this is a shared account between alters within a MINOR-BODIED system! :3
we are collectively taken by three WONDERFUL people!!!! love those guys :3 and are collectively fluidflux (i think???) or smth fluid; not coming on here to look for friends or anything, more-so just to have a place to yap! however, bonding is great and i'd personally welcome it :DDD
while interests do vary between the two of us, the consistent ones are: args, singing, our loved ones, physical touch (by trusted people,) youtubers, music, and nature! there are likely more, but yeah :P
here's our intros by the two that'll be running the show, in rentry!!! >_<
(that was a tadc ref)
MY INTRO:
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my name's sidi :3
i use she/sidi pronouns, generally! fine with he/him
me-specific interests:
celebrations, buying gifts, decorating/making things (i made the rentries and pluralkit profiles teehee,) flowers, feathers, romantic movies & films, butterflies, spring time, fireworks, lights, being the #1 hype man ever, and so on! :33
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FEAR'S INTRO:
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formatted by sidi... thanks
i'm fear, feargeyt(6774) to be specific (t
fear-specific interests:
writing (they're a GREAT writer,) reading, watching animals, taking naps, voidcore, penguinz0/moistcr1tikal, specifically sunflowers, the moon, oversized hoodies, our room, and so on! >w<
Happy fucking pride Jonathan was murdered for being queer AND native It was a hate crime His death wasn’t by natural causes Jonathan Joss being queer and also native is a big thing as to why he was targeted in a hate crime That’s being left out of this conversation by non natives esp white non natives right now We know why They erasing that part of this During pride and indigenous month no less too His queerness and being indigenous are linked in this
“Why was he living in Texas In the South We didn’t he move to a blue state?” He was a Comanche Native in Texas He was already fucking home I know what white people are doing in posts like these But natives queer people Black people disabled people and people of color also live in the fucking south Where is that meme about white people acting like the north doesn’t also have bigotry cuz they have pizza ovens Happy fucking pride Remember that bipoc and qtipoc exist
Special shoutout to all the queer, intersex, and trans het folks. Sorry for all the “it’s illegal to be straight this month” jokes you’ll have to endure. Y’all are still very much part of the community.
pride on tumblr is so fun!!!11!!! the heart turns into a rainbow when you hit the like button 😆😆😆 the tumblr staff and algorithm continues to be exceedingly transphobic and especially transmisogynistic. trans women are getting banned left and right for merely existing. please don’t let another version of rainbow capitalism distract you
things have been somewhat complicated. on one hand, sidi's no longer frontstuck, and that's great for her. but, i'm alone right now, and i've never been alone. plus, father has gotten harsher, and creepier, sort of? he's asleep now, though.
i figured out that i like cavetown, on the bright side. it was storming earlier, and it was scary, but i didn't panic too much. so, that's good. ice cream awaits in the kitchen, if i'd ever want it. also good!
i wrote some more; it's really calming. i might do the dishes later. i'm trying to make myself less scared/uncomfortable by training myself to be better right now. so, i have my curtains pushed off to the side, and have been trying to live as normal. anyone outside, if they looked, would be able to see me. but, i'm okay right now. so, progress is happening. yay?
i might make myself a playlist for music that i like. i don't know why i haven't yet...?
(no warnings; some anxiety/fear, but that's to be expected)
well, i've been feeling a little better now. apparently, the host's lover knows about us? i didn't know that...? and i don't know how i didn't know that, either. maybe i did, and forgot.
whatever.
point is, some things are improving. i hope that i don't panic tonight—there are two things that we need to do today. i am excited(?), but also very afraid. i guess that's to be expected.
it looks like a nice day outside. there's still time before he gets home. so, i am technically free until then.
i should probably eat now. i have pokemon cards now, though. the lover might like those. do peace offerings work on people? i hope, because i may just take a few photos of them and then go offline, lol.
oh, and i wrote another song. very eventful day, i guess.
Today I wanted to talk about Marlow Trottie. Marlow was a 35 year old Black woman living in Louisiana, whose friends and family described as always having "a smile on her face" and as being "literally the sweetest person I’ve ever met!”, according to Them news' Quispe López.
Marlow Trottie was killed on June 8th 2026. She was found dead, alone, in the streets of Alexandria, Louisiana. It was a homicide.
Marlow Trottie was a woman. Her family has contested this, and publicly misgendered her, and many news sites have already deadnamed and misgendered her as well. I fear what her obituary will say. I fear what her gravestone will say even more.
She joins a growing list of other trans women who have been killed simply for existing. Again from Them news, that list now numbers 11 women from the past 3 months alone.
(warnings for mental health issues, implied bad parenting, and descriptions of body mutilation (kind of), i guess?)
i really don't know what's wrong with me anymore? and i don't know what else to talk about.
i've felt this day for ages. i don't know if i'm who causes all of the constant fear/anxiety that we feel, but i feel like i am responsible, because i'm constantly so afraid.
we'll have to see a friend soon, for a few days. what if mess something up? the others have told me that it'll be fine, that she cares about and likes us, but i can't believe them.
every time i talk, it is because i am afraid.
and it is four in the morning, and i am afraid.
do these symptoms ever clear? i don't want to exist. why did we have to go through all of that? and why, if i have to deal with everything forever, do i have to forget it all? i want to handle it. i'm strong enough to survive it, and i'm already living in nonstop fear, so why must i forget?
i don't understand.
we choose to surround ourself with people who we deem safe—some systems, some not. yet, i haven't felt anything change. i'm honestly just tired. maybe i should sleep. i tell myself that rest will help, but it never does. and when i put my phone down, i am left with my thoughts.
yet, we are also forced to interact daily with someone who is unsafe to us as his child. so, maybe i'm not wrong for being so scared. if i screamed for help, nobody in this city would hear, because suddenly, everyone would remember that they're deaf. they hide behind fake smiles and false gestures, but i know what they want.
sometimes i wonder if i'm the one that did something wrong, only to realize that i've tried my best since day one. i'm not to blame for my bad life. still, inescapable guilt for things that i never did scratch into my skin like hungry vermin. they come for my soul. they come for my heart. they have already taken me. i hope to taste freedom someday, and i hope for it to stick.
at least my writing's good. at least i am a good person. but, at the very least, i want to be rewarded with peace. don't i deserve that?
Even if some of us are still in denial, we wouldn't want it any other way.
Don't think I need to say this but ofc some of us are more vivid and distinct than others, but really, so many of us are subtle in the way we present. We also didnt draw aaalll of us at the end, too lazy to draw all of us lmao. Way too many.
happy pride month to those in the closet. to those who went back into the closet. to those who have unsupportive families, friends and relationships. those who were bullied and harassed because of their identity. those who were killed because of who they truly were and loved.
was about to talk about how i am the biggest quesadilla lover ever but oh my god i just heard the ice cream truck and it is so :((( pretty!!!!!!!
i dont know when the last time that i've had ice cream was BUT i love that little song it does, it's like a happy lil parrot copying an iphone alarm >w<
