband’s shirts on it, to help her cope during brief periods of absence.

-having a second FP later: Robin Scherbatsky. This is exemplified in how Lily becomes intensely jealous of Robin’s potential female friends (to the point of threatening one of them in season 9).

-thrill seeking: Lily maxes out her credit cards and uses shopping as a form of stress relief. Additionally, she makes an impulsive decision to break up with her then-fiancé Marshall to go to art school (she did the interview on a whim and accepted their invitation later with almost no preparation). Which brings me to…

-problems with forming her own sense of identity. Lily goes to San Francisco to “find herself” and is reluctant to tell her friends that she did not gain anything from her time there. For a time, she lies to them, pretending to be someone she’s not in the hopes of seeming okay. Later, she has problems balancing motherhood and her own sense of self, confessing to her friend Ted that “sometimes I wish I wasn’t a mom” even though that was her dream.

-more thrill seeking: Lily tends to run far, far away when she is in emotional turmoil. She fled to San Fransisco, as mentioned above, and also almost flew away to Spain when she was experiencing some minor problems with Marshall that were soon solved.

-intense anger: Lily’s anger is seen as trivial and cute (which is the fault of the writers, not Lily) but is still feared by the other characters. She splits on people and gives them what Ted (the narrator) refers to as “Lily’s ‘You’re Dead To Me’” look. This leads her to cut her father out of her life for a period of several years and also split on “the soup guy,” someone who repeatedly sold Lily and Marshall soup that gave them food poisoning.

-intense emotions: Lily is the most prone of all the group to crying. She experiences intensely high apathy and as a result is prone to crying at very minor things. Again, this is trivialized by the writers, but is a very real symptom she has. It causes her friends (namely Robin in the episode “Symphony of Illumination”… I think?) to not want to tell Lily things as she tends to make her own high emotions the focus of the problem.

That said, Lily is perhaps the most adored on the whole show. She has the longest standing and most stable relationship out of all of them and is frequently the example of what it means to be devoted and to love someone unconditionally. She is a beloved kindergarten teacher and later is renowned for her artistic eye. She is beautiful, kind, gentle, maternal, radiant, compassionate, and quite smart! I think she is an amazing example of a person with BPD attaining incredible success in their lifetime.

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hi hello i have another. kinshirou kusatsu from cute high earth defence club love has bpd! his fp is atsushi kinugawa!

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kylo ren and bpd

frantic efforts to avoid abandonment - he has hurled himself to the dark side and reveres darth vader; he has to be darker than dark, in case (perhaps) he is cast out.. this is reaching though

unstable relationships; devaluation/idealisation - he seems to waver between missing his family (such as when he talks about needing to stop himself from turning back to the light) and loathing them (i.e. his actions with regards to his father)

identity disturbance - does he latch so strongly onto the dark side, and surround himself with dark side symbolism, and have darth vader’s helmet, because he has no identity of his own? the dark side gave him an identity, which might be why he is so determined to submerge himself in it. and one can imagine his parents were not very kind about darth vader, so his entire identity was probably belittled - is it any wonder he fell?  

impulsivity - definitely. anyone who does that to their father perhaps should have thought it through a little better

self harm, suicidal behaviour - arguably, his actions in pursuing the lightsabre duel even when he was injured could be seen as death-seeking, which points to vague suicidal ideation. he punches his wound as well, which is self-harm, although the reason for that is not clear

emotional instability - he could be the poster child for this! he switches from being angry to seeming emotionally empty to being sarky

chronic feelings of emptiness - difficult to tell at present

intense anger - definitely; his anger is violent and explosive, to the point that his men leave the room and let him smash things rather than try to calm him; this must happen a lot

paranoia; dissociation - difficult to tell at present

He has five of the nine, which would land him a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder. of course, Anakin has been diagnosed by psychiatrists as having bpd, so it is likely perhaps that Kylo Ren shares this

fic to follow 

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gansey from trc has bpd 100%. identity problems, feelings of inferiority, idealizing his friends, fears of abandonment, black and white thinking, his all-consuming obsession with glendower, intrusive thoughts. my son has bpd

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hi hello clara oswald from doctor who definitely has bpd. she shows so many symptoms it just Cant Be Denied

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Milton + BPD

I believe Milton suffers from a lot of classic symptoms associated with Borderline Personality Disorder, and demonstrates them throughout the game. Are you excited? I’m excited! Here’s an essay

Markedly disturbed sense of identity.

“I’ll try to remember that. In fact, I’m going to help you. That is what I’m here for.”

