daughter of the sail made out of steel

ABANDONED/INACTIVE | 25 y/o | gnc bi | call me (capt) kidd :D | only keeping this up as an archive

[boy-ishe]

hi all just wanted to make a post to pin in case anyone wonders what's up

i spend too much time on social media and it's become apparent how much of a drain of time and mental health it's become.

so i deleted/am in the process of deleting the worst offenders(twt/insta/fb/tt etc) but i decided it's time to leave tumblr behind too.

it's been a splendid time but i think i need to at least take a break if not leave altogether.

im leaving the blog(s) up as an archive/to return to some day.

[legacydevice]

Amstrad PPC640

[elliotschafer]

2023

1. OK, THIS IS NOT YOUR GRAVE, GET OUT OF THIS HOLE

2. OK, THIS IS ALSO NOT YOUR GRAVE, GET OUT OF THIS HOLE

3. THIS IS ALSO NOT YOUR GRAVE, GET OUT OF THIS HOLE

4. THIS IS NOT OUR GRAVE, GET OUT OF THIS HOLE

5. LOOK AT THE SKILL AND SPIRIT WITH WHICH I RISE FROM THAT WHICH RESEMBLES THE GRAVE BUT ISN’T. 

[everythingfox]

Bunny stretches to get kisses

[softdaisie]

maybe mediocrity isn’t wrong. maybe you don’t need to be the best at everything you do. maybe you don’t need to be the best at anything you do. it’s ok to simply do things because you enjoy doing them. its ok to not want to advance in your job. nothing has to be a competition. you don’t need to be better than anyone. you can do things just because they’re fun. you don’t need to read up on the history, and know everything about it. its ok to just exist. its ok.

[diabolicjoy]

you can start learning anything you always wanted at any point in your life. & how nice it is to remember that

[petitworld]

[via]

[no240s]

[bakwaaas]

despite everything …. I’m grateful I got a chance to be alive… to experience love and good food and sunsets. isn’t that the point of it all really

[laduree-et-cigarettes]

In the mood for sweet things~

[catherinegraffam]

I recreated Caravaggio’s “Judith Beheading Holofornes” in Kid Pix Studio from 1995 using a mouse

[darkforestwarriors]

listen i have some bad news. Yeah, so I accidentally deleted the layer that had your boyfriend on it. I don’t have enough undo’s to get him back. I’m so fuckign sorry

[lizzy-bennet]

Deleted Leia sass from The Empire Strikes Back

[ragnell]

Leia, you were scheduled for execution.

[imaginarycircus]

She had it under control.

[i-know-how-my-story-ends]

God I'm a sucker for characters who are so utterly loyal to someone that they're completely unhinged. Characters who have no moral compass except their overwhelming devotion to whoever they've chosen to listen to. That's the good shit

[ritikajyala]

Last night, I told my mother "I wish I was dead" in a fit of rage and winter clouded her eyes. But it wasn't white and it wasn't quiet, it resembled something like helplessness and rage. She was in pain and I knew I hurt her. I wanted to say something, anything, but how do you withdraw a declaration of war? How do you stop the bombs that already destroyed homelands? In that moment I remembered how she always told me that when she was a kid, she was too afraid to sleep with the lights on. Not because she was afraid of monsters, but because she feared her grandmother would die. Because when you're a kid, not seeing it means it doesn't exist anymore. I saw the winter in her eyes again and I knew I had switched off the light, she wasn't angry, she was afraid.

And I also remembered how she always told me I'd always be 3 years old for her, always a child, and for the first time, I heard in the voice of a three year old "I wish I was dead". My heart broke. And I wanted to hug her and hold her, tell her I was sorry, that I didn't mean it. Before I could move a hand, she left the room. The entire evening, I saw myself as she saw me, a 3 year old child. I saw the child hurt herself and cry herself to sleep every week, fight her friends with her tiny hands and two ponytails, I saw her depression and her anxiety, I saw her yell "I wish I was dead" and I knew. I knew. I wanted to shout through the walls, yell and cry and tell my mother that now I KNEW, but I didn't. I wept and wept until I heard a quiet knock and a soft familiar voice whispered, "Dinner is ready".

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

[thisisallthehattersfault]

Hunger Games didn’t really eat holes in my brain the way that it did for some other people but god the opening lines. The opening lines. Katniss wakes up in bed and immediately, instinctively reaches beside her, only to find the bed empty and cold. Before we even know her name – before we know literally anything about her or this world or her place in that world – we know that she loves someone. We know that she is reaching for where Prim should be, sleeping safe and warm beside her, but Prim is not there. She is not there, and her half of the bed is cold and empty. People talk about characters being “doomed by the narrative” when most of the time the character was literally just a well-foreshadowed death, but Prim WAS doomed by the narrative. It’s the very first thing we learned. It’s the most key, integral, important piece of information we’re given about everything that is about to happen: Every single choice Katniss makes is to protect her little sister, and it isn’t enough. In the end, Prim still dies. Prim was dead before the story even started. Katniss, reaching. Prim’s side of the bed was cold and empty. There is no version of this story where Prim could have been saved. Katniss, reaching. The very first thing she does in the series. She wakes, and she reaches, but Prim is already gone. THAT is how you do Doomed By The Narrative. Edit: Also it is key that there was literally nothing Katniss could have done differently. If she had not acted to save Prim, Prim would not have survived the Hunger Games. But by acting to save Prim, Katniss accidentally kicked off an entire rebellion and ultimately massively increased the amount of danger Prim was actually in. The key is that this is irrelevant. If Katniss had done literally anything differently, Prim still would have died. If Katniss had faltered or changed course at any point, Prim still would have died. There was never a point where Katniss could have changed Prim’s fate. There’s no version of this story where Prim lives to see the end of it. She’s dead before the story begins. That’s doomed by the narrative.

[catchymemes]