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21 | he/him | i read and student ;-;

[boynamedbash]

I’m Sebastian, I like books, comics, music, working out and studying (lie)

I like making friends, don’t fear being awkward because chances are I will beat you at that game

Few more things abt me:

I love running (I hate myself)

I like reading but uni sometimes gets in the way

I really love sharing music and listening to new music

I love watching movies

Motorsports :D esp F1 and GT3 specifically

STEM major so watch out for the depression posts

TW for talking about my ED... not promoting anything, just wanna have a place to vent about it.

[boynamedbash]

2 more exams

1 this week

[boynamedbash]

Whoever has my voodoo doll is working overtime because why is everything going wrong ;-;

[mrblewndmill]

Me when I wake up and I’m a bug and nobody even wants to look at me or touch me

[boynamedbash]

The urge to end it all is so prominent you could diagnose me with clinical depression with suicidal ideation if you saw me. The depths of despair that exams put me in are a pathology at this point not a reaction to the situation im in.

[boynamedbash]

The universe is testing my patience and i dont think the universe knows how willing i am end it fr

[boynamedbash]

26.april

Study time: 4h 10m

Anatomy notes ;-;

When will anatomy take less than the 3h?

This was me trying to rush too... at least i finished the anatomy notes for now so i have time to revisit later. I was planning to finish 4 things but ended up finishing 2. I have Thursday as a buffer day to catch up on the things I couldn't finish.

New student asked me to teach him the "Tornado kick" which is something I never attempted so when I said I didn't know it he said "are you a yellow belt?" (should i kms? ;-;) but its pretty funny his threshold of being an advanced fighter is whether you know the 360 kick or not.

I also ended up not eating anything worth more than 100 cals today. I got myself something last night but one of my friends ate it because he thought it was for whoever is hungry (even though it was in my room but i digress). I ended up getting so upset I went to bed ;-; it's stupid ik but i blame it on not eating anything tbh

[boynamedbash]

25.april

Study time: 1h 42m

Anatomy notes - 1h 30m Case review - 12m

Severely sleepy today for some reason. Calling it a night early ;-;

Worked out which probably caused my crash but oh well, it was a nice workout. I'm definitely undereating though so I'm planning to fix that tmrw by making food prep.

Hopefully tmrw is a better day <3

[boynamedbash]

24.april

Study time: 4h 10m

Biochemistry notes - 2h 13m Obstetric notes - 1h 56m

Good amount done today too

Did not workout today but my body is already cooked so i decided to rest. Baked some goods for my friend who gave me a bunch of chocolate :D they were imported too so im excited.

Pretty tired, so apologies for not responding to dms as efficiently as i should but the lectures are beckoning me to study them.

[seiitchi]

[echoing-st4rs]

How many grams of protein are in a tight hug and a scalp massage? Just asking ... for scientific reasons. Totally.

[ledwinged]

[privygrid]

there is nothing healthy about the love hate relationship i have with my major like i fucking love this subject it's the worst thing to ever exist i would die for it i hope it explodes

[boynamedbash]

23.april

Study time: 3h 24m

Anatomy notes - 38m Pathology notes - 2h 45m

locked in well today, good amount done tbh.

week 2 material is mostly covered so far, i just need to cover the obstetric lectures which i have not touched yet. tmrw im hoping to finish week 2 and get some good amount of week 3 done.

i worked out today and got to spend time with beginners teaching them some things :) it was really fun watching them learn, they were fast learners too.

tmrw is gonna be an eventful day, hopefully i can study 5+ hours. hoping saturday to be strictly solving and review. im getting ahead of myself, im gonna try to take it one day at a time.

[wormsermonizer]

up dog

[boynamedbash]

Sometimes I forget I’m not 17 anymore

[boynamedbash]

2 weeks then 5 exams in the span of 1.5 weeks

Watch out for the depression posts theyre about to happen 10x more often