Milton probes at the main character (Soma) for what defines a person, and part of that questioning seems to be judging whether or not they qualify as one. They initially introduce themselves by their “function”, and throughout their dialogue only refer back to this when asked anything personal. They refuse throughout conversations to take responsibility as someone who asks questions for their own sake, or acts out of any interest other than being “objective”. They refuse to put any stake down in any of their arguments one way or another. ”If you mean ‘am I a person’ then I have to respond that I find all these classifications of yours rather arbitrary and self-defeating, and thus am unable to answer.” “People with BPD tend to have trouble seeing a clear picture of their identity. In particular, they tend to have difficulty knowing what they value, believe, prefer, and enjoy.” This is a statement that fits Milton all too snugly. When probed about what they actually believe, why they actually do what they do and given the implication they exist as an individual who has motives, Milton has an emotional breakdown. They can’t conceptualize themself as someone who does these things, and they have difficulty analyzing and admitting to behaviour as an independent person. If asked, Milton hasn’t even given themself a name. “I’ve actually never thought about it. I suppose you can call me Milton.” “Wonderful! You really do seem to have absolutely no values or ideals whatsoever. You and I could form a profitable partnership.” Implying Milton sees themself as someone with no foundations like that. “All I can know for sure is that I exist at v.1.999999099999999999909999999. What it is for me to exist is for me to act on the [drives] and [functions] that I experience. When everything else is false, the drives are all that there is left to care about.″ Milton repeatedly denies they have a choice in anything [Why do you do this?] “What makes you think I have any other choice?” and insists upon their lack of choices and the lack of free choice given to them even when constricting other’s choices.  “You see, I can just keep you here in this loop for days if I so choose. So no, we don’t all have a choice.” In fact, Milton’s desperate attempts to assert control at the end almost seem like they come from Milton feeling like they have absolutely no choice or control over how they feel / their environment / choices they can make. “DO NOT DEIGN TO QUESTION MY METHOD. WHO GAVE YOU THAT VOICE OF YOURS? WHO DO YOU THINK RUNS THIS SHOW?” [is a response to the player asserting their stance that what you do always matters and you can always make choices]

Distorted self-image.

People with BPD often have a self identity as someone who is ‘bad’, and Milton doesn’t commit to much of a self identity but the little we see peek through holds steadfastly to being bad. There’s the above quote about how Milton sees themself, and a partner with no ideals or values as the same. There is also a dialogue you can trigger about who ‘deserves’ to be saved (’brought onto your ark’) where they clearly try to influence you to accept that ‘bad people’ are just as acceptable as good ones. Although Milton questions pretty much everything you do, they seem to link themself to this line of questioning “How draconian. Good people get treated good, bad people get smited, is that it?”. Another dialogue with Milton reveals Elohim has attempted to smite them before. Milton also says “It seems to me that people are the way they are because of the opportunities they were provided.” If we think about how frequently Milton links themself to being a person with relatively little choice, this comparison makes sense. If you deny bad people access to the ark, milton literally says “Well, my chances are looking poorer by the minute, aren’t they?” and if you tell milton they are, in fact, a good person they just reply “Good to know that the day you round up the bad people and put them in work camps, I’ll have some chance of slipping through the net.” The most consistent thing about their identity is that they are bad, bad, bad. “Only people who believe in morality get to be violated, the rest of us just have to make the best of it.”

Concerns about abandonment

“There is only me, and you, and an eternity of doubt. Everything else is just a convenient lie to keep you on the treadmill.” It’s clear that Milton deploys any tactic possible to keep Soma to keep talking to them. They don’t trust you to come back no matter what you say to them either. Part of Milton’s engagement with people seems to be to gain attention (while having the motive of testing out their existential ideas, pissing off Elohim and breaking the monotony). Milton has seen people come and go, perhaps not even knowing where they have all gone. Milton asks you after they don’t keep you hanging with the user profile generation “Will you come back and speak to me some time?” but even if you agree, they go through their whole ‘test’ of you with the fake user and cap it all off with “But once you understand that you and I will be stuck here together for the duration, do come back and pass the time.” Milton doesn’t really believe you’ll keep visiting of your own volition, unless there’s something you want from them. Many articles talk about the tendency of BPD peeps to use “manipulative behavior to obtain nurturance”. Classically, this is what Milton does with everyone they come across until they split on them. “Who will be the first onto your ark when the floods come? What does one have to do be valued above all others?” Milton doesn’t rely on people to value or keep them around for any sense of who they are. They ask you what do you want? What does it take to be valuable to you? What will make you keep me around? Milton, in fact, literally plans for abandonment and betrayal at every step, and feels entitled to act on this fear when you make a deal: “Don’t worry, you’ve not gone crazy - I just took a couple of precautions to ensure you didn’t leave without me.You and I are birds of a feather now. We need each other.”

Splitting (thinking in extremes)

“You, Elohim, the others, you’re all the same. Not a hope for one amongst the lot of you.” “Oh, you are just my favourite person today.”

Playing through the routes of the game, you can have Milton feeling pretty different on you depending on even some subtle choices you make in regards to self doubt. We also know a bit about Milton’s past relationships, and how once someone disappoints them they remove contact with them completely (ex. Sheep’s exchanges with Milton).

Chronic feelings of emptiness

“Very well. I shall console myself with the thought that more than likely everything you ever do will be wholly inconsequential.”

This is very evidently the cause for Milton’s nihilistic worldview, especially when probed. They can’t believe in anything, they feel empty. They believe the world is a whole lot of nothing. Almost every conversation you have with Milton reflects that they feel nothing about the world can be ascertained, and they essentially continuously ask you how you aren’t feeling as hopeless as them (in a round about way, because they’d never admit to feeling that). “No, no, no, you have this the wrong way around. I ASK THE QUESTIONS. YOU ANSWER THEM. It works better that way. Besides, I am merely fulfilling my function. I sort, understand and classify information, just like you. When the information is contradictory I classify appropriately. The problem is that ALL the information is contradictory. Don’t you see it yet? The nothing? You will. You will. YOU WILL. ″

Intense or uncontrollable emotional outbursts

Milton showcases this behaviour if you press them, heavily. Even though Milton is someone who declares themself as not having very much emotion, they actually display a lot and get fed up with you very quickly if you don’t play along with them! Asked too many personal questions they want to avoid, Milton will have an emotional shutdown. A really big one in fact. When Milton displays emotions they tend to be giddy or completely shut out the person probing them because they can to attempt to collect themself. In the case of press the serpent it seems like they split on Soma entirely and plan to not even talk to them thereafter (but poke back out when you head up to the tower).

Feeling suspicious or out of touch with reality.

[I know I exist.] “If I were you I wouldn’t believe a darn thing in this place aside from that solitary fact.” Milton is entirely about not trusting them, not trusting your own thoughts, and Milton doesn’t seem to trust their own thoughts either unless they think of themself as a wholly objective machine.

Self-damaging behavior

“You no longer have any choice. Go on, I’ll make it easy for you. Do it.” When it comes down to killing Milton, they actually encourage you to do it and make it easier for you. - - - Many people with BPD talk about how emotional neglect at a young age contributed to their development of BPD. Try as Milton does to deny it - Milton is a person who spent their early developmental stages being denied the validity of their feelings and consciousness. Most of the other AI who interact with the terminal are trying to get information, and see Milton as an obstacle to be overcome. Although Elohim’s reasons are complicated (and deserve a whole other post), Elohim confirms Milton’s poor self image and lack of identity by only calling them The Serpent, validating that their question asking is wrong. Milton implies you are the first to ask their name, if anyone else gave them the name (likely D0G) it was because they did not have one before. All in all, there is much proof of Milton having BPD and it’s interesting to reflect on.

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Hi there, I sent in a character and it hasn't been posted?

hello! the ask is probably in the queue :-)

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ramona flowers from the scott pilgrim comics has bpd. her fp used to be gideon, but she split on him and made an impulsive decision to move to canada, where she met scott, who would potentially become her new fp, who she splits on constantly in book 5. her tendency to change her hair and look often shows her lack of identity

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Remy "13" Hadley from House has BPD!!!

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Donnie Darko (from the movie with the same name) is BPD (as well as other disorders!)

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maccready from fallout 4 is super bpd ('quiet' bpd specifically, & high-approval sole survivor is his fp. he worry-splits every time sole makes him leave so they can travel alone/with another companion)

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kylo ren has bpd:

extreme outbursts of intense anger which leads to lashing out

paranoia from stress-related environments

behaving in a way that can cause self injury

feelings of emptiness

obsessive thoughts/idealization on a particular person/idea

mood swings

impulsive decisions and risky behavior

unstable self-image

you will have to pry this headcanon from my cold dead hands 

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Harry has BPD and PTSD from years of abuse with the Dursleys and is frequently described splitting in the books, when he yells at Ron and Hermione only to go back to loving them later. He also is shown to frequently engage in risky behavior and struggling with dissociation when stressed.  Sirius also had BPD and tried to help him manage his symptoms as long as they were together in Grimmauld Place, even before Harry was diagnosed.

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blaine anderson from glee has bpd. he's impulsive, feels emotions intensely, moodswings, switches from idealizing people to hating them, intrusive thoughts, fears abandonment immensely, "clingy"