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i left my soul in his vision

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sorry this took so long stuff came up irl and i havent been stable enough to come online

i  came back on to apologize for my racist actions. ive done some gross things and expected other people to help me fix my behavior, when i should have been the one to fix it. it was gross and i’ll be working very hard irl to become a better person and change my behavior so i can recognize my own racist actions and not rely on other people to recognize them for me.

my therapist and i agreed that this site and social media in general is too much stimulation for me right now with my mental state and new meds, so i’ll probably be leaving for a while, if not for good. i wont be talking to anyone for a while sorry! thank you all for being kind to me on here 

bye!

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dick fell off at the gym again. you know how it is

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that post was getting too long so i’m going to respond here instead @megamitensei4

i understand where you’re coming from and what you’re saying, and i won’t say anything to refute it. what you sai d makes perfect sense. you don’t have to try to help him anymore,  nor does leaf or anyone else who’s frustrated with him right now, but i’ll be willing to. i know how aggravating it can get to try and help white people be less racist, especially when it seems to yield no results, but i’m relatively close to him and .. whatever (sorry i don’t really know howw to word what i’m trying to say)

i’m not asking for you to stop posting about him or anything like that, however, he’s going to IM you all when he has the time to. i think he really just wanted the flow of namedrops to stop since he couldn’t respond to them or handle it right now, and he thought that if he (or someone) didn’t respond, that you might keep posting about him, which made him n ervous and which is why i offered to help.

but yeah, i understand what you’re saying and it makes total sense to me. 

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allow flowers to grow on the places in your heart that people left hollow

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@boynsfw I genuinely want to know why it’s so hard for you to apologize to anyone without having to whitesplain your way out of things and then backpedal when someone catches you. I have been very patient with you and other people in your friend group yet you can’t seem to muster the basic fucking decency to stop treating people of color as aggressive, having your token black friend go talk to you and not even bother PMing someone yourself, and then when all that stupid ass mess is over with, you act exactly how we keep telling you not to act. 

Charlie you better get some motherfucking act right because I’ve had it up to here with you and it’s obvious you can’t be talked to privately so I have to drag you up and down my fucking dashboard. 

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hi clover, it’s miel and i’m speaking for charlie because he has extremely poor mental health right now and can’t handle this properly at the moment, though he wants this drama done with so he doesn’t have to log off of tumblr parnaoid/anxious. and i’m also going to be reblogging this for him so that his followers know what’s going on.

charlie has been trying extremely hard to apologize sincerely without whitesplaining (i’ve been at his aid this entire time and i’ve been trying to help him the best i could) and he IS sincerely sorry that what he’s said has come across as whitesplaining or like he’s trying to just worm his way out of whatever problems he got into. he understands that he’s aggravated and/or hurt you all and he’s really sorry for it. he knows there’s no excuse for what he did, and he’s genuinely sorry. there isn’t much he can do besides use his words.

also the “having your token black friend go talk to you and not even bother pming someone yourself” thing (i don’t know if i’m interpreting this wrong, so if i am, please correct me) but if i’m the token black friend he’s talking to, you’re wrong. i offered to help him because charlie is a friend of mine. he didn’t pm someone himself because, as i stated, he has poor mental health right now (though he did PM leaf on his own a few moments ago talking about his mental health and whatever else). 

and like, i hate white people and being lenient with white people as much as the next person, but i DO know when people (including whites) are being genuine and just don’t know how to go about things. people aren’t black and white with their morals, and change isn’t instantaneous or easy, especially when coming from a place of privilege, so if he keeps making mistakes, he has to keep being corrected. charlie seems to be a good/decent person, and he’ll for sure change over time. you, leaf, and anyone else of course is under no obligation to be the ones to carry that task, so i’ll try and correct his mistakes as best as i can as a POC myself.

he is sincere and apologizes from the bottom of his heart, and will be able to take this into the DM’s when he’s in a position mentally to do so.

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Leaf called u a bitch

ok

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sorry i havent been on we're making big adjustments to my meds and im really unstable rn

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@galras i just saw someone talking about how hot levi ackerman is in s2 and im ready to commit

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get snk off my dash i am so fucking tired

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Hey, someone noticed! I’m doing it because the idea of someone searching for porn and finding a rock instead is funny to me.

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usually talking to friends helps me feel better but now it just makes me feel paranoid and anxious

